"...in the far desert, on a distant blasted plain, a forgotten corner amid the death of all things,"

• natacha, 1989, she/her
• ☼ sag ⇗ gemini ☽ virgo
• formely
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• andré aciman's find me, 2019
  • When I come to be here, I can be alone or with people, with you for instance, but I am always with him. If I stood for an hour staring at this wall, I'd be with him for an hour. If I spoke to this wall, it would speak back.
• jenny hval's paradise rot, 2018
  • Inside me the boy continues to put his index finger through his hand, slowly but firmly, as if he is poking it inside my body, and then he retches again. I can't get rid of the finger, the sound, the image. It's as if Im the throat that makes him vomit.
• paul beaty's the sellout, 2015 (reading)

• fiona apple's "fetch the bolt cutters" 2020 ♡

• hamilton leithauser’s “here they come" from here they come, 2020
  • I was a fool, I was blind, I kept my eyes shut half the time;
• cable ties' "sandcastles" from far enough, 2020
  • you don't do anything because you know that people like you, they just don't do anything at all but tear each other down!
• bartees strange's "about today" from say goodbye to pretty boy, 2020
  • how close am I to losing you?
• extrazen's "with you" ,2020
  • Wwy are all the people acting godly? look, time is in slow mo’ and I guess that’s the only thing I see, yeah I just wanna be with you, fuck everything, just be with you

• marika hackman's "all night" from any human friend, 2019
  • remember that day when we never met and you begged me to ruin your life? we didn't even speak, you just took my hand and held it between your thighs;
• sipper's "adam driver" from adam driver ep, 2019
  • adam d, you're my everything, throw those arms on me, take your time, please;
• squirrel flower's "red shoulder" from I was born swimming, 2020
  • I don’t know what it is or isn’t anymore;
• alexandria savior's "soft currents" from the archer, 2020
  • I find happiness in the wrong places every time, my fate is at the hand of my mistakes and that's alright;
• porridge radio's "lilac" from every bad, 2020

• MARCH SLOWLY, AND THEN ALL AT ONCE, BECAME THE FIRST MONTH, FOR MY COUNTRY, OF THE COVID19 PANDEMIC
• AS IT TURNS OUT, BEFORE THIS, I MAINLY LISTENED TO MUSIC OUTSIDE -
• ON MY WAY TO WORK, WHICH NO LONGER EXISTS
• WALKING BACK HOME, WHICH RARELY EVER HAPPENS NOW
• INSTEAD OF NEW MUSIC, I'VE BEEN COOKING DINNER EVERY NIGHT WITH A DIFFERENT RECORD FROM MY (TO BE DONE) LONG LIST OF ALL TIME FAVORITES

• marriage story (2019)
• qué coño está passando? (2019) ♀️
• parasite (2019)
• little women (2019)
• to all the boys I've loved before: ps, I still love you (2020)
• all the bright places (2020)
• portrait of a lady on fire (2019)
• jojo rabbit (2019)
• EMMA. (2020)
• the invisible man (2020)
• swallow (2019)
• the hunger games saga (rewatch)
• the matrix (1999) (rewatch)
• silver linings playbook (2012) (rewatch)