the notes name is clickbait. just trying to organize some thoughts. ever since i've made a weekly to do list, i feel very productive, i feel like my brain wants to do everything at the same time and then i get lost or just don't do anything at all. it is important to set goals. i'm not a hundred percent sure of what i want yet but i do have an idea noow. i'll just know for sure when i know myself and my desires more. the day when i get some balls and stop being so paralyzed by fear of getting hurt. righ now what i want is: professional success, love experiences, going out with friends and to get pretty and intelligent. its basically it. in order for this things to happen i need to get out of my comfort zone, and i do believe that now is the time. i'm tired of feelingg inferior to people and being ashamed of who i am. so i need to change who i am for the better and finally have some growth. i am capable of this. analyzing now one of these topics.. i have i few things to chew on.. don't know if i want to talk abbout this now tho. but lets do this . lovve life; i'm having a few opportunities to go out but most of them are jerks and i also fear to fuck up everything like getting assaulted of something. in order to go out with someone i need to trust them just a little. but you can never trust men completely. im wondering about what i am going to do.. hopinh that god will guid me for the best... .and about my friends i believe that everything is ok. im kinda upsetwith kelv cause he saidhe was coming to my house, and then cancelled last minute. i cared a little but moving on;; apart from this theres nothing to say. about my father. he never seems proud of me. i want my parents to be proud of me. i will get this sooner than i think. i will change for the better. been listening to a lot of pharrell wiliamsand daft punk lately.