may, in bullet points ★

— eight

• braced myself to overcome my fear of making this list because everyone knows i can't commit;
• can't bother to deal with school so i did my english final in under 30 minutes;
• read the essential rumi which is selected poems of rumi and found some of new favorites.

— nine

• little brother's birthday! ate his cake for breakfast;
• read selected poems of langston hughes and reminded of the black lives matter movement since his works are heavily influenced by race;
• ate tomyam shabu with mum right after finals while it's raining;
• read crush, a selection of richard siken's poems and i'm glad i did because he's everywhere on tumblr;
• read compilation of poetry by faiz ahmad faiz but i don't understand a thing.

— ten

• last day of finals;
• started on earth we're briefly gorgeous;
• spent the day listening to discoveries playlist on spotify and adding the songs into currents.

— eleven

• had a good laugh with grandpapa;
• seventeen's mymy music video! it's only a b-side of their upcoming album yet it's very well-thought.

— twelve

• wrote a letter for kak dina to ship along with a little life while listening to her dedicated playlist;
• the king: eternal monarch finale, my god.

— thirteen

• woke up late because i stayed up til 1 (because of the finale) last night;
• shipped kak dina's package.

— fourteen

• laptop broke, forgot what i did.

— fifteen

• went to school after so, so long to collect books;
• watched spiderman: into the spider verse with little brother;
• (laptop still broke, forgot what i did)

— sixteen

• rewatched spiderman: far from home with the whole family;
• (laptop still broke, forgot what i did)

— seventeen

• opened my letterboxd account again at long last;
• went on a movie spree after a long time;
• finally slept early.

— eighteen

• laptop's fixed and i finally use it;
• received kak dina's package, there is in total 3 books (1 is a poem book and the other 2 is about black lives! my heart swelled) and a letter. i am so moved and thankful to her;
• a movie spree again, this time it's two of koreeda's works. i start to think i have to devote time and pay more attention to asian/poc cinema;
• on page 30 of the book kak dina gave, the fire this time. i owe her for making me pick up a physical book again. jokes, i owe her my life.

— nineteen

• watched movies even though not as many as i planned;
• played with my smallest cousin, mum, grandmama and grandpapa;
• on page 50 of the fire this time;
• drank a little coffee at night, end up doing nothing yet sleeping late.

— twenty

• woke up sleepy, drank coffee;
• cried watching us and them first thing first in the morning;
• grades for the sem is out, overall it improved but my ranking in class is down (i try to bite this);
• rode a bike after god knows how long;
• slept early at 9.

— twenty one

• woke up first before my dad;
• watched the pilot ep of it's okay to not be okay;
• rode a bike again;
• finally ate out and grabbed frapuccino on the way home;
• had a good time with fam at grandmama's house;
• slept early again right at 9.

— twenty two

• woke up refreshed;
• buzzing about seventeen's henggarae comeback;
• first listen of the album;
• stayed up to find they charted at number 1 at midnight with their title track left and right.

— twenty three

• watched an a24 film, eighth grade;
• streamed seventeen's music video.

— twenty four - twenty five

• (got distracted. mostly watched movies: another a24 film, colombus & blue jay. but yes, i forgot what i did. :D)

— twenty six

• seventeen's first appearance on music shows;
• twogether is finally out, managed to watch first 2 episodes.

— twenty seven

• mum made soto betawi and i'm certainly very happy.

— twenty eight

• had the whole extended family over at home after they biked;
• also had relatives in the evening, talked and laughed with my cousin, she's so lovely;
• went to a little night market near main road, bought ice cream and bilor, ate with her;
• tired and sleepy at 8.30, overall a very socially active day.

— twenty nine

• had potato donuts and coca cola (a weird combo) for breakfast;
• ate soto betawi for lunch and my grandmama's soto for dinner. i felt like i win in life;
• watched going seventeen.

— thirty

• had trouble opening my eyes because i accidentally woke up at 4;
• finally discovering music again, yeay! my first time exploring into indie folk;
• found the term for a genre i've wanted to listen, it's called dreamy and cinematic indie;
• made egg fried rice from a meal a day although i added lots of different spices;
• played badminton with little bro in the evening.