- the end of this year is being a discovery journey. i believe that i have a true and profound love for fashion and making clothes. on friday i'm planning to photograph the new outfits i made. which makes me excited. [my nails are so long i can't even type properly. i try to learn more and more about the clothing process. i love my teachers and learning how to solve proplems. my goal is that in about 6 months from now, i'll have a new project on the way, maybe selling clothes, making my own brand, working on a concept.. i'm not really sure but i'm definetely going to figure it out. i do not like the feeling of facing a problem and not knowing hot to solve it. that's why i'll work hard on adquiring as much as knowledge as i can. i know i can reach great things by studying and putting it to work. i really do have great taste in everything. also, i have new fabric coming.
- let's talk about my appearance for a second. i am not feeling pretty at the moment, luckily, the tables will turn when i shower and put on some cute clothes.and when i make my hair, eyebrows and put on a full face of makeup. i am also feeling bloated cause i'm not eating as i should and also my period is coming up. i just have to work on my self control and be patient.
- my mind hasn't been feeling very well. maybe i need to go out more and do more exercises. i have no energy at all.. i'm feeling so lazy lately.. i have also gained 2kg. haven't been helping my mom on the house chores.. i feel bad for her but at the same time can't manage to do better.. i can even feel her exhaustion and dissappointment with us somehow.
- my career path.. what can i say? nothing happened at all.
- my love life? what can i say? nothing happened at all.
- i wish i had something to continue to chew on here.
- sometimes i think about pedro. i'm not sure if he's dating and don't think i truly actually care. i'm so scared of meeting new people. to be honest, a boyfriend.. now? not sure if it would work.
- i also stopped praying and talking to god. i can't explain exactly why, but i don't feel listened when i do. might be my fault.
- i have never been more confused on the things i should do, the decisions i should make. thank God i have my mother with me at all times.
- i have to get up and react. quickly
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