- 180116. day 0: my first day wasn’t official bc i didn’t have any classes but i already met some new people and spent a lot of time with my old friends. we were briefly introduced to the infamous third (and last) high school year and met a few teachers.
- feelings: excitement and relief
- 180117. day 1: finally met my class and some more teachers. we had 8 classes and i interacted with a few classmates. i tried my best to pay attention to everything the teachers said and didn’t write anything on my notebook, also found out i’m gonna have to use 2 notebooks. first class day was okay, no traumas, we already have our groupchat.
- feelings: prepared??
- 180118. day 2: today felt like it would never end but it was better than yesterday. i had classes with nice teachers and understood a little bit of physics, hope i can keep this up. our counselour talked to us and i hope she really helps me this year. also my friends and i sat right in front of the air conditioner aka the coldest seats.
- feelings: cold and anxious
- 180119. day 3: i could barely focus on today’s classes because i was so anxious for the uni result and turns out i PASSED MY COLLEGE ENTRANCE EXAM and this made me really happy i felt so capable ahhh!!!
- feelings: extreme happiness
- 180120. day 4: waking up at 7am on a saturday was difficult and tiring but i had classes with the nicest teachers ever so it made my morning better.
- feelings: tiredness and joy
- 180122. day 5: today was the best so far!! i think everyone was in a good mood and we had the best classes with the best teachers so i think monday is gonna be a good day (that’s a first in my school life)
- feelings: happiness
- 180123. day 6: today actually felt like school so it was kinda boring, i had so many classes that made me tired but i got many physics questions right so that made me feel better.
- feelings: normal??
- 180124. day 7: i had the worst classes. physics. chemistry. math. it felt like it would never end and my mind couldn’t function. the teachers were cool tho.
- feelings: overwhelmed
- 180125. day 8: we left class earlier idk why but thank god we did bc i couldn’t bare staying there anymore we had the worst periods with annoying ass teachers.
- feelings: overwhelmed again
- 180126. day 9: okay first of all i suck at math, second of all i feel really dumb for not being able to solve anything, third of all the geography teacher is SO FUNNY.
- feelings: exhausted
- 180127. day 10: i almost got late and barely ate anything all day, also can’t understand physics IV but my teacher is really cute i wanna hug him?? also want to understand his subject but yea we’ll get there...
- feelings: sadness
- 180129. day 11: we finally got our class schedule and it sucks. today for example we had TWO periods of chemistry 4 but at least we had english and literature so monday is the best day.
- feelings: stress
- 180130. day 12: i couldn’t pay attention to today’s classes and i will never learn basic math. also i’m considering dropping out of school bc of uni lmao.
- feelings: like trash??
- 180131. day 13: i kept telling myself i would never be able to learn chemistry and math bc it’s so simple and it doesn’t get in my head. classes felt like they would never end.
- feelings: exhausted and overwhelmed
- 180201. day 14: it’s been 2 weeks since we came back to school but it feels like it’s been 84 years. today was better than yesterday tho. also i’m wondering if i should pay for the graduation party or the class trip.
- feelings: good
- 180202. day 15: today was soooo good, after a long time i finally felt satisfied with the essay i wrote AND i paid attention to today’s classes and understood math!!
- feelings: happy and proud
- 180203. day 16: i almost fell asleep during physics 4, truly couldn’t keep my eyes open, but the history classes were amazinggg i also understood biology so yea.
- feelings: good but sleepy
- 180205. day 17: i read something during class for the first time this year and my heart was racing. i read a whole text in english with a sentence in french and my voice was clearly shaking. literature class was great but i couldn’t pay attention to chemistry.
- feelings: good perhaps?
- 180206. day 18: tuesdays are officially my least favorite day. i don’t hate it yet but i had some of the most boring and difficult classes ALL WITH MALE TEACHERS.
- feelings: suffocated?? and tire
- 180207. day 19: classes were boring and the students made a group chat with over 100 people with the whole 3rd year and it’s fucking chaotic. i was really sad during the last periods but idky.
- feelings: sad
- 180208. day 20: classes were good but everything was so confusing... we were supposed to organize a prank and now everyone is complaining and shading each other but it’s fine i guess.
- feelings: confused
- 180209. day 21: our prank went well and everyone was happy and colorful!!! no one paid attention to the biology class but the last periods were so funny.
- feelings: excited
- 180215. day 22: i was able to rest for a some time (_thank god for carnival_) and surprisingly the first class day after break didn’t suck... also my friend is going to law school!!
- feelings: joy
- 180216. day 23: today was tiring but i sold all my pies(?) and grammar class was soooo good! every day that passes i’m more sure of my uni course.
- feelings: normal but tiring
- 180217. day 24: still mad that i have to go to school on saturday morning but i love my history teachers. and my biology and physics teachers but their subjects suck so...
- feelings: sleepy
- 180219. day 25: so we had our first exam of the year. i didn’t do well. it only had the subjects that i like. the next one is gonna be worse.
- feelings: disappointed
- 180220. day 26: i think everyone was tired and sleepy but i was okay i guess, my friends are the funniest.
- feelings: is giggly a feeling?
- 180221. day 27: i honestly couldn’t pay attention to classes (i understood a little bit of chemistry tho) because of got-freaking-7 ugh... first they don’t come to brazil and then my album arrives just Stop.
- feelings: sad and then excited
- 180222. day 28: nothing special happened but i sold all my pies so that was my day at school.
- feelings: good i guess
- 180223. day 29: i forgot to update this on the actual day so i barely remember anything but i remember i was alone during class and the last periods weren’t so bad.
- feelings: loneliness
- 180224. day 30: FINALLY. A MONTH. it feels like it’s been 84 years since classes began. anyway my classroom was SO COLD, the physics periods were eating me alive and the history periods were... out of context. we talked about aliens. the rest of the day was something else
- feelings: happiness
- 180226. day 31: i couldn’t pay attention to classes bc i was too busy overthinking about a test i didn’t study for.
- feelings: worried
- 180227. day 32: ok so i didn’t completely hate the test and later i went to the cinema with my friends and a really annoying girl but it doesn’t matter cause we watched black panther :D
- feelings: great
- 180228. day 33: nothing happened and i felt miserable but my friends tried to cheer me up so idk??
- feelings: sadness but then i was okay
- 180301. day 34: another month has begun and i couldn’t focus during classes because 1. i kept thinking about college and how excited i am about it and 2. my art teacher is so annoying.
- feelings: sad cuz i was lonely
- 180302. day 35: i think i spent a lot of time thinking about college but i paid attention to a few classes and i was really mad at... most people.
- feelings: anger
- 180303. day 36: my history teacher is my favorite person ever?? and i spent the rest of the day with my friends but i couldn’t fully enjoy so yeah.
- feelings: i was happy when i wasn’t feeling like trash
- 180305. day 37: english followed by a literature period is truly what keeps me going. also we didn’t have the last 2 periods which was awesome cuz both were chemistry classes.
- feelings: good but i’m really sick
- 180306. day 38: i don’t know why my geo teacher makes me laugh just by breathing. also bio class really caught my attention bc my teacher showed us a beautiful documentary.
- feelings: entertained but still sick
- 180307. day 39: classes didn’t feel like hell and i left earlier to go to a kpop dance class so my day was pretty good.
- feelings: energetic
- 180308. day 40: it’s women’s day and we barely had any classes (only physics), we watched a movie, went to a school “meeting” of parents and teachers and i lost my earphones and want to die.
- feelings: devastated
- 180309. day 41: i sat alone the whole day and my friends didn’t even bother talking to me so i just read fanfics during classes.
- feelings: sad
- 180310. day 42: i felt sick for most of the day but we had a fun day at school but i was alone...
- feelings: still sad
- 180312. day 43: GOT7 HAD A COMEBACK!!! and i wasn’t alone and even paid attention to classes so yeah good day.
- feelings: happy
- 180313. day 44: today was tiring because on tuesdays we have the worst classes but our teachers are cool so i survived.
- feelings: good
- 180314. day 45: i forgot to update and now i don’t remember my classes but i do remember i had a good day at school and then my parents made me depressed.
- feelings: happy and then sad
- 180315. day 46: BEST DAY EVER we left earlier and we didn’t even have the physics period so our snack break was 15 minutes longer!!
- feelings: happyyyy
- 180316. day 47: we had our grammar period (is that what you’re supposed to call it?) with another class and i got to spend some time with one of my best friends so :)
- feelings: happy
- 180317. day 47: i spent two physics periods and one history period reading a fanfic which means i wasn’t productive at all.
- feelings: flustered (bc of the fic)
- 180318. day 48: i cannot believe i had to go to school on a sunday. but it was good i spent 3 whole hours with my friends and we all had a lot of laughs.
- feelings: happy and giggly
- 180319. day 49: I WON SOMETHING FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!! hellen and i came first place on a kahoot game about tv shows during english class and we won a chocolate bar!
- feelings: mostly happy but overall good
- 180320. day 50: i almost got kicked out of my biology class bc i was talking to hellen but we said sorry and our teacher let us stay lmao it would’ve been my first time ever getting kicked out.
- feelings: good
- 180321. day 51: we traded chocoate bars and there was no energy in the whole city so we were going home but then the second we got back to our classroom to get our stuff and leave SUDDENLY THERE’S ENERGY AGAIN.
- feelings: DISAPPOINTED
- 180322. day 52: we had another exam and i did worse than the first time lol i’m useless
- feelings: sadness
- 180323. day 53: lol i didn’t do anything but it was a good day.
- feelings: good
- 180324. day 54: AN AMAZING DAY. hellen and i spent the whole morning laughing during the physics periods and then we went to ana julia’s house and spent the rest of the day together (+ laura and felipe)
- feelings: incredibly happy
- 180326. day 55: i felt sososo special today bc of felipe :( and then i got really soft bc of jackson. literature class was the best btw.
- feelings: happiness
- 180327. day 56: i could swear i had updated this and now i can’t remember what happened yesterday but it was jackson’s birthday but i was so sick (just the flu) that i was feeling down.
- feelings: normal i guess
- 180328. day 57: oh well i had another exam and i was probably terrible at it but at least i’ll have three free days!! thank you holidays for my life.
- feelings: somewhat happy
- 180402. day 58: i can’t believe i had the oportunity to leave school for 4 days and come back to a great literature class.
- feelings: pretty happy
- 180403. day 59: today was alright i was happy around my friends but geography class on the last period was actual Hell.
- feelings: overall good
- 180404. day 60: today was so much fun!! i played “pega varetas” (is there a way to say this in english) and later i got really mad bc i stayed at school till 9pm.
- feelings: half good half mad
- 180405. day 61: i didn’t listen to a single word my art teacher said but my friends and i had lots of laughs during class (which is wrong).
- feelings: almost happy
- 180406. day 62: i cried 6 times during math class. because i can’t learn and everyone elsse understands at least the bare minimum. that’s it.
- feelings: overwhelmed
- 180407. day 63: i felt sick during the first classes but the 2 history periods were alright.
- feelings: okay but actually sick
- 180408. day 64: i went to school on a sunday?? to take an exam??? and i didn’t even do that well bc i was in physical pain.
- feelings: tired
- 180409. day 65: i sat with 2 of my friends away from everyone else bc the rest of our friends were interacting with loud ass ppl that made us uncomfortable.
- feelings: overall good
- 180410. day 66: classes took forever to end but after school i went out with my friends and we had so much fun together!!
- feelings: happiness
- 180412. day 67: it was supposed to be “day 68” but i skipped class yesterday to do nothing and when i came back to school today i was feeling better.
- feelings: less tired?
- 180413. day 68: friday is the worst day with the worst subjects and just to make it even worse i was alone.
- feelings: loneliness
- 180414. day 69: i dressed up as a hippie today!!! and then i went to a kpop dance class with my friends (even though i felt sick the entire morning).
- feelings: good, kinda happy (but sick)
- 180415. day 70: i went to school on a sunday to take an exam and i didn’t even stay 3 whole hours there.
- feelings: mad but unbothered
- 180416. day 71: i felt lonely during english class bc we didn’t actually have class but i paid attention to the literature class and it was good.
- feelings: overall bad
- 180417. day 72: i’m updating this on the 18th and don’t remember much but classes were unbearable.
- feelings: tiredness
- 180418. day 73: TODAY WAS SUCH A GOOD DAY. my friends and i laughed for like 4 classes straight (and my chemistry teacher is insane).
- feelings: happiness
- 180419. day 74: my friends and i played sudoku during class but somehow i still managed to pay attention to some of it.
- feelings: good
- 180420. day 75: OH MY GOD hellen, kaled and i spent all classes doing cross words and we also spent a whole period with taiza and laure so GREAT DAY.
- feelings: happiness!!!!
- 180423. day 76: today was such a good day! maybe bc i was finally able to rest for 2 days straight but anyways I SOLVED MATH PROBLEMS and paid attention to the literature class and had lots of laughs with my friends.
- feelings: good and happy!
- 180424. day 77: took an exam. failed terribly. was accidentally rude to ppl. fought with my family. wanna die.
- feelings: stressed out and overall terrible
- 180425. day 78: i was mad the whole day but my friends made me feel better and classes weren’t unbearable. i was over at my friends house till 10pm otherwise i’d have to be at school until 9:40pm that was wild.
- feelings: mostly anger
- 180426. day 79: we did a math exercise that i had no idea how to solve. and the previous ones i did were mostly wrong.
- feelings: dumb
- 180427. day 80: i participated in a grammar game(?) and didn’t attend the 1st biology period so that was good.
- feelings: overall good
- 180428. day 81: at some point i paid attention to all the classes and i didn’t feel nauseous during physics so. it was alright.
- feelings: normal?
- 180502. day 82: TODAY WAS GREAT even tho i felt sick but at least i left school earlier. i won 2 rounds of uno, 100 diamonds on hogwarts mystery, my albums are coming to my city and we did something really fun during OPEE.
- feelings: great
- 180503. day 83: i took a shitty exam in less than 3 hours and went to the cinema to watch infinity war with hellen and felipe (unfortunately an annoying person showed up out of nowhere and my parents pissed me off).
- feelings: mainly good but also annoyed and sad
- 180504. day 84: we played a grammar game again and WE WON and i finally got a question 100% right!!
- feelings: good
- 180505. day 85: i felt sick the whole morning but who cares i spent a great afternoon with The Mothafriends (TM)
- feelings: physically uncomfortable but happy
- 180507. day 86: i was really hungry the whole day and at some point i paid attention to math bc it was the only thing i learned in sophomore year.
- feelings: alright i guess
- 180508. day 87: i listened to all classes but i didn’t absorb anything... also i left school earlier so that was great.
- feelings: normal
- 180509. day 88: i paid attention to the first 4 classes and snuck out before the 8th period. good day. except that my albums didn’t arrive.
- feelings: good
- 180510. day 89: i can’t stand my math teacher. i can’t stand chemistry teacher. i can’t stand mt art teacher. i hate brazilian politics and politicians.
- feelings: 100% done
- 180511. day 90: three months. i spent a whole biology period messaging my mom complaining about school. at least my albums arrived and i got 2 jackson posters.
- feelings: anger and a lil bit of happiness in the middle of it all
- 180512. day 91: i was hungry and sleepy meaning i was useless and didn’t listen at all to the lectures.
- feelings: normal?
- 180514. day 92: i faked being sick during an art class that wasn’t supposed to happen and left school earlier lol.
- feelings: good but angry at the end of the day
- 180515. day 93: i complained about my terrible teachers to our supervisor and it made me feel so much better. also paid attention to geography class.
- feelings: kinda mad
- 180516. day 94: even though i had some good laughs with my dumbass friends i felt so blue?? idk. and classes Sucked.
- feelings: down
- 180517. day 95: idk if listography has a limit of characters so i might make a new list after 100 days? but anyways i only read harry potter and played sudoku during classes today aka I Was Useless.
- feelings: sadness
- 180518. day 96: i downloaded a new game today and i played it the whole day. during classes. and i ate and laughed a lot so that was it.
- feelings: good
- 180519. day 97: i had 56 minutes of sleep (starting at 5am) before my classes at 8am on a saturday and i wasn’t sleepy at all bc i focused on the royal wedding instead of the lecture.
- feelings: pretty normal
- 180521. day 98: I WAS SO SLEEPY TODAY WHAT THE HELL i woke up early to go to school before 9am to write an essay and i didn’t write it.
- feelings: tiredness
- 180522. day 99: in theory it’d be my 100th day if i hadn’t skipped class 1 day but anyways. bio class felt like it’d never end but at least we had wifi most of the time.
- feelings: anger and disappointment
- 180523. day 100: yay 100! senior year is hell! today’s classes we’re partially bearable bc i wasn’t listening to anything lol yikes.
- feelings: a little bit of anger
- 180527. day 101: i didn’t go to school for 3 days straight bc i was sick and i only went there again on a sunday to take an exam that i sucked at. great.
- feelings: sick and annoyed
- 180528. day 102: i came back to school after 3 days and spent two classes at the nursery. noice.
- feelings: still sick but good
- 180529. day 103: i woke up before 6am and then walked 84km with the sun right in my face then i got to school and felt sleepy during all the classes (skipped one in the nursery tho)
- feelings: tiredness
- 180530. day 104: okay so i took an exam and i think i wasn’t terrible at it but i didn’t take it home to correct it cuz i was scared of having gone terribly bad (like i did on the essay) which was probably the case...
- feelings: tiredness
- 180602. day 105: i didn’t go to school for 2 days and decided to go on a saturday morning. also spent the whole afternoon cutting paper into flowers till 7pm.
- feelings: anxiousness, a little bit of anger and a lot of physical pain
- 180603. day 106: another shitty exam hurray! this time i didn’t even read anything and took only 2 hours and 58 minutes to leave!
- feelings: dumbness. that’s it i’m just dumb.
- 180604. day 107: i was alone at school today but i didn’t even feel bad bc of that. it was an okay day i even missed 1 period of chemistry.
- feelings: normal even tho i got sick again
- 180605. day 108: i spent the first two classes at some kind of meeting for Love Day and at the end of the day we had our first dance rehearsal for the “junine party”.
- feelings: mostly happiness
- 180606. day 109: today’s the day of the worst subjects but they didn’t suck for once. good day.
- feelings: good i guess
- 180607. day 110: UHHH SO there was another test. i actually don’t think it was that bad like... i even calculated some stuff, i didn’t get tired And i left early and went home so...
- feelings: good but a bit nervous??
- 180608. day 111: it was actually a really fun day and we played a grammar game that i got every question right but my group mates don’t listen to me...
- feelings: good
- 180609. day 112: a bunch of stuff happened; i ate properly in the morning, i skipped almost an entire history class to “help” on a quiz game and then i went to my friend’s house to prepare some things for the Love Day and didn’t even do amything.
- feelings: tiredness (can headache be considered an emotional feeling)
- 180611. day 113: i spent 2 classes at the nursery cuz i had a terrible headache, we listened to 5 songs during english class and i couldn’t get bastille’s pompeii out of my head and as always literature class was really good.
- feelings: good despite the headache
- 180612. day 114: we ate fruits on bio class, our physics teacher didn’t go to school so we checked things for the love day, i was the “center” during the junine dance rehearsal and later i went to pick my grandma up at a concert. i came home at 1:20 am.
- feelings: busy and tired but overall happy
- 180613. day 115: we were all worried about a red carpet i only got at the very last second and the whole school was organizing everything and decorating the school for the love day till 10pm.
- feelings: tiredness and nervousness
- 180614. day 116: THE LOVE DAY WAS PERFECT. i looked pretty, the school was well decorated, i received a lot of cards, chocolate, we sang and danced together, our classroom was surprisingly pretty, i got a reconciliation with 2 people (i fleed one) and later at night i was the center again for the rehearsal.
- feelings: TOO MANY FEELINGS. HAPPINESS. NERVOUSNESS. i also felt annoyed for like 2 minutes bc of the reconciliation but its fine
- 180615. day 117: TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY EVERRR even though our classroom wasn’t decorated anymore... my friends and i spent the whole afternoon laughing and i felt so good the whole day UWU.
- feelings: pure happiness
- 180618. day 118: i was pretty bummed out for most of the day bc of college (guess who’s not getting into it!) and i went to the essay class in the morning. we had a good rehearsal for the junine dance btw.
- feelings: mostly sad
- 180619. day 119: i think today was better than yesterday. i laughed a lot with my friends, i got the paper i needed, i bought soda just to fill it up with water later bc i forgot my cup, we finished the rehearsal and that was it.
- feelings: good
- 180620. day 120: oh god what an awful school day. the worst clases ever. my soul almost left my body.
- feelings: tiredness
- 180621. day 121: today was a rollercoaster; i went to my uni and couldn’t enroll bc of a document my school couldn’t give me but eventually they gave it to me so yeah. today’s rehearsal was also good. classes were alright i guess (we watched a movie and didn’t have math class).
- feelings: hopelessness but then my hope came back so idk
- 180625. day 122: i didn’t have class on friday, didn’t go to school on saturday (even though i went there but my mom let me skip class when i was about to leave the car) and today i had an exam (my essay was terrible).
- feelings: meh. i felt dumb.
- 180626. day 123: i took the worst math/chemistry/bio/physics exam ever. in 2 and a half hours. at least now i’m officially on break.
- feelings: relief
- 180801. day 124: classes came back today and i officially couldn’t get into college. i was able to pay attention for a while but it was unbearable. i also had some classes during summer break but i didn’t think it was relevant to put here. also i’m seeing mamamoo.
- feelings: nervous and tired (already)
- 180802. day 125: i’m updating this 8 days later and all i remember was that i tried paying attention and i got upset for being treated like Shit and classes were also shit.
- feelings: meh. upset.
- 180803. day 126: i don’t remember this day at all?? i only remember spending 20 minutes in the bathroom with the girls.
- feelings: ???
- 180806. day 127__: i went to school in the morning and it wasn’t as terrible as it was during the first semester. my friends are hella funny tho.
- feelings: i can’t remember but probably good
- 180807/08. days 128 and 129__: i should really update this daily cuz i can’t remember anything
- feelings: idk it was a blur
- 180809. day 130__: i laughed SO much today before getting home and i remember paying attention to classes at some point but i’m still a terrible student and my mom hates me
- feelings: happinnes during the day. sadness and anger during the night.
- 180810 - 180828. days 131 - 147.: i didn’t update for a long time bc nothing really happened fhdkfjd i’ve been going to school, not paying attention, laughing with my friends, playing with my classmates and getting terrible grades.
- feelings: good in general
- 180829. day 148.: guess who’s not seeing mamamoo anymore... it’s fine but i spent a lot of money that i could uso for prom. didn’t pay attention to class again.
- feelings: not good
- 180830. day 149.: I PAID ATTENTION TO CHEMISTRY CLASS AND I UNDERSTOOD THE SUBJECT. that’s it.
- 180919. day 168.: I LITERALLY STOPPED UPDATING but my days have been the same thing... my classmates are getting closer to each other, we’re going to a different classroom, we planted beans and today, after exactly 8 months, i FINALLY got accepted into college. it’s been a hell of a ride my dudes.
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