- the colour of the sea and the smell of fresh bread
- strangers smiling at you (...in a non creepy way)
- making lists and completing them
- the little kid's giggle
- calum's mumbles and waves and, "where's linda?"
- "you're like my little sister. i always say something and you always overreact and my arm really hurts!"
- gilburd wearing my scarf
- "you make me feel calm. you make me feel like i don't need to put on an act for anybody else."
- francois: "you admitted you wouldn't live without me!"
- "i decided that from now on to the end of the year i wouldn't be so harsh to you. wait ... wait. what am i saying, i have the whole end of ib to do that. nevermind!"
- "if you changed from ib i'd murder the teachers."
- "you're too nice ... you're really too nice."
- "you're not going to prom?!"
- "look, i actually hate myself too. i just cover it up by being really, really, really arrogant. a huge cock."
- "german standard, right? good!"
- don't break your promise don't break your promise don't break your promise don't break your promise don't break your promise (02/05)
- "me and linda have banter all the time, i love it! :') haha it's so jokes! gotta love linda!" you great asshole ilu too
- being touchy-feely with people and having it reciprocated
- laughing when i can't lip read
- being okay with a 'below average' on my report
- highlighting parts of a long text to read
- being told i whimper in my sleep
- ok why is it that i'm weak and frail even when i'm not consciously doing it
- IT'S OKAY BAEKHYUN IS A SLEEP WHIMPERER TOO
- "we think in colour, and others don't."
- i hate surprises. the two times people have tried to surprise me i've figured things out within the day.
- i don't like perfume. or bath stuffs. why do you try to get me it?
- kelly's such a qt. "i was going to get strawberries covered in chocolate then put candles in it and wish you a happy birthday ... but i didn't have a lighter."
- the little boy holding open the post office door for me
- staring gormlessly at the group of 50 asians on the road and not realising that people can see both ways through bus windows
- ... resulting in one of the azn boys grinning and waving at me as the bus went past
- that's proper / that's jokes / drop kicks him out of the door / so rude! are now all phrases in my daily vocabulary (2403)
- i notice there are certain things i just don't do in a social setting or with my friends. i never sing. i seldom yell. i don't act like a 'kid' or as a younger person.
- i need to stop shaking around authority figures
- i've wished for the same thing every year for the past three years. isn't that interesting? (2803)
- baekhyun is a little fucker :(
- my voice travels one octave higher around authoritative people
- i have recurring nightmares
- like that zombie pandemic and i'm pretty sure i spent one hour in real time/dream time trying to lock the door except i was shaking and the lock was broken
- and then, for some reason, i had to manually hold up a curtain against the door to stop anybody from seeing us
- and probably the scariest thing was that in my dream i had tried to run through shopping centres and down escalators but for some inexplicable reason my legs felt as if they were underwater and i never could run fast enough
- so i finally figured out what my ~newer~ recurring dream was about
- i'm playing twister or some shit w/ that tumblr person i almost befriended but chickened out of doing so lmao
- idk why he has swept brown hair and blue eyes to me bc i've never seen his face but ya know
- there's also that one where i'm in a castle w/ an evil queen and my mum being shown around before i finally clock that the place is spooky and try to get out of there
- i can imagine baekhyun playing this and it just hurts my heart
- i'll never be over jonghyun/baekhyun
- mr w is the nicest teacher! :') constant asking if i am okay because i look ill
- this music does not help my feelings
- DILDO DAEHYUN (this needs no explanation)
- i'm one of those people who'll have no experience with a game, and a few hours later, will be a sudden ~pro~ at it
- waltzer is my fav rollercoaster ride
- i like typing more on skype than i like speaking, which i feel defeats the purpose
- I WANT YOUR TONGUE ON MY TONGUE YOUR SKIN ON MY SKIN YOUR UGLY ASS HAIR IN MY HANDS
- "whenever you laugh, you clap."
- gilburd (1705) "i know u love me, dw worry im doing it im doing it... nice and fast ... i meant the past paper ...as in im going through it..."
- hate that i love you #zelda
- bro is now an essential part of my vocabulary (0106). also, bangin' (0107)
- "you are sensitive but cold hearted" - kelly and lisa are onto something
- i feel faint at the sight of blood
- yet still manage to think extremely morbid things
- check me out into a psychiatric ward please + ty
- kyungsoosus (1407; lisa)
- "WHATCHU GON DO WITH ALL THAT JUNK" /chinese argument/ "SELECTED VIP WOULDN'T IT BE -" /chinese argument/
- OKAY WE CAN
- sums me up tbh
- sally's cheering up tweets 1 2 3 4
- "she's a person of many charms and talents. one of her greatest charms - not one of, her greatest charm actually - is that she makes people feel special, like they do matter in her life. up until now i can't figure out how she does all that. she's a magnet and people just unconsciously draw to her. she made me feel special."
- probably the best thing about today was learning that baekhyun listens to beenzino (1407)
- me irl i'm not even kidding
- YES INDEED
- also me
- "emily gets scared when linda is arguing, because linda wins everything when she's angry."
- jennifer also mentioned that she gets scared whenever i'm angry...
- i'm not an angry person - in fact i dislike all kinds of anger/conflict, unlike my family who get temperamental and snappy quickly, and i react terribly to others raising their voice or making loud noises - but i can get angry when my morals are pushed or boundaries overstepped, and almost everyone i know tends to stay out of my way when i'm like this (maybe because it doesn't happen often either). i guess i'm known for being tolerant of others but also for being ruthless when i reach breaking point and that confuses/saddens me, sometimes.
- and once again stiles proves that he is relatable in this situation :(
- "I feel other people's emotions, much more than I feel my own. I'm usually out of touch with my own feelings (and don't express them) because I push them away or convince myself that my feelings aren't logical or can't be trusted. I've been known to explode when I am pushed too far, but in general I am very mild-mannered. In spite of the above, I am a very emotional person. I am easily touched and hold onto things that are special or important to me."
- "i guess a lot of my personality comes out in stiles. i think the loyalty amongst friends or for the people that i love. and you know, just, like, the silly––physical silliness, i've always had a sense of humour about life, so." marry me dylan
- the most accurate photo of me thus far
- it's getting easier for me now to remember and pick up on a random ass thought/idea after i've let it slip my mind as quickly as it entered. i still have to really push my brain and unfocus to think but at least it's still there; a few days ago i would've never recovered it again. it's a strange detail to pick up on but well, at least i don't have to worry too much about the state of my memory (2008)
- update: i've been remembering details with amazing clarity recently. seeing as i usually forget where things are placed, or who said what, it's a cause for concern - half-convinced i now have superpowers and am about to grow claws or a mutant tail and i will have to deal with a tail of all things now (3108)
- international bac
- ainalwara saying she misses me
- francois and geography class (i can't believe i've endured 3 years with him!)
- gilmore saying he expects nothing less than an A* from me
- attack (1409)
- allen giving me a pep talk; "you, talk! - (i do have ideas, and i want to say them, and i do say them) i know you do! it's probably so instilled in you to write everything down and think about ideas (but everyone else in this class is so eloquent) and so are you but don't worry about being eloquent, just get your idea out there, and this is a loud class, so just raise your hand and wave it about!"
jan 7 2012 ∞
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