I don't know what to do I feel useless I feel horrible I feel like a horrible fucking husband because I don't know how to help he won't listen to me I don't even know what to say I feel so fucking stupid I hate myself because I can't help and it thinks it's his fault when it's not and I really want to give up because I don't know what else to do i just feel like I'm nothing and I'm afraid to say this because it sounds so FUCKING SELFISH WHY CANT I JUST SHUT UP ALREADY?!

HATING MYSELF OVER THIS, WHY CAN'T I JUST GROW UP ALREADY!

IT'S PATHETIC THAT /I/ WANT TO KILL MYSELF OVER THIS. OVER EVERYTHING.

AND IT'S SELFISH THAT I COME HERE AND VENT! I KNOW EVERYONE WILL SEE THIS AND GIVE ME ATTENTION BECAUSE APPARENTLY THATS WHAT I WANT! I NEED TO SHUT UP I'M JUST BEGGING FOR ATTENTION AT THIS POINT.

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF, I'M A PATHETIC EXCUSE OF A DEMON /AND/ A HUSBAND.

I GIVE UP. IT'S NOBODY'S FAULT BUT MINE.

I'M SORRY.