- today i saw the member of my family who i've mentioned before. i saw her for the first time in 8 months. if i had to describe it in a word, it would be, surprisingly: easy. yes. easy, not akward, not unconfortable, none of that. it was just easy. i came up to her upfront and said that it was strange but she recieved me very well. i know that she realized that, some of the things that she said wasn't ok. so i'd say, that i have a bond back, or, at least, 1 less problem. 1 less thing to worry, be sad about and sabotage me for. i just have to be aware and careful. it's ok to be disappointed too.
- another thing that made me happy today, is that i've beeen so complimented. from the moment i came to the street, a guy horned on his motorbike SO LOUD AND CONTINOUSLY i was shocked. my aunties and uncles also complimented a lot. and at this gathering i realized how much i've changed as a person. i deal with my anxieties in a different way. i talked in such a calm and serene and thoughtful and empathetic way!!! i was also so confident. i wasn't scared at all. of course, i still have a long way to go, but, overall i'm really satisfied with the progress. i truly feel so thankful. i'm glad i went there. it was good for me.
- tomorrow.... oh my........... tomorrow. i'm so excited. my first appintment for my treatment is tomorrow. i hope that everything goes well and i can afford it. i'm going to pray with a lot of faith today. everything is gonna be just fine.
- i think i won. good things aren't coming anymore. they're actually here. and today i was almost bren.
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