because i've been developing horrible, and possibly, stress pimples, sleeping less & more (it's inconsistent), feeling jittery and nervous and can't relax for no seemingly apparent reason, procrastinating a lot, getting irritable too easily, crying and tearing up at every little thing, making too many lists that i'd never complete and i hate it

• being unorganised
• how i am just like my mum too often in the worst ways
• me nagging someone, or being nagged
• my tendency to always want to be the responsible one
• commitments & obligations; being committed to things and my inability to seem to bail on things even though i really want to
• forgetting things, even the most minute things
• my increasingly low tolerance for people
• my inability to focus on things, mostly reading and doing things i love so much
• having no motivation to deal with anything
• eating. anything at all
• losing things
• doing whatever it is that seems to always stresses everyone around me out and i really don't know what i did most of the time
• my inability to enjoy the things i used to love doing. reading, drawing, watching movies etc.
• my lack of motivation towards being more physically active & healthy despite really wanting to
• always craving for coffee yet i can't have too much of it
• physical conversations. being in public in general. being in shops alone. talking on the phone, with people at counters etc.
• how there's no one i'm actually comfortable spending time with and that is incredibly lonely
• always craving for things that seem to be bad for me, physically. i don't know
• i have no direction in life. or rather i really just want to stop existing and i don't know how to live when i don't even want to
• i know nothing. i'm the most simple-minded and ignorant idiot i know