- sometimes staying in your confort zone is truly the best option; what's the point of having experiences if you know it's gonna be bad? if you know it's gonna be akward? ok, maybe some lessons can be learned from that, but it can give you trauma as well. my first and last date wasn't good for me. i did not like it. and i had one tomorrow, but it decided to cancel today. best decision ever. i don't even like him that much and wasn't feeling like making out. it just does not makes sense to me. making out with someone you'll probably wont see again + have no plans of creating a strong bond and connection. it's pointless. i'm way deeper than that.
- that being said, i feel so fucking cozy rn. i'm in my breniform, my hair's washed, i just showered, i'm in some nice clean clothes, i just brushed my teeth and did my skincare, i have some cool socks on, i owe nothing to nobody and i can sleep peacefully, knowing im not going out with a boy i dont even like that much just to have something to say to my friends.
- instead, i patiently for the day that i'll feel in love again. with someone real this time. the day where i'll feel loved too. not by my looks or the things i do. but for just me being me. my creativity, my mind, my silly jokes, my habits, my tastes.
- and i also think i'm ready to show affection to somebody as well. to love someone just the way they love me. and, when this day finally comes, i wont even be able to recognize the girl who's writing this rn. true love changes people for the better... random dates with strangers don't.
aug 26 2022 ∞
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