- wasn't gonna write anything here. not archive. my paranoia that someones watching me didn't go away yet. but even tho its personal and i hate having people knowing too much about my feelings, i'm gonna write it anyways. the reasons are 1: we are all going to die 2: no one cares abt me that much. 3: no ones actually reading this. i also feel like i'm trying to hard to make this note in specific, enjoyable for someone to read. and this is not what i want. i just want to throw away everything that im thinking. that's literally the main reason why i made this acc, its nothing performative. this is not suposed to be read by someone besides me. pls get tf out of here if youre seeing this in the bookmarks anyways, i dont feel good. i'm consumed by a feeling of hopelessness and disatisfaction. currently i'm too lazy and i'm hating every single activity that i do. i've been spending way to much time in the -- as welll. am i even allowed to feel this? unsatisfation? why? i have everything i need. but i still feel empty, like i have no reason to stay here. no ones making me happy. i ain't got nobody at all. i've been living for the hope that something good happens eventually... since i can remember. this breaks my heart in ways that i can't describe in words
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