• my neck that swelled 20x overnight
• fucking panesar (my doctor fyi)
• it being true that doctors actually DO poke and prod you
• having to get a blood test (more importantly seeing someone else convulse after their blood test, someone else faint, and also seeing four tubes of blood being pulled out of my veins and feeling sick)
• going back to the doc's two hours after for an x-ray which for some reason also made me nervous as hell (as in I had repetitive AM I GOING TO DIE thoughts which I realize are fairly ridiculous but no one's going to see this anyway)
• being at the supermarket for two hours with two toddlers who are annoying as fuck
• getting yelled at by the father for an honest mistake and feeling like shit and completely guilty afterwards
• seeing mom get yelled at for my mistake
• seeing her take it because it is completely normal
• the fact that it is their anniversary and he probably didn't even say I love you
• my parents might not love each other
• right now my obnoxious relatives are over for no reason
• my parents' anniversary is being thrown down the garbage
• they don't even care
• why don't they care
• I am so sad at seeing my mom working so hard for the past three hours
• and in the end always getting yelled at

why am I like this. why is everything like this.