• religion and science
• buddhism lecture
• buddhims seminar
• eat better
  • smaller portions of fast food
  • no soda
  • hamburger and veggies
  • one serving of suger
  • show results for brad and kathy
  • if lose 1 pound a week=52 pounds
• use time wisely
• make the most of living, the amount of time alloted to me
  • do interesting things in order to be interesting

Toyota Yaris

• compact
• hatchback
• black
• cruise control
• auible turn signal
• rev display
• air cond
• manual locks
• manual windows
• automatic trans
• sunroof
• leather seats
• cd player
• audible key
• audible lights
• interior gas latch
• no day lights
• high off ground
• no spoiler
• no undercarriage

• move into new place
• (finish funny morocco)
• (finish serious morocco)
• (rough draft of gates)
• reach 5%

• if i lose weight:
  • i will feel better about myself
  • i will more willing to be around others
  • i will be more friendly
  • i will be more open to touch
  • i will be able to be more active
• if i had more money
  • i would be debt-free
  • i would more generous
  • i would feel free from money
• if i lived independently:
  • i would exercise more
  • i would cook more
  • i would feel more like me
  • i would write more
  • i would be able to continue on with my life
• telling myself i can't/i don't like

• Masters
  • CSULB
• Doctorate
  • CSUSB
• Travel
  • Central Park, NYC
  • Boston, MA
  • Portland, OR
  • Alaska

• not giving ben a proper hug when he returned
• not engaging in converstaion with the guy on the train
• not going to Basque
• everything that i eat

• went to a party(although timidly)that i wasn't invited to(via oversight)
• wore an ugly sweater(dressed up/dressed the part)
• participated in a silly game, confidently
• smile/say hi/initiate conversation with men
• try new things/say yes
  • drive ben's scooter
  • play Wii
• dressed up for the philharmonic
• dressed flirty for going out

• i feel better about myself when i go to the gym
• it won't kill me
• be a grownup
• it's ok to say hi
• smile

• Chasing Holden
• Dog's Breakfast
• Niagara, Niagara
• Good Dick
• Wristcutters
• The Proposition
• The Book of Caleb
• Things You Can't Tell Just By Looking At Her
• Jesus Christ Superstar
• Tommy
• Hair
• Boot Camp
• Armless
• High Times
• Bent
• Lymelife
• Igby goes Down
• Saints and Soldiers
• the Ten
• god's ears

• left home without grown up skills
• freshman fifteen
• uncomfortable with self
• spain
• developed bad habits
• returned home and continued bad habits
• moved to CA
• new found independence
• sara found new friends
• a boy
• better sense of self
• breaking bad habits/routines

• if sara and i had left for CA in june instead of september then i would not have been there for mom's cancer
• sara and i arrive in CA on a sat and by tuesday we have a church, by wednesday we have an apartment and by friday i have a job
• i have the perfect job for me
• if brad hadn't finally had enough and fired me i would not be at my perfect job
• gran only had to be "sick" for a year, almost to the day of finding out about it and only "suffering" for a week or two
• i did not get into the post office

• REALIZE I DON'T HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS!
• finish masters at CSULB
• sara got married
• matt and tara (and ben) were out of my life (china)
• overtly discontent with Convergence
• fired from/discontent in current job
• financially able to live on my own
• job waiting for me elsewhere

• spending money on things that are unsatisfying
  • fast food
  • junk food
  • caffine
  • thrift store clothes
• eating fast food/not cooking for myself
• picking scabs/zits
• irregular hygene
• not acknowledging/greeting people that i know
• spending all evening alone in my room
• watching hours of tv

• wearing "church clothes" all day, even though i had opportunity to change, and was confident and comfortable
• making good/right choices
• doing, not thinking
• not being selfishly shy
• saying no to self, saying yes to me

• life is just what happens to you while you are busy making other plans - Beautiful Boy, John Lennon
• I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned - Such Great Heights, Iron and Wine
• I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else, but you - Anyone Else But You, The Mouldy Peaches
• waiting for a different shade of green by incubus?
• I can't wait to find out what's wrong with me so that I can say that is how I used to be -John mayer-

• Jesus of Nazareth in Historical Research, UCLA
• Archaeology of Ancient Israel, UCLA
• Aracheology of Witchcraft, UCLA
• Myth, Folklore and Legend, UCLA
• Ethnographic Research, NWC
• World Literature, NWC
• Honors English Fresh-Senior, Heritage
• Spanish, Fresh-Senior, Heritage
• La Cultura de Islam, Universidad de Granada
• La Cultura de Espana, Universidad de Granada

• experienced, so that he won't be so eager and i will be more at ease/less scared
• attentive/affectionate
• makes me laugh
• sensitive to the needs of others
• thought-provoking
• hair-less/not a wooly mammoth
• lets me be myself
• challenges me to grow
• someone i want to share time and space with
• sports & symphony/museums
• outdoorsy
• communicative
• honest
• gives time, receives words of affirmation (not physical touch or gifts)
• down to earth/simple

• butterfly on left wrist
• henna on the fingers of one hand to make out "peace and love" signs (Front: pinky, middle, index and thumb; Back: thumb, middle and ring)
• evil eye on the back of my neck
• fatma on sternum
• cobweb on elbow
• id info on torso
• butterfly on right thumb
• cloud behind one ear, sun behind the other ear
• favorite constellation

• Karen
• Michael
• Dwayne
• Gloria
• Vera
• Cliff

• Gordon
• Gladys
• Katherine/Kay (K.A.)
• Joseph (Joe)
• Mickee
• Kristin
• Karen
• Elizabeth (Betsy)
• Bernice
• Paul
• James(Jim)
• Ernst
• Madie

• University of Nevada, Reno-Basque Studies PhD
• University of Washington, Seattle-Comparative Religion MA
• Long Beach City College-Drawing, Creative Writing
• University of Califorina, Los Angeles-Creative Writing MFA
• California State University, Long Beach-Religious Studies MA
• Cal State Santa Barbara, PhD, religious studies

• house in the woods on a mountain
• big dog
• postal worker for the town
• alone
• known as the witch's house
• befriend one little kid
• hike all day
• read all night
• no tv
• radio

• Small Town Southern Man by - Ben
• City by Red Hot Chili Peppers - Sara, not coming to LA
• Reason by Hoobastank - "Chris"
• Blessed be your name by - Naber, played at her wedding
• Heather, learned to play it on the guitar
• Dizzy by - Mom, she and i used to dance to it in the kitchen
• Mike
• Dad
• If i had $1,000,000 by Barenaked Ladies - Black V, NWC improv team, used to play it before shows
• by Mercy Me - Matt, once said he like it
• Don't want to be anything but me by - "Josh"
• Everlong by FooFighters - "Marc/k"
• 1,000 Miles by The Proclaimers - Marie Kluge, used to watch Benny & Joon alot

• animal = dog, snake
• exotic animal = maned wolf
• movie = fight club, dances with wolves
• musical = jesus christ superstar, chicago
• book = cold mountain
• tv show = MASH
• song = sound of silence
• band = ?
• aspect of nature = trees
• ecosystem = arboral, prairie
• time of day = dusk
• actor = Hanks, Depp, Dicaprio
• actress = Julia, Maggie
• musical instrument = piano, acoustic guitar, cello
• color = green, red
• artist = van gogh, chagal, marian
• painting = creation of man
• director = tarintino
• article of clothing = jeans

• walk across america (FL Keys to Bering Strait, Maine to San Diego)
• skydive(tandem)
• bungee jump (with significant other)
• travel to Asia, Alaska & Antarctica
• stay at a monastery
• publish a creative work
• whitewater rafting
• learn to play the guitar
• travel to Europe
• travel to Africa
• attend an Olympic Event
• go to college
• study abroad
• marry my best friend
• learn how to draw/paint
• learn a language
• be fluent in another language
• be financially independent
• live in another state
• live in another country

• veternarian
• zoo keeper
• christian camp programmer
• bible translator
• diplomat
• academic researcher
• archaeologist
• professor

• Cold Mountain by Charles Frazier
• Eleanor Rigby by Douglas Coopland
• The Hobbit by JRR Tolkein
• Candide by Voltaire
• Frankenstein by Mary Shelley
• The Castle by Franz Kafka
• The Trial by Franz Kafka
• Amerika by Franz Kafka
• Life of Pi by Yann Martel
• Jude the Obscure by Thomas Hardy
• The Big Rock Candy Mountain by Wallace Stegner
• Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy Trilogy in Five Parts by Douglas Adams
• A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens
• The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett
• The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
• The Day the Falls Stood Still by

• meth & theory of religious studies
• religions of india
• lose 60lbs
• finish something

• dark hardwood floors
• yes, yes the built-in and crown molding
• neighbor noise is minimal
• two walls of windows
• walk-able to weekly necessities; ie. library, beach, walmart
• close to freeway
• cool breeze from ocean
• cross breeze through apartment
• walk-in closet/hallway
• bathroom away from living space
• raised from street

• Dave Eggers
• Jonathan Safran Foer
• David Foster Wallace (deceased)
• Yann Martel
• Nick Hornby
• Michael Perry
• Chuck Palahniuk
• Stephen King
• Jose Saramago
• Steig Larssen
• Gary Shteyngart
• Jonathan Franzen
• Rachel Kann
• Stefan S
• david stephen mitchell
• emma donoghue
• sarah vowell

• studio with chinese screen or curtain divider
• one bedroom
• no shared walls
• lots of windows
• quiet neighborhood (except for street)
• residential neighborhood
• close to park/beach
• assigned parking
• laundry facilities
• no dogs
• place for a hide-a-key
• good water pressure
• upstairs
• balcony
• not a row apartments
• walking distance
• accessible to city center

• complete grad school application
• (complete Morocco true)
• (complete Morocco humourous)
• (rough draft of Paradise Gates)

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• begin each item with an asterisk

• leonardo dicaprio
• adrian brody
• tom hanks
• tom cruise

• you'll be a man my son
• that poem from that cultic church on LaBrea
• two roads diverge in a wood and i take the road less traveled
• sun/moon from dianne eckerman
• walrus and the carpenter by lewis carrol
• jaberwocky by lewis carrol
• old father william by lewis carrol
• lady of shalot by tennison

• (complete grad school admissions)
• (complete a creative work)
• lose 5 lbs
• i hope ticket will be taken care of
• i hope troung will be taken care of

• an overwelmingly, totally unexplainable experience
• getting rid of this individualistic view of salvation

• Solstice Canyon, Malibu
  • ruins
  • discover the joy of side trails
• Aliso Canyon, Laguna Beach
  • bikes, bikes, bikes
  • deer
  • trail commeraderie
  • gave directions for a trail i'd never been on before
• Oak Grove, Anaheim Hills
  • troll
  • first on the trails=spider webs
  • oak on one side, cactus on the other side
  • unkempt trails
• Balboa Park Trails
  • 5, 4, 23

• Portland, OR
• San Francisco, CA
• Angeles National Forest
• Redwood National Park
• Cleveland National Forest
• Mystery Spot
• Herst Castle
• Central Park, NYC

• mystery theatre
• medieval dinner
• dinner and walk at naples
• kiaking
• shakespeare in the park
• coffee
• game nite
• would you rather?
• getty
• frizbee golf/driving range/golf/mini-golf/bowling
• sporting event
• queen mary ghost tour

(note: excludes movie, concert, dancing)

"Why do you have so many copies of Jane Eyre?" "Oh, it's a long story." "Well, it only seems to be about 300 pages..." Definately, Maybe "The key to your life is gratitude. You do not give enough thanks...Simple: say thank you." "It's not easy to be adored. You're worth the adoration." "Let's be people who deserve to be loved, who are worthy. Go get yourself loved." "With gratitude the universe if eternally abundant." happythankyoumoreplease

• thief in the night/in the blink of an eye
• don't eat the pictures
• brave little toaster
• peter rabbit
• boatniks
• ruskies
• the rescue
• chips the war dog
• looking for miracles
• pete's dragon

• wonderwall by oasis
• if you like pina coladas by jimmy buffet
• sound of silence by simon and garfunkel
• would you call my name outloud by dispatch
• lighthouse by nicklecreek
• black by pearl jam
• landslide by (everyone)
• your love is deep by jami smith
• everlong(acoustic) by foo fighters
• stand by me by ben e. king
• show me what i'm looking for by carolina liar
• champagne supernova by oasis

• Tremond Lluellyn gave me a "gold", "diamond" ring at recess one day and i has slipped it on right away, to make him feel good. When i got to Band a few hours later, i noticed that my finger, that i play my flute with was purple, turning black. So i hid my flute-playing finger as best as i could and after Band I ran upstairs to the library for my mom to fix it/help me. We ran it under cold water and lubed it up and it came off. Whew.
• It was a "thursday" in high school, after Mr. Winter's Algebra class, washed off, headed to Mrs. Lane's English class where i ran into Tom and Chad. I don't think anyone was the wiser.
• I was walking, into the sun, on the Manhattan Beach Promenade, with my sunglasses on and ran straight into a bench. Wham! so i was face down on this bench so i tried to play it off like i had laid down on ...

• pizza
• peanut butter m&ms
• diet pepsi

• wobbly bits
• lack of self-confidence and self-worth
• lack of experience
• not sexy
• boring

• $50 gift card to McCormicks, from OCMMC
• 3 free yogurts at Yogurtalnd form OCMMC
• employee of the month, july 2011

• Ben - care for others, freespirit
• Sheila - easygoing
• Sara - funloving
• Canary - wise, read people, instincts/intuition
• Mike - adventurous
• Asmus - be yourself
• Hayley Tice - beautiful

• Breadsmith, Greenfield, WI
• Timber-lee, East Troy, WI
• Northwestern College, Orange City, IA
• Postal Solutions, Menomonee Falls, WI
• Mail Masters, Torrance, CA
• Orange Coast Memorial, Fountain Valley, CA

• Boston, MA
• Austin, TX
• anywhere in Alaska
• Washington DC
• Endicott & Fairbury, NE
• Portland, OR
• Lakewood, OH
• St. Paul, MN
• Jerusalem, Israel
• Amsterdam, Netherlands
• Tokyo, Japan
• Xian, China
• St. Petersburg, Russia
• Moscow, Russia
• Budapest, Hungry
• San Fransisco, CA

• Emergencies
• Credit Card
• Student Loan
• Car payment
• Travel
• Retirement
• Philanthropy
• plane ticket
• Mt Shasta/Chamberlain Family Reunion
• Grad School
• traffic ticket

• Fight Club
• Dancing with Wolves
• The Lake House
• The Matrix
• Dan in Real Life
• Stranger than Fiction
• The Prestige
• The Village
• The Station Agent
• The Book of Caleb
• Jesus Christ Superstar
• Good Dick

• ✔ quiet neighbors
• ✔ not a row
• ✔ quad/octo
• ✔ windows
• ✔ bathroom away from living area
• ✔ hardwood floors
• own parking
• ✔ not street level
• walkable to park, water, coffee, hiking

• shakespeare by the sea
• movies on the beach
• (coffeehouse & writing)
• camping
• read
• manuscript study
• (reach 10%)
• (4pgs/week)
• win court case

• Going too far and caring too much about a subject is the best way to make friends that I know - Sarah Vowell
• Be the change you want to see in the world -

• people, adrenaline, pleasure
• it takes two strangers with ostensibly nothing in common and through a shared, immediate experience, links them, even just for a moment=triangulation
• what attracts people most, it would appear, is other people
• where people are kissing=a safe place
• more to falling in love than just the right combination of personalities...what also mattered...were the circumstances under which people met
• more likely to be attracted to people they met during unusual or boundry breaking experiences-those involving power, mystery, isolation or strong emotions
• places open, full of street life, exciting, full of novelty and adventure
• mix of shapes, texture and activity
• focal point that commands the eye
• water

• sex
• downhill ski
• martial arts
• boxing
• painting
• publish
• travel
• book club

• Diamond Self (the real me, without the filter of fear)
  • self-affirmations
  • networking
    • imagine that person is already your best friend
    • be completely focused and present
    • be generous and complimentry
  • flirting
    • eye contact/smile/say hi
    • say his name
    • ask open-ended questions
    • ask for help
• Positive Paranoia

• linday/grammer at the Roxi
• Steven Curtis Chapman at the Rose
• lindsay/rally4one at bar
• oreja de van gogh in cordova
• jose guerra in granada
• cademan's call at NWC

• that chess one in Soiux Falls
• Chicago at Pantageus
• Jesus Christ Super Star in Milwuakee
• Phantom of the Opera in Milwaukee
• Joseph and His Technocolor Dream Coat in Milwaukee

• Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace
• Ulysses by James Joyce
• Faust by Goethe

• lies to self
• believes own lies
• cannot recognize truth in self
• cannot recognize truth in others
• loses respect for self
• loses respect for others
• cannot love
• yields to impulses
• indulges in pleasures

• national mall
• rocky mountains
• las vegas strip
• grand canyon
• redwooods
• eifel tower
• buckingham palace
• collesium
• sistine chapel
• pacific ocean
• atlantic ocean
• mediteranian sea
• st mark's square
• st paul's square
• hollywood sign
• chinese theatre
• walk of fame
• empire state building
• world trade center
• wall street
• 5th avenue

• Wurstkuche, Little Tokyo
• kiaking, Belmont Shores
• naples
• roscos chicken and waffles
• ghetty

• Regan Library
• Nixon Library
• Fellowship Shrine
• Huntington Library
• CSULB Japanese Garden
• Getty
• Pacific Museum-Amanda
• Winchester House
• Herst Castle
• redwood
• yosmite, friggit ice
• sequoia
• solvag
• Mystery Spot

• major league baseball
  • brewers, dodgers, angels, mariners
• minor league baseball
• national football league
• college football
  • UCLA, NWC, USC
• hockey
  • Admirals
• indoor soccer
  • Wave
• cricket
• rugby

• Hell's Kitchen, New York City, Forest Lake District
• Swinoujscie, Poland, Youth Builders
• Sabana de Uchire, Venezuela, Youth Builders
• Miami, Florida, Habitat for Humanity
• El Triumfo, Honduras, STEM
• Tiajuana, Mexico, El Corazon

• Bob Pole, Breadsmith
• Tom Parsons, Timber-lee
• John Andrioni, Timber-lee
• ____Keith, NWC
• Elaine Hofland, NWC
• Chris Clemens, Postal Solutions
• Brad Dennis, Mail Masters
• Bonnie Ingle, OCMMC

• camping
• shakespeare in the park
• roadtrip
• (finish a creative work)
• make a decision about grad school
• (loose 10lbs)
• choose a grad school

• NickleCreek
• Dashboard Confessional
• Incubus
• Sondre Lerche
• Chopin
• U2
• simon and garfunkel
• beatles
• ray lamontagne
• 30 seconds to mars
• linkin park

• creation of man, leonardo di vinci
• starry night, vincent van gogh
• hay stack, monet
• cloud, ghetty
• moon, ghetty
• triumph of spring, ghetty
• double roman forum, chicago
• four seasons man, louve
• date, grecco
• sevilla woman, ghetty (ben pose)
• chagall
• kandinski
• miro
• daniel merriam

• maggie gyllenhaal
• lauren graham
• kate winslet
• julianne moore
• julia stiles
• jillian michaels
• scarlett johansen
• gennifer goodwin

• joachin phoenix
• keanu reeves
• christian bale
• john cusak
• luke wilson
• leonardo dicaprio
• jason schwartzmann
• matt damon
• liev schreiber
• giovanni ribisi
• johnny knoxville
• neil patrick harris
• ashton kutcher
• macauley caulkin
• kieran caulkin
• casey aflack
• joseph gordon levit
• justin long
• johnny depp
• hayden christensen
• jason statham

• be married?
• be a writer?
• be self-employed?
• be an anonymous philantropist*****

• Michelle, my Belle
• Pacabelle's Canon
• Jesus, Man of Joy's Desiring
• red roses
• garland and trees
• in a garden
• no shoes
• white eyelit dress
• no veil
• overlooking the ocean
• no wedding party
• cake reception
• cruise honeymoon (to make me try new things)
• string quartet
• no singing
• afternoon
• mom as my wedding party
• Beatles reception
• Blue like Jazz pg 50before

• Cheri Schmidt (Timber-lee)
• Sarah Yoder (NWC)
• Kaole Xiong (NWC-Hospers)
• Deena______ (Timber-lee)
• Miranda Johnson (Spain)
• Jo Evenson(Postal Solutions)
• Teri K (Redeemer)
• Jodi Regner (Spain)
• Tori Dolan (Heritage)
• Sara Buettner (Redeemer)
• Jen Schuller (AuSable)
• Seffi Jakob (penpal)
• Mari Wiggen (penpal)
• Erika Lees (Heritage)
• Brina Wulf (NWC-Hospers)
• Beth Sederstrom (NWC-Hospers)
• Rachael W (NWC-Hospers)
• Marie Kluge (Heritage)
• Annie Keith (NWC-Mexico)
• Kris Marten (Timber-lee)
• Noah Brock (Youth Builders)

• homelessness (Rescue Mission)
• sustainable developement (Heifer International)
  • sanitation
  • clean water
  • small business loans

• Canada
• Mexico
• England
• France
• Belgium
• Spain
• Morocco
• Italy
• Austria
• Switzerland
• Germany
• Luxembourg
• Poland
• Czech Republic
• Venezuela
• Honduras