hello friend the past 5 months have been tough. i don't want to go in details, since i know what i have been through. this is about me now. maybe i'll tell something randomly later, but now i don't have the mind to. i have never been so lost and afraid before. all i want is to get into a place of safety and peace, that's all i have ever wanted. but this seems to be a reality i'm very far from. i don't even know if what i want can be fully reached.. maybe when i leave this world. i truly need guidance.