- in comparison to other years, i'm more open to new experiences in my life. and i have more courage to do so. i've realized that my innocence is worse than i thought it was. i'm very very very innocent. i'm not saying this in a pick me way. who knows me, knows that i am innocent. and get hurt a lot. like a little animal.
- i'm always excusing myself and this is so fucking exhausting
- i wish i liked myself a little bit more. i cringe at everything to be honest. i've been thinking about every single aspect of my life and everything's worrying me at the moment. i wish i saw myself through other peoples eye. i wish i saw my real value. because mine doesnt count. i wish for things to get better soon. i dont feel joy or motivation to do anything. and i havent been feelinf this days.
- the constant feeling of being left behind. its so consuming. i wish i was normal and wish i had a normal face, normal experiences, normal fears and stuff. i wish i'd stop feeling sorry for myself. everything is a godamn competition. i just cannot take it anymore. i'm tired. i wish people didnt see me as inferior. i know this is not paranoia from my head. and i know people dont really think of me as much im supposing they do..... i want to be admired and truly loved so bad.... its all i want in life. i have no idea on what to do, but i'm feeling hurt. i need fixing in many aspects of me . no ones listening to me . im getting no answers whatsoever
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