things they do or say that tugged my heartstrings. what is love if not a pile of reasons? consider this my list of causes. (mainly revolves around svt, ateez, and txt):

• when a fan asked on weverse, "are you tired? you can lean on me," and wonwoo answered, "i'm not tired, but i will lean on you." fucks me up every time. he's never tired of being kind. is he not a worldwide superstar? am i not a mere fan, an unknown person? does he honestly think that i could provide solace, despite despite despite? yes, he said. yes, yes.
• jeonghan being asked in his cancam interview, "how do you listen to your member's concerns? what do you say to them?" and replying with, "take your time in telling me. i'll listen to you slowly. i'll make it comfortable for you to tell me." (translation by caratfangirl on twitter). do i need to say more? :( he's such a good hyung. he jokes and teases and flirts so well while still paying attention to his members' littlest details, making sure they're heard and loved.
• ateez treasure film confessions. oh, this is going to be long:
  • jongho saying, "i get shy when it comes to expressing my feelings. although i am like that, thank you for embracing me and for always being kind to me." :'( this hits hard because every description of him, be it his own vision of himself or by the tales of others, sounds so much like me. i lack so much at articulating how i feel my mom had to scold me for it. his gratitude is something i relate to very much.
  • yunho shouting a heartfelt "we are roommates, but i am sorry that i always stay up late and keep the lights on even though you sleep on the upper bed." to san. it's so specific and sincere it made my heart warm.
  • hearing mingi say, "i am sorry that you guys are always the ones taking care of me. i want to take a good care of you, too." after learning about everything he'd been through, especially the reason behind his absence for several months. i hope he knows that he's doing great. i'm glad his members are there beside him, mouths constantly reciting how proud they are of him.
  • san's whole turn to confess, everything he said and did. "i tend to have a low self-esteem and i am sorry that it might have a negative impact on our team. but you guys always tell me that i am the best and give me strength. for that, i am so very thankful." being a longer fan of seventeen and knowing much, much more about them after years and years of loving, i now have found an unlimited amount of similarities between san and wonwoo. i couldn't believe how much this confession reminded me of wonwoo's hit the road episode, both thankfulness and adoration spilling from their eyes. talk about family, talk about finally being where they feel belong. don't san and wonwoo know that they are such a home for the others, too?
• parents, parents:
  • hoshi's father feeding his son a loaf of bread at the end of seventeen project: debut big plan. hoshi was a crying mess, but his dad keeps tearing more and more of his bread for hoshi to munch. wonwoo smiling at the sight.
  • san's mother, saying "if you were next to me, i would love to pat your back and hug you." after their emotional call on ateez treasure film. that's how san was raised, i think. he's so good at giving and receiving affirmations, topped with some gentle, reassuring touches. he specifically loves a pat on the head.
• seventeen's whole weverse magazine interviews wrecked me to pieces, but especially these words of seungcheol: "a love that isn’t boiling over nor going cold—a warm love. i want a love that keeps on going like that." god. such a description. what else is love?
• when a fan commented on yeonjun's vlive, "i feel shy and embarrassed for asking, but can you tell me ways to not be sad?" and he uttered, almost instantly, "why are you shy? please don't feel bad to talk about these things." :( it's the way he told us that sadness isn't this awful thing people keep defining it as. the way he stuttered and stopped mid sentences to thoroughly think about the notion he's trying so hard to express. the way he smiled and smiled to remind us that it's still a beautiful life.
• while practicing his dramatic movement with yunho for their wonderland stage on kingdom, the other members gave jongho a series of "you're awesome!" and a handful of applauses. on a separate interview, jongho said with a big smile on his face, "the hyungs would always tell me that i'm cool, even though i'm not." they love each other, your honor!
• hongjoong being asked, "who's the member that notices first when you're upset?" and answering with, "it's yunho. he notices first."
• seonghwa thinking that he had found the right key in the first episode of ateez fever (he had not), and putting his head down in shame afterwards for mistakenly giving his members a glimmer of hope. and then there's san, while patting seonghwa's back, said, "hyung, it's okay. let's look somewhere else."
• yunho saying, "i figured this out as i ate. 맛 (taste) and 멋 (beauty) are not so different."
• when a question of "which one do you prefer: a trip to the mountain or the beach?" came up, san answered with "the beach. because it's blue." blue as a color means the world to me. him sharing the same fondness over it means the world to me.
• everyone in ateez talks so highly about their members, but hearing jongho say, "i'm so grateful we're all on the same team—i'm still quite young, but i've never seen people with such clear virtues before." teared me up. he treasures his hyungs so much.
• when an interviewer asked, "which member do you want to protect the most?" hongjoong replied with, "jongho. because i, too, want to protect him, even for once." jongho is unlike any other maknae i've ever seen—he's independent and strong and is in charge of the team's powerful spirit hongjoong had to express his gratitude in such manner.
• mingi saying, "i felt like i've grown more when i put myself on pause." and "take it slow with me." :( thank you, mingi. i will take it slow with you.
• yunho agreeing to buy wooyoung's little brother an expensive toy.
• when hongjoong stated, "i wanted to become a leader because i thought that if i were, i'd be strong (authoritative)," jongho quickly reworded it and described him as wise instead.
• wooyoung saying, "there's a stark difference in our performances between you being there and not." to mingi.
• this is probably so biased and personal, but san saying, "i loved you today too." on universe made my heart swell with overflowing gratitude while i was in the midst of tears. my day didn't go well but you came right when i needed a pat of loving hand, sannie. for that, i'm so thankful. i loved you today too.