- i'll start with some paranoia: i'm so terrified of someone reading this shit.
- so, back to the topic of this note: i'm flustered. i've been thinking about someone who's very important to me. and i'ts weird because i thought this person was dead and buried, and i was beggining to move on and stop caring. i can't say i care as much as i did one day. i face it with a better mindset than before ofc. but it's still in me. this person is coming back to me. i don't know when, but it will. till then, imma do me.
- i'm still reflective and upset about how my friend tortures me at every chance she gets. this is so disappointing. i feel physical pain when i go through this. can't you just act like a decent human being for once? the thing is, is not even one friend who does this. my other friend, which i cherished so much and considered my best friend, did this too lol. and i didn't see it coming. and when the last straw happened, i was finally able to notice the mean things she does.
- i feel like everyone is doing something with their lives and i'm stuck here. i hate myself sometimes. i can't say that i'm in a good relationship with myself this year. i've been spendind a lot of time at home for years and years. and seeing myself with loungewear and frizzy hair and dark circles didn't help. i'm still taking care of myself tho.
- i'm tired of competing with people cause, recently, i never win.
- my mom is still sad and anxious. she's not ok at all. i'll think about ways that i can help her.
- i think that one of my guy friends is so handsome. i'm having nasty thoughts abt him lol. i don't know why to be honest. i don't understand myself.
- it's all very complicated
- todays highest point: i bought stuff
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