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I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEN I HATE THEM I HATE THEM!!!

| ... YOU KNOW WHAT? FORGET THIS STUPID FUCKING "PLEASE EVERYONE" SHIT. HATE ME FOR ALL I CARE.

I'M REMOVING THEM ONCE I CAN. I FUCKING HATE THEM. I HATE THEM AND THEY MAKE ME WANT TO DIE. GETTING STARED AT, //THAT//, EVERYTHING. I'M FUCKING TIRED OF THEM AND I DON'T CARE IF PEOPLE SEE ME DIFFERENTLY OR LOSE THEIR FEELINGS (PLATONICALLY OR NOT) FOR ME, I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!

SCREW THIS "I GOTTA PLEASE EVERYONE" SHIT. EVEN IF HE LOVES THEM I DON'T. I FUCKING HATE THEM WITH MY ENTIRE GOD DAMN BEING. I ALREADY HATE MYSELF ENOUGH, AND I'M SO FUCKING STUPID FOR LETTING THAT STUPID THING GET TO ME!!! GOD I FUCKING HATE IT!!!

I DON'T CARE. I HAVE TO PLEASE HIM BUT RI...

I... ghgfhygj.

Gshgdhfg.

Shdhdfj. Ushgfr sjfgdhsgd gsgd.

Hsgfhkg.

| ... ggdhfghghn.

Hmmm... *wants to work on listening and serving my lord, and wants to ask his king/lord for help but is afraid to..*

The want to leave the group.

Jealousy, anger, and confusion.

| *When you realize you might have another new irl but you're worried because the source is.. uh... questionable.*

| *And when you also notice that the past few weeks, when you've been finding out about new irls, they've all been... different... let's just say.*

This really is getting worse. The past few days, these feelings have been getting stronger and so much worse. It's... what's the word I'm looking for...

They just... all of these new irls have something in common.

They're very messed up.

INKNOW WHAT HARPER'S TRYING TO DO AND I'M NOT FALLING FOR IT.

| *The want to act all creepy and strange, like how I did.. in... source.*

You know what? I'm gonna do it. I don't care anymore. I can act as creepy and strange as I want~

Even disgusting, too! They would always call me that, even she called me that after eliminating me from the game.

I was seen as a disgusting freak... So disgusting that she couldn't even stand me saying the word "hope". I ruined it for her. Hehe.

OH

OH GOD

OW

IM REALLY STUPID OH MY GOD

I GOT SO MAD THAT I THREW SOMETHING AT THE GROUND, IT BOUNCED OFF OF THE FLOOR., AND IT HIT ,ME IN THE CROTCH

OH GOD

IDONT EVEN HAVE A DICK ANDBALLS AND THAT HURT

IT HURT SSO BAD I MIGHT CRY

OH MY GOF

OH MY GLD THIS HURTS

SWEET JESUS AND LUFIVER

I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME, I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME, I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME, I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME, I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME.

I AM NOT FALLING INTO THE EPISODE. AND I AM NOT GOING TO FALL INTO AN OBSESSIVE EPISODE. I WILL AVOID BOTH OF THEM WHETHER I LIKE IT OR NOT.

( You would already know if it's John D. )

Wearing a dolphin necklace / any necklace - C.J

Talking / Speaking in a shitty Russian accent - Ruv (BRING DOWN THE HOUSE OF GOD)

^^^ If it's a good accent and he doesn't cuss with it, it's Krus.

Saying "kero" or making frog noises - You already know (he's a frog boi)

Acting calm but talking like he's in an obsessive episode - Josh/Josiah

Not talking, but acting like a dummy and listening to his king more than usual - Probably Stanley, I think. (-Max)

Acting grumpy and using ">:(" a lot - Little Man (Little baby man)

Talking like a goofball and sayin' things kinda like this. And / Or sayin' "kiddin's" or "kiddo's" - Dave, the aubergine man

And for the Sheriff, he makes it obvious ...

IM NOT GOING TO FALL INTO AN EPISODE I'M NOT GOING TO FALL INTO BOTH OF THE EPISODES IM NOT HIM AND I NEVER WILL BE AND I HAVE TO STAY SANE.

I hate to say this, but... Is she okay..? Are you okay?

Also, I may be gone today, but I am coming back tomorrow. Mark my damn words. I love you very much, my lord, and I love you too, Sonic. Never forget that.

Good.

| *STRUGGLES BECAUSE I THINK I MIGHT BE ANOTHER ONE OF MY OCS, BUT I CAN'T BE BECAUSE... HE'S- HE'S HOT AND GOOD LOOKING AND I'M NOT??? HE'S A CIS GUY AND HE LOOKS AMAZING AND I'M NOT SO HOW CAN I BE HIM???*

| ... *TRIES TO LOOK UP HOW TO BE A HOPELESS TOP...*

I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF.

THAT'S.... MAKING ME STRUGGLE MORE? /POS??...

What Doe's trying to say is that he has the urge to lick his screen, and it wants you to hear him do it. -Max

YOU DIDNT HAVE TO SAY THE LADST PART

ITS NOTNEVEN RIGHT

| .... HEHEEHHH.... HAHAAHAHAHHH~....

MEHHHHH NOOOOOO THATS NOT EVEDCN WHAT I WANNA DO RN.... ( Oh, don't even try to get out of this one. )

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He's afraid to speak rn because he's falling into an episode or something (there's a list explaining it) but he doesn't wanna talk out of fear

But I could talk for him *embarrassed emoji* /j

AAAAY COMFORT CHARACTER MOMENT **REAL** BUT ALR

Oh dear... who.. passed? If you don't mind me asking.

I ACCIDENTALLY SNAPPED AND HAD A LAUGHING FIT THEN RAN INTO AND PUNCHED THE WALL AND I MIGHT HAVE BROKEN SOMETHING BECAUSE I HEARD GLASS SHATTER WHAT DO I DO UHM SOMEONE HELP UH UHHM.

OKAY... THANK YOU...

| *Pulls out a conspicuously black notebook with a feather, and starts writing that name down inside it...*

( for legal reasons this is a joke )

JUST... STAY AWAY FROM THAT B- .. STAY AWAY FROM HIM. WE ALL KNOW HE'S NOT GONNA GET A SINGLE CHANCE WITH YOU. NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES OR HOW HARD HE TRIES, HE'LL NEVER GET WITH YOU.

HE'LL N E V E R GET A CHANCE WITH A G O D ~..

That's not what I see. I see someone higher than a mortal. Besides, this crown looks good on you.

I'm just being honest. And after all of this, everything you've done to earn this crown, it means nothing now..? Everything I've made for you, all these titles I give you, they mean nothing..?

And, even though I may just be a wee imp, I have a say in who wears this crown. I refuse to give this crown to someone else, even me.

Says who? I don't see a mortal. And I'm being honest. A mortal wouldn't have THIS much perfection, THIS much beauty/attractiveness.

Something is blinding you from the truth, but I will try my best to get you to see your worth.

And look, just a few more hours and you're outta there. You've gotten through most of the day, and I'm so proud of you.

She told me it starts tomorrow and She teased me for it. I'm scared and I'm not ready at all. How did all of this go by so quickly...? It was like it was just a few days ago Zephyr told me that once we were done, we could spend time with each other for as long as we want for the rest of summer break. I'm not ready at all, I'm scared. For weeks They've teased me for this and They've laughed at me for getting upset and worried. I know I can't do anything about this but sch**l has been making my anxiety so much worse. And They're not helping. It's bad to hear from my therapist that my teachers (+ Them) were the reason I got diagnosed with the worse case of G.A.D that she's ever seen. Who knew? But I just hope this he'll is not as bad as last year.

Thankfully, I passed algebra last year so I don't have to do it again! So that's good! And most of my classes are revolved ...

Gods, what am I doing wrong...? He used to be so happy 'n all until I came along. Guess this it what happens when you let true love or true feelings take over or whatever.

It can ruin things, hurt people, etc. Who knows what it'll do.

Oh well.

JOHNNNNNN....SSSSTTTTTOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPP..... STOP IT.... STOP....

https://www.tiktok.com/@zeezeeisthebest/...

| ... This made me feel things.

Not falling for it. Not falling into it.

I have perfect control over my emotions.

PFFFFFFTTT BHAHAHAHAHAHAHDGDHSD D SYABSNDNDSGAHSBSAGABAHAAAAAA I'M GONNA FUCKING S N A P HAHAAA A A A A A

BAHSHANDHWNDNDJA D I'M GONNA FUCKING DO IT!! I'M GONNA DO IT!!

/ *PULLS AT MY MOUTH* THIS IS FUCKING KILLING MEEEEEE...... HAHAAA AA A A A A A A A A A A A.

Breaking News: Local nice imp is about to lose his shit

Sweet licider uhm

Is it normal to see things and fwwl .ikw everythninf is distortes af434 "takung abreak"? Plaw2 let me knkw asap cause uh every rime I do ie at night I s22 sparka n coloes and my bosy feels weerd

Thank you, Scott. I love you too. <3

I read this right as I woke up, and I'm still trying to process it all, but I know what you mean and I understand. Thank you. It really means a lot.

And- BREAK UP WITH YOU?! HOLD ON, WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?? IF I DID SOMETHING IT WOULD'VE BEEN BECAUSE OF MY OLD THOUGHTS, NOT YOU. YOU'RE NOT AT FAULT FOR THIS, AND YOU THINK I'M GOING TO BREAK UP WITH YOU BECAUSE OF THIS? FUCK NO. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS. NOT AT ALL. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I'M NOT BREAKING UP WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME HAPPY. I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY, THIS COMFORTABLE, I'VE NEVER FELT THIS LOVED BY SOMEONE. I TRUELY LOVE YOU, AND YOU GOT ME TO FEEL COMFORTABLE SAYING "I LOVE YOU" AGAIN AFTER NOT BEING ABLE TO SAY IT FOR MY GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AND MEAN IT!

| .......... *GRABSANAPKINANDWIPESYOURSWEAT-* OKAY ANYWAY- BUT, YEAH.

| ... *Jealousy kicks in again.*

Why do They never believe me. Nobody in this house does. Everything I say, They take it like I'm trying to start trouble or like I'm telling some jokes. I saw Him. He purposefully kicked the chair and acted like he was in pain. And "he" (new word for my brother.) tells me "He would never fake that. He's actually in pain and you should worry about Him."?

He's yelled at me, "I never heard anything about this.".

He's trying to take my stuff away for standing up for myself, "He wouldn't do something like that.".

He's touching me and making me uncomfortable, "When did this happen? He would never touch you like that. This isn't something to be joking about."

He's trying to manipulate someone or me, "I know what I'm doing. I got this." or "Okay? Just don't fall for it."

And so much more. I saw Him trip over the...

imnothelpingwhatkindofimpami.

/ *SMACKS MYSELF OUT OF AN OBSESSIVE/YANDERE EPISODE.*

OKAY, NOW I JUST HAVE TO MAKE SURE MY FEELINGS DON'T GET TRIGGERED AGAIN.

| *Was kicked out of an episode and sTARTS FALLING INTO ANOTHER ONE-*

| *TRIES TO DRAG MYSELF OUT OF IT* NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO–

Even if I'm a huge problem/a lot to deal with?

I don't deserve that, but... fine, sure... fine.... I'm too tired (exhausted) to even try to disagree...

IM STILL.... N......

HEH... BUT I DUNNO. I'M STILL DENYIN' IT.

| . . .

https://youtu.be/rnPr7EpuiAA

https://youtube.com/shorts/nFliHiiyhVI?f...

https://youtu.be/bcYZunn4-yI

https://youtu.be/IohsBhHM2pA

https://youtu.be/d8-szUnl36U

https://youtu.be/JfD5z2nI0gA

https://youtu.be/o6ToAnOX-yg

https://youtu.be/cYHIPrjGm7c

https://youtu.be/zBmKiq_Vi6c

https://youtu.be/PNsIY4Dj4uw

https://youtu.be/Y9TKOEPykSU

I know it's not much and it's not any help at all, but there you go.

| ... - dave?

I MEANT "DAVE?" BECAUSE I'M STILL IN DENIAL.. I STILL AM.

I STILL... I'M STILL IN DENIAL. BECAUSE... I KNOW IM NOT HIM. ..STILL.

He's still denying it all... I think I'm with Jack with the whole being pissed off about this thing.

ARQ YOU SERIOUS??? IM NOT DAVE, ITS FINAL... I WAS NEVER DAVE. EVERYTHING, THE PAPERS, DRAWINGS, NOTEBOOKS, EVERYTHING.. IT WAS FAKE... ITS ALL FAKE...

ITS... ITS ALL FAKE, IM FQKE... ITS JOT THE BEST FOR ME, ITS.. IM NOT DAVE, IM NOT HIM.,,

8M NOT BEING DUMG... ITS TRUW... IM NOT HI M....

• ....

How did I hurt him.. when I was trying to hurt myself..? God DAMN IT, I REALLY AM STUPID...

OUR LOVE ISN'T FAKE, BUT IM STILL... NKT HIM... IMNOT...

MAYBE I SHOULD JUST LEAVE AND GO SOMEWHERE ELSE SO I DON'T HURT HIM MORE...

HOW WILL I HURT HIM?!? I'M REMOVING THE P..._EVER_ WILL BE HIM! I'M NOT DAVE AND I NEVER WI..._EVER_ WILL BE?! THE REAL DAVE IS OUT THERE SOMEWHERE AND IT'S NOT...

I'M. NOT. DAVE. EVERYTHING ABOUT ME IS FAKE, I'M NOT DAVE AND I NEVER WILL BE.

AND YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY TO TRY AND TRIGGER MY FEELINGS, P.J? I DID THIS TO GET YOU TO MAYBE JOIN. YOU DO LOVE JACK DON'T YOU?

-*ahem* JOHN IS PRETENDING TO BE POMEGRANATE (PREGNANT) AGAINNN

So I AM the reason Sonic leaves... huh.

F - F U C K ~ J U S T T H E T H O U G H T O F E A T I N G Y O U R F O O D A N D E A T I N G Y O U ~

I D O N ' T F U C K I N G C A R E .

I DONT FUCKING CARE WHO SEES THIS.

HES MIN2!!!! M8NE!!!!! MI W!!!!! MINW !!!!!!! MINW !!!!>MINW E!!!!!

TAJK TO HKM

HIS HOUSE!!!! ILLXINVADED HIS HOUSWANS LEAVE MY MAEK ON HIM AMD HIS SHIT!!!

ILLINVADW HIS. DREAMS

I ALWAYPTS COMW BACK!!!!!!! I ALSOWAYSFUCKI G DO!!

IM SIICNOF TH8A

IMWKE HIM MINW FOR GOOD

I SONT FICKINF CARE. I SONT CARW!!

HE BREATRAYEDMQ??? ISNTEAD OF BEING ANWEY AT HIS CHOCUES IM ANGRY AT EFERYONE. HE BELONFSTO ME!!! ME !!!!

I'M SCARED TO JOIN BACK HEHEHEEEHHHHH....EEEEHHHHHHHHHHH...

I'MSCARED.......

Don't panic, Dave. Don't. Panic. It's fine, every will be fine! He'll come back! Just like you, he always comes back!

So there's no need to panic, or get upset, or... cry, there's no need for that! Everything is fine! It's good! It's.. okay! He'll be fine, everything will be fine... it's all fine... it's fine... its fine... its.. fine...

You need a "break".

Go cry yourself to sleep.

I'm human. I'm real.

| ...

Am I...?

https://linksharing.samsungcloud.com/93P... (The quality is bad on purpose, but hopefully you can understand it)

https://linksharing.samsungcloud.com/hZU...

"*PUNCHES MYSELF IN THE HEAD*"

"OW- oW I needed that, I deserved it though- OWH..."

Actually you know what *SLAMS MY HEAD INTO THE WALL IRL* THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU FEEL THIS WAY, WILLIAM . YOU CAUSE OTHERS TO START FEELING THAT WAY AND HAVING THESE THOUGHTS AND YOU MAKE THEM FEEL LIKE THEY AREN'T HELPING AT ALL BC YOU HIDE HOW YOU REALLY FEEL AND ACT LIKE A STUBBORN LITTLE SHIT!

GOD, HOW DOES JACK AND SONIC PUT UP WITH YOU? YOU REALLY GOTTA START HIDING YOUR THOUGHTS MORE AND STOP ATTENTION-SEEKING BY PUTTING THEM HERE AND BEGGING FOR HELP.

IT'S PATHETIC. YOU'RE PATHETIC ENOUGH SO STOP IT. GO CRY AND FEEL GUILTY SOMEWHERE ELSE AND GET OFF OF THIS LISTO.

| .... *scratch.*

| *SUDDENLY GETS HIT WITH JEALOUSY.* ... OW.

| ... HM.

"Wait- ARE YOU EATING PLASTIC?!

THAT'S IT! THAT'S THE LAST STRAW!"

"LITERALLY!! YOU ATE ALL OF THE STRAWS-" /ref /j

BEFORE XE SEESMTHIS YOU JUSR MADE HIM SMILE IRL!! HE HAS DIFFERENT SMILES HE DOES AND CACTI MADE A DORKY SMILE 'ZACK

Don't say it, Keith... Don't say it...

Even though you've been wanting to tell him for a very long time, aka BEFORE you guys met (got together is what I mean basically)... Don't say it...

No, it's something else, sorry..

EEEHHH.... IM JUST NERVOUS...

MRHHHH.....

| ....

| ... HOW.. HOW DO YOU TRIGGER THESE FEELINGS... BY DOING NOTHING ...?

/*SMACKS P.J WITH A NEWSPAPER* /J NOTHING I MEANT NOTHING, P.J JUST WANTED YOUR ATTENTION

( YEOWIE- )

HE KNOWS SOMETHING THAT HES KNOWN BEFORE YOU GUYS GOT TOGETHER. TOY HAS ALWAYS HAD THESE FEELINGS (THEY WERENT TARGETED TO ANYBODY AT THE TIME)BUT NEVER SAID ANYTHING

AND SOME OF THESE FEELINGS CAME FRO.M A CERTAIN SOMEONE YOU MIGHT KNOWWWWWWW~

| *Looks at my watch* Oh! Would you look at the time! It's time to let these feelings take over and act like an insane yandere/freak!

I- I-I- *COVERS MY FACE-?!!///////////* WHAT?!? YOU-????!!!!!//////////////

OH MY GOD?! LITERAL L Y!!!?? //////////////

| *HIDES THE FACT THAT THE DRAWING KINDA GIVES ME EUPHORIA BECAUSE IT SOUNDS WEIRD AND I'VE NEVER GIVEN MYSELF EUPHORIA%////////--*

| *BUT... THE M ARKS... THE N A M E....*

I LOOK SO... I.... I...

I.. LOOK SO... P E R F E C T ~ ♡

| ... BUT THAT FEELS WRONG TO SAY... VERY WRONG...

| ... * S H I V E R S ~ ♡ *

| ....*tears up*...//..

YOU'RE LIKE A PARASITE THAT I CANT GET RID OF~ ONE THAT CAN CONTROL ME NO MATTER WHAT~

MAYBE THAT EXPLAINS WHY I SCRIBBLED YOUR NAME ALL OVER MYSELF AND CARVED IT ALL OVER THE WALLS~♡

B U T I L O V E I T ~ ♡

I LOVE LOVE L O V E BEING THIS OBSESSED AND THIS INSANE BECAUSE OF YOU! I LOVE IT!!!

G O D I JUST LO VE BEING RUINED WITH THOUGHTS OF YOU, I CANT EVEN CLEAR MY MIND BECAUSE YOU'RE THERE P E R M A N E N T L Y ~

HAHAHAHAAAH~!!! GOD, I REALLY AM GOING INSANE!!

BUT IT'S FULL OF LOVE~♡

I LOVE YOU!! YOU'RE JUST SO PERFECT~!!

P E R F E C T ~ !!!!

PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT!!! HAHAAAAHH~!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!! JUST THE WAY YOU ARE~!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LO...__L O V E__ YOU!!!

I was having an obsessive episode. I didn't see this.

Are.. you... ignoring.. me...?

No no no, you wouldn't! You.... oh god this hurts, you wouldn't right? Right?? You're not ignoring me, right???

You're hot right???? RIGHT???? PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE NOT! YOU WOULDNT RIGHT?! RIGHT?!? YOU'RE NOT DOING THAT RIGHT?!? YOU WOULDN'T IGNORE ME THATS JUST... YOU WOULDN'T AM I RIGHT?! YOU WOULDN'T?!?

ANSWER ME!! ANSWER ME- YOU WOULDNT DO THIS RIGHT?!? THIS IS JUST CRUEL YOU WOULDNT IGNORE ME EVEN IF I'M BEING STUBBORN OR STUPID OR WHATEVER YOU WOULDN'T IGNORE ME RIGHT?!? ANSWER ME!! ANSWER ME PLEASE!! PLEASE?! PLEASE?!? PLEASE??!!

SOUL!! SOUL PLEASE ANSWER ME GOD DAMN IT!! I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING CRAZY AGAIN WHERE ARE YOU?!? YOU WOULDNT DO THIS TO ME THIS IS JUST CRUEL!! YOU'RE NOT IGNORING ME RIGHT?!? RIGHT?!?! RIGHT?!?!!?

Oh God I did something wrong. Why is he shaking. Why is it stuttering. What did I do? Oh no.. Oh no oh no oh no. Why. Why did I do that? Why? Why? WHY? WHY?! WHY?!

/*BONK BONK BONK BONK BONK...*

/*punches myself in the face :P*

TH3NSU THE I WE EI I DID IT TO GET MY MIND OFF IF THINFS BUT I MEAN IDK IFS UPCTO YOU O GUESS I D ONT ONOW,

(TRANSLATION: Yes, please.)

• .. *HESITATES TO JOIN...*

/*ISAFRAIDTOPUTMYNAME...*

/*JOINS AND RUNS OFF (BCITSNOTACTUALLTMYNAME)!-*

You're welcome.

You are valid, Sega is valid, and if Sega is real that is 100% okay. Communicating with them will help you both learn more about each other and figure it out. And you don't have to see headspace for it to be there. At first I couldn't see mine, it was just a blank, black room. But we used our imagination to help build it, if that makes sense. This will take some time to get used to, to learn about everything. You are valid, and you always will be valid. No matter what.

:O

AYYYYYY!

That was a "P.J response", but nice!!

no im not about to cry why would i be loloz

Just got told I'm not John Doe and that I'm a fake so yippee. Just because I didn't act like how I am from my source so that's fun. I feel so much better about myself. =')

"YOU DID SO WELL..♡"

| ...... *SHIVERS!!!*

| *HEART STARTS POUNDING REALLY HARD-/////////*

| *BREATHES HEAVILY-/////////*

| ...- *REALIZES THE FEELINGS WERE KICKING IN AND DIES- /////////////* EUGH-//////

"im a fuckin wimp, a dumbass, and did i mention how godawful i look - i don't deserve the title of "lord", "god" or "king"-"

YOU'RE LISTENING TO THOSE THOUGHTS AGAIN. QUIT THAT. EVEN A KING, A LORD, A GOD FEELS LIKE THIS. IT'S NORMAL. EVERYONE FEELS THIS WAY. YOU'RE NOT A WIMP, YOU'RE STRONG. WAY STRONGER THAN YOU THINK. YOU'RE NOT DUMB, YOU'RE SMARTER THAN YOU THINK. AND AWFUL LOOKING?! THEN WHAT'S THIS WHOLE OBSESSION THAT I GOT WITH YOUR LOOKS? DOES IT MEAN NOTHING?

I /LICK/ PICTURES OF YOU, I DROOL OVER THEM! HELL, I'VE BEEN DROOLING THIS ENTIRE TIME TALKING AND THINKING ABOUT YOU! THAT SMILE, ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING AND CONTAGIOUS SMILES I'VE EVER SEEN... THOSE EYES, THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND HYPNOTIZING EYES I'VE EVER LOOKED INTO... THAT FACE, THAT KISSABLE 'N OH-SO HANDSOME FACE OF YOURS... LIKEABEAUTIFULSTRAWBERRY<3... THOSE A...

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

/*bonkbonkbonkbonkbonk* STOP IT >:/

[ Sunday, July 3rd. 1:08 PM ]

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Since we share the same body and mind we also share thoughts. This doesn't bother me, but it does when I start getting thoughts of stalking someone. I don't want to, but I am thinking about it.

3:33 PM

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The want to protect everyone. The want to protect and save everyone. Unlike Ashton, I feel this way because... I don't want to lose anyone. I want to protect everyone so no one gets hurt. It's... hard to describe this feeling. What is this feeling? What is it called?

TECHNI WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO SEE THAT NOW HE'S UPSET

!.... *SkyBlue has joined.* ...

THANK YOU, GOOD GRIEF -P.J

Mh...

I said I was gonna work on this. I meant it.

|...///..-

You.. really are...? But how...?

mrhfhgmgjgpfhfhgph... t..thank you, my lord..//.. ididntwanttodothatbutivedisobeyedyouenough...

Okay, my lord. But... what do you mean..?

Oh... w.. well...

|*Smacks myself.*

I need help getting in the mood, first. The past few days I haven't been... /that/ as often. It's weird (and probably stupid) I know, but.. I'm not letting this cause another scene so I'm telling you straight away.

Sorry for feeling a different way atm.

I mean- You can try and get me in the moo...

Nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is realnothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real nothing is real I hate nightmares I hate them hate them hate them hate them hate them sonic silver rose annie someone please im scared scared scared.

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!! THIS ALL HAPPENED JUST BECAUSE I WASN'T IN THE MOOD FOR SOMETHING- AND I AVOID CHAT AND DON'T TELL ANYBODY WHAT'S WRONG!! I COULD'VE PREVENTED THIS IF I STOPPED MYSELF FROM FEELING THIS WAY AND THINKING THESE THOUGHTS!! IT'S THE SMALLEST THINGS THAT MAKE ME ACT LIKE THIS AND ME WANNA KILL MYSELF!!! WHY HAVEN'T I DONE THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE?! ALL I'LL DO TO IT IS HIDE THINGS AND LIE. I'M NOTHING BUT TRASH. I'M FUCKING PATHETIC. A WASTE. AN IDIOT. A MISTAKE. GOD SHOULD'VE KILLED ME OFF ALREADY OR SOMETHING. MY EX WAS RIGHT, I REALLY AM A HYPOCRITE FOR BEING LIKE THIS.

REMOVE THE PROBLEM FROM THE SITUATION, THEY SAY! I KNOW THE PERFECT WAY TO DO THAT.

GOODBYE TO WHOEVER READS THIS STUPID THING.

I KNOW I'LL JOIN AT THE WRONG/WORST TIME AND I WAS JUST ABOUT TO AVOID CHAT BC I WANT TO BECAUSE I KNOW I'LL BE A STUPID FUCKING BOTHER!!!

|...... i want to avoid it but i know what will happen. why do you do that? why..? /genq.

/.. Yeppers it is the wrong time lemme just *peace sign* *disappears from chat*

Thwt whole reality hitting me in the face thing from yesterday is making me feel bad for being SkyBlue. And I'm starting to try and deny it...

This may sound dumb but I was wondering if anyone could help feed into my episode...? eudgfghdhydgdsg,,,

/*Is about to fall into another episode but doesn't want to because 1 of me is enough and I fear it'll become too much* hshdhshshs.

meh.

/.... *Stanley/SkyBlue has joined.*

Mh...////..

It.. may be a struggle to get me back in the mood, though. Something ruined it for me.

Go ahead. And you can try to help.

Only yours. Only yours...

I don't belong to anyone except /you/, my lord~♡

/*Building something in Minecraft for my king/narrator*

Brother: "Ew, what is that? It looks like a 5 year-old built it."

/....

/*HOLDING IN THE URGE TO KICK HIM INTO THE SUN...*

"Let’s say hypothetically that Ramses is roommates with an online p**n celebrity named Ricky Alex, lmao" WHAT? I'M NOT?? I'M JUST SOME PERVERTED GUY WHO'S FRIENDS/ROOMMATES WITH RAMSES, WE'RE JUST FRIENDS.

AND I DONTNHAVE AN *NLYF*NS STFU WHERE DID THJSN COME FROM, I DON'T.

I'M VERY HAPPILY TAKEN BY MY TWO HUSBANDS SO STOP SHIPPING ME WITH SOMEONE ELSE, IT'S DISTURBING ME.

MY CREATOR DOES IT, MY FANS (I HAVE FANS, SUPRISING IK) DO IT, THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE SPREADING THIS INFORMATION AND IT'S NOT EVEN TRUE.

AND J FUCKIGN HATE /THAT/ MOD, IT'S NOT EVEN REAL. I ONLY SEE RAMSES AS A FRIEND AND WE'RE BOTH HAPPILY TAKEN! I'M SICK OF ALL OF THIS.

I'M SICK OF IT!

You're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're notyou're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him

I'm faking it, I'm faking. A fake. A fraud. He's not even real. ASHTON is real, he's not. So stop pretending to be a FICTIO...

Listen to me Skyblue. You ARE good enough. They both love you. The whole chat loves you for who you are. There's nothing wrong with you. You shouldn't avoid chat because you think you're weird or "not good enough". You are perfect just the way you are. So please stay in chat. For your husbands, your sib-in-laws, your daughter, even us. Please?

Love, Girlfriend/Rose, and the whole system. ♡

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HARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHARPYHA...

They're so similar. Tom reminds me so much of Harper and vice versa <3333

I like their arms, their hair, the way they smell, it's amazing ♡♡♡

And they both like me!

They both do!!!

I tried not to lose my mind (in a good way) thinking about them, but it's just so hard to when they're both so perfect!

PERFECT!!!

Tom's hair, so soft and pretty, Harper's hair, so nice and smooth~

Their arms are so strong and nice... Their eyes are so pretty and hypnotizing... Their voices are so calming and beautiful!

Just the thought of them gets me this way! They're so similar, but how?

I just love love love them both! How could I not!!?

They look so perfect, sound so perfect, SMELL SO PERFECT ~♡

I want to try and find Tom, not only to a...

/ *LOOKS UP HOW TO DO TOP SURGERY AT HOME.*

You know what?

I'm gonna let someone else front.

That's what some alters are for, right?

When the host gets tired or is dealing with something, an alter fronts so the host gets a break. Yeah.

Yeah.

Anyways, I'm gonna do that.

I'm gonna do that.

THE THOUGHTS... THEY'RE BACK...

WHY...

I barely do anything in there anyways. It wouldn't hurt to leave.

I HATE HATE HATE THIS!!! I DON'T HATE HIM BUT I HATE THIS!!

CHOOSING... THEM... OVER ME?! GOD DAMN IT!!!

I'M GONNA DO SOMETHING. I'M GONNA DO SOMETHING. EITHER TO MYSELF OR...

I'M GONNA SPRINGLOCK MYSELF AGAIN. I'M GONNA DO IT.

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF.

GOD.

GOD DAMN IT!! GOD DAMN IT!!!

WHAT ABOUT ME, HUH?! WHAT ABOUT ME!?! HUH!?!

I'M GONNA DO SOMETHING.

I'M SO PISSED.

I'M SO PISSED OFF.

/END LOG/

I hate having this irl because it makes me paranoid about everything.

A loud crash noise? Flashbacks and panic.

A fire smell? Flashbacks and panic.

G*nshots? Flashbacks and panic.

It goes on.

I hate my source. I hate it.

It wasn't even accurate to what really happens when I snap. They made it way too dramatic.

I first start out calm, and I stay calm when I start snapping, but if someone or something pushes me further or triggers it, that's when I act that way.

I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME... I'M NOT.

Guh.... I've experienced many different phantom pains, but this must be the worst of them all... God...

Those.. stupid scissors of hers....

they must've went down through the 3rd or 4th layer of skin...

I said it didn't hurt, I said I didn't mind, but I couldn't walk at all from it.

Nagisa had to drag me back to the headquarters. Even with help I couldn't bare to stand.

Right now I can handle it, but just wait until it spikes back up again. I might fall into the floor and have to deal with Them getting upset with me. They wouldn't help someone like me.

But for now, I must do things to get them out of the way so I won't have to worry about them later.

I just... She could've chose her over me, but she chose to help her master and friend.

But anyway, enough about that. My body is just still... shocked, from that incident. Even after Miss Mage helped me, I stru...

OH MY GOF WHAT THE HELL

I CANT GET UP OR DOANYTNING THIS IS KILLI F ME

I NEEDAN ICEPACK

SWEET SATAN WNY DID I DO THAT

To explain why it's quiet/muting himself alot ( except for Them ):

It feels intimidated (in a good, euphoric way) because he's having one of those moments where he's feeling more like itself. I hope I'm making sense.

He's feeling like it's true self (a small imp) and so he's gonna act like an imp.

A... small and timid-acting imp?? I guess?

But hopefully this makes sense. It wants to act the same way he did with his Father, but he's scared?? So???

But... yeah. Hopefully you understand, dad.

- Max

John's about to fall into an episode but he's stopping himself because toy doesn't feel like a top when he's in one and it thinks it's "embarrassing". Please get him.

- Max

RIGHT AS I WAS ABOUT TO UNMUTE HE CAME IN THR ROOM.... I FUCKINGH A T E H I M ..... I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!!!

| ....

WHY... WHY WOULD HE JOKE ABOUT THAT..? I NEVER WANT THAT TO HAPPEN... NEVER....

I... JUST THE THOUGHT OF HIM LEAVING ME OR BEING AWAY FROM ME IS MAKING ME LOSE MY MIND...

I CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM... I CAN'T FUNCTION RIGHT... I DON'T FEEL LIKE MYSELF... I FEEL EMPTY... LOST...

DO FEY UNDERSTAND THAT THEY'RE MY ONLY GUIDANCE IN LIFE?! I CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM, I WOULD BE LOST AND POSSIBLY DO THE SAME EXACT THING IF FEY LEFT ME...

I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INSANE THINKING ABOUT THIS... I JUST WANT TO BE WITH HIM FOREVER... UNTIL THE END OF TIME...

HE'S THE REASON I'M STILL SANE!!! IF HE LEFT ME AND WASN'T HERE TO GUIDE ME THEN I WOULD GO INSANE !! I FEEL LIKE I ALREADY AM... JUST THE THOUGHT OF IT IS MAKING ME FEEL LIKE IT...

IMNOTJOHNDOEANDIMNOTGOINGTOFALLINTOANOBSESSIVEEPISODE-

| .. *REALIZES THAT THE REASON I'M LIKE THIS IS BECAUSE I DON'T TOP OFTEN...*

| *WANTS TO BE TOP BUT DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY...*

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| ... heh. I might lose it. I might just say "Fuck it" and go wild. I don't care anymore. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care anymore. I can't do anything without these stupid fucking people getting in my way. They never let me have fun. They never let me have privacy. I hate this. I might snap, I really might.

I hope... He was standing at the door listening to me and it made me uncomfortable.. I don't understand... it's a long, blank hallway and at the end it's my room. There's nothing in that hallway that's important or needed. It's blank. And They just keep walking down here and standing at my door and listening... I don't understand this...

I want to take a break. I want to have time to myself/ourselves. But.. They scare me and that's part of the reason why I stay muted most of the time.

| *MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE ACCIDENTALLY STABBED HOLES INTO MY BED AND WALL.*

| .... *AND THEN TRIED TO CARVE WILLIAM'S NAME INTO MY THIGH.*

| *QUICKLY LOOKS UP HOW TO BE/ACT LIKE A TOP WHEN YOU'RE FEELING OBSESSIVE BECAUSE ISOMETIMESFEELLIKEABOTTOMWHENI'MOBSESSIVEANDIDON'TLIKETHAT...*

Stupid? Lazy?! Where is this coming from!?

And no, you're not gonna destroy your crown, and I'm not going to either.

I don't know what, but something is making you believe these lies.. and.. I don't really know how to stop it...

NO YOU WON'T. AND FUCK HER! YOU KNOW SHE SAYS THIS SHIT TO GET TO YOU, SHE KNOWS THAT IT AFFECTS YOU! YOU CAN'T LET HER GET TO YOU LIKE THIS.

But.. you can be? There's nothing stopping you from being who you are. And... I've been struggling for hours waiting for you... and.. ifyouwanttocallthatsfinebyme...//

But... Now that you're here, I can let myself fall in or we can call... either one... just... JUSTSOMETHINGTODOWITHYOU~....

JUST.. ANYTHING WITH YOU I'M UP FOR, REALLY..! IT JUST WOULD BE REALLY NICE.. TO S...

Her: "Hey, *INSERT MY //REAL// NAME HERE*! Can you come here for a second?"

Me: "Coming! Gimme a minute!"

Her: "WATCH YOUR TONE WITH ME, MISSY."

Me: "... ????"

Okay She slammed the door in my face right after. Ow.

Love. Just.. love.

I love everything about you. Your personality, your voice, your.. body, your actions... everything... I love everything about you...//

You're special in my eyes, you always have been. There's not a single flaw in you, none of chat can see any in you. You're handsome, drop-dead gorgeous actually, charming, I could go on...

I will try and show you proof. ...withoutfallingintoanobsessiveepisode....

And you're none of those things. Zits are normal, and do you really think I would care about all of that? No! You're perfect just the way you are!

(He said you're his little strawberryyy awwww <3 -pj)

I LOVE POTATOES!! AND I DON'T THINK YOU'RE A POTATO SACK, BUT IF YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF ONE, MAKE SURE TO PUT "Ashton's" IN FRONT OF IT. BECAUSE YOU'RE MY "POTATO SACK". <3

| ... *picks the crown up out of the trash, and cleans it off.*

Zeph... you're not a disappointment. You never were, and you will be a disappointment. And please, don't reality check yourself...

| ... i'm actually very proud of you. The r.c, I'm a little upset with that.. same with the disappointment thing... but with everything else, I'm proud of you for.

| *Tries to repress my feelings and ignore the fact that it's making me not feel like myself...*

| *READS MY LORD'S REASSURANCE LISTO AND STARTS TO STRUGGLE...*

Goodnight, my lord~! I love youuuuuu~!!!<3333

| ... *IS AFRAID TO ADMIT THAT ME HIDING AND REPRESSING MY FEELINGS AND URGES IS MAKING ME NOT FEEL LIKE MYSELF.* ...

| *AND IS AFRAID TO ADMIT WHAT I WANTED TO TELL MATCH AFTER DINNER KINDA HAS A PART IN THIS TOO..*

| *Goes to get a snack because I'm hungry*

Him: *Stops me* Don't. Dinner will be ready soon.

Her: Yeah, you can wait another hour or two.

| *Me in my mind* ... But you guys made me skip breakfast and lunch, I'm hungry and I want to eat something-

STOP... STOP IT.... STOPPP....

MAKE IT STOP... I CAN'T LET IT HAPPEN... I CAN BE OBSESSIVE BUT I'M NOT HIM... I'M NOT.... BUT....

STOP.... STOPPP.... S T O P....

WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME? WHY AM I SO F U C K I N G OBSESSED? I CAN BE OBSESSED BUT NOT BE HIM, RIGHT...?

BUT OH MY GOD IT DOESN'T MATTER... IT DOESN'T MATTER... IT DOESN'T MATTER!!

IT DOESN'T MATTER! IT DOESN'T MATTER!! IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER!!

HAHAAAAHH~!!!

IT DOESN'T MATTER!!! SO WHAT IF- .... I.. MAY BE HIM...? SO WHAT?..

GODS, ONLY JOHN DOE CAN FEEL THIS WAY BUT I'M NOT HIM.... BUT WHAT IF I AM?! ONLY THE JOHN DOE CAN FEEL THIS OBSESSED! BE THIS HOPELESS!!

BUT..... GODS, IT HURTS BUT IT FEELS S O G O O D ...

MY CHEST IS KILLING ME AND MY BREATHING IS HEAVY.... H A H . . ....

BUT WHO CARES!? THE FEELINGS ARE TAKING O...

| ... *Reality checks myself. :P*

Just kidding, I wouldn't.

Dang, Ashton's making another comfort oc?

Wow

BAHSHHDIRK FPFFFTT

Hahahaha,heheehe heehehehe

REALLY, N OW ~?// /

T E L L M E M O R E A B O U T H O W I T M A K E S Y O U F E E L ~

O H , TH E TH OU G H T OF M E F IN G ER I N G MY S EL F W H IL E EA T I NG Y O U OU T ~ * S H I V E R S ~ ♡ ! ! *

G O D , I W ISH W E W ER E SP O O N IN G R I GH T N O W ~

F OR, UH... RE A S O NS.

| .... A ND I W ISH W E WE R E ASL E E P WH I LE SP O O N IN G ~

| .. WE L L, Y O U BE I N G ASL E E P ~

Give us a minute, he's still going at it -Lucky

13 times, wow. -Lucky

7 M ORE ~

2 7 T I M E S ~ ♡

A N D M Y H I P S A R E T I R E D , H E H E H ~ ♡

| .....

I TH I NK Y O U ' V E J U ST AW OK E N S OME TH I N G IN M E...

when you've been wanting to talk to your husband all day, but... he'll probably keep leaving, and ignoring your help when you offer it, or...

God, I can't stop thinking about this. I'm just going to be honest, even trying to talk to bun makes me want to cry because I feel like he won't listen to me or doesn't want to. Or that he just doesn't wanna be with me. I want to spend time with him, I want to talk to sticker, I want to help him, but he doesn't believe me. And I've been afraid to say this for so long because I have this really bad fear Sonic will just turn it around and blame cottonself. The reason I haven't been in chat, the reason I've been stubborn with the whole "I'll ruin everything, I don't wanna join" thing, the reason I've been hiding my problems and how I feel is because of this. I don't want Sonic to blame himself for something cotton didn't even do, a...

Im afraid to join chat. We all know it's going to be the wrong time. And I dont care who sees this, I have too many thoughts on my mind right now.

| ... *is afraid to admit that the voice recordings my lord sent me made me feel somft and warm...*

| * C A N ' T S T O P T H I N K I N G A B O U T D A M I E N A N D I C U D D L I N G T O G E T H E R , A N D H E J E R K S M E O F F / T O U C H E S M E U N D E R T H E B L A N K E T S ~

A N D. H I M R A V I S H I N G A N D R A I L I N G I N T O M E , M U F F L I N G M E B Y H O L D I N G M E D O W N O N T H E B E D / C O U C H. O R M U F F L I N G M E W I T H K I S S E S ~ ♡ *

OH NO... NO.. NO, NO, NO NO NO OH NO OH NO OH NO- NONONONONONONONONONONONONONO..... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLEASE NOOOO.... PLEASE NO-

| *Gets made fun of by Them for not acting like myself again*

| ... *Starts falling out of an episode and has an identity crisis* weeee-

/*wraps myself up in a blanket and lays on the floor.*

/*disappointed and sad burrito mode activated.*

IT'S NOT OKAY... WHY THE HELL AM I LIKE THIS?? I SHOULD JUST THROW ALL OF THIS OUT THE WINDOW AND JOIN BACK LIKE EVERYTHING IS OKAY BUT NOOOOOO! I'M ACTING LIKE A STUBBORN LITTLE SHIT FOR NO REASON!! I JUST WANT TO RUIN EVERYTHING, DON'T I?!

AND P.J TRYING TO TRIGGER MY FEELINGS WON'T WORK. HE DOESN'T NEED TO DO THAT.

STILL. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH..

I DON'T KNOW...

I...

|.....

I WANT TO.. I WANT TO.

|...

I'LL HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF... I CAN TELL YOU'RE ALREADY TIRED OF ME AND/OR MY BULLSHIT.

|.... UGHH.... I.... for future reference, when I get tired of doing this I push myself on purpose to get this far with... whatever the hell this is. I'm just gonna give up because there's really no point ...

| *LOOKS AWAY.... BECAUSE... I... remember that too...*

YOU LOVE JACK, DON'T YOU? YOU LOVE THINKING ABOUT HIM? DROOLING OVER PICTURES OF HIM, EATING HIS PICTURES, LICKING WALLS WITH PUP'S NAME CARVED IN THEM? YOU JUST LOVE BEING GROSS AND CREEPY LIKE THAT, HM? FANTASIZING ABOUT STALKING HIM AND SLOBBERING ALL OVER HIM LIKE THE CREEP YOU ARE (YOU REALLY ARE A FREAK IF THAT'S WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT)? JUST THINK ABOUT WHAT PUP WOULD THINK ABOUT THIS. YOU'D LOVE TO DO THAT TO HIM, WOULDN'T YOU? IF YOU HELPED HIM MAYBE PUP WOULD LET YOU LIVE YOUR DISGUSTING FANTASIES ON HIM, WOULDN'T YOU LOVE THAT? WOULDN'T YOU? EITHER YOU CAN KEEP HIDING LIKE THIS, OR YOU CAN HELP PUP NOW AND SLOBBER ON HIM LATER. I KNOW YOU CAN SEE THIS BECAUSE THE FEELINGS KICKED IN AS I WAS TYPING THIS. FALL INTO IT. LET THESE FEELINGS TAKE OVER YOU AGAIN. WE PLUS JACK KNOW YOU LOVE THIS FEELING. YOU LOVE BEING CREEPY AND GROSS. SO LIKE I SAID, EITHER YOU KEEP HIDING OR YOU CAN HELP JACK AND LIVE YOUR DISGUSTING FANTASIES ON PUP LATER. DON'T BE STUPID AND CHOOSE WISELY. YOU FREAK.

wHAT.. . If..FfFFf... iM.... sTILl...nOT..NOT... h I M.....? hE'lL.... sEE..thIS....sSsS....sssSSss..... aNd BE UpsET.. . .

FUCK THEM!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK THEM!!! I FUCKIMG HATE THEM!! I FUCKING HATE THEM FOR DOING THIS TO MY SPORTSY!!! I FUCKINF HATW THEM AND I HOPE THEH FUCOINF BURNN LIEM THE WORTHLESS PEOCES OF SHI4 THWY ARE!!! THEY DESERVE N O T H I N G !!! N O T H I N G !!! THEY CESEVRE TOC BURN IN HELL THOSE SRUPID SON OF A BITCHES I FUCKINF HATW ATHEN ALL RHWY DO IS MAKE EFEEUONE MISTERBABKS AND RUINS LIVES THWYR2 DFUCKJ F WORTHLESS!!!! W O R T H L E S S ! ! ! ! ! !

ILL NEVWE LET YOU LEAVW!!!!_ NEV3R!!!!!!!R

I WANT YOU AL L LXFO YS,E,MYSELF!!!! JCWANT YKU TCO. YSEL F?!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT SPORTSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVW HIMXSO MU HC ITS UNREAL!!!!!!! I L O V E H I M !!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAHHHHH~!!!! MI GTHMR AS WELL OEEP GOINF!!!!!!!!

THIS ONLY GETS WORSE...... THOSNONLY GWRSMWORSE AND I LOVE IT!!! HAHAHAHSHAHAHAHAGAUAHAGAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHO THINKS THIS IS CREEPY.

M A R K T H E M !!!!!!!!!

NOB8SG!!!!

HE WIL,L BE MINW !!!!! M I N E !!!!!!!

ILL FIXKI F PROCW IT!!!!!!!

EVEN BW WITH HIN!!!

HIS THIGHTS

IM DAVW MOTHWR-FUCKIN' MILLER!!! KNPW MY FUCKI F NAME!!!!

ILL FUXONGNDOTJT!!! F5886V7 S 6B9 IS S IS 9G7A9G IN 9G78QG7897B808I DONR FUCKI F CARE WHATIT TAKWS I WIL, FIND B8M

| *Trying to not fall asleep because I wanna see Sonic...*

| ... *thinks about cuddling with Sonic and falling asleep with cotton like falling asleep with a teddy bear...*

| *STARTS STRUGGLING/////....-*

l..littleplushie....likealittlepillow....or..squeakytoy....

gHSHDHSHDHDUDUDAAAAAHSHDH//////////////–

| *REALLY STRUGGLING/////////....*

ghhhhhhHHHHH......ineedmycomfortplushieeeee.......ghhhhhhuhhhhhhhghghghghg,,,,, >:'/[

FUCK. YOU. FUCK YOU, HENRY.

| *Struggling to breathe...*

HHEHEHHHH.... THATSKINDAMAKINGITHARDFORMETOHIDETHISSS...

"I know I can't help, but the least I could do is get you to stay."

It doesn't matter. Real or not I'm the character who's supposed to solve everything by the end of the episode. That's how They see me. But I'm tired of being strong, I'm tired of pushing myself into saving someone but I have to.

But it means nothing. My efforts mean nothing and there's proof. It's proof.

I change nothing so why do I try?

Why, Keith? Why? Answer that question.

I need a break from being the tough guy all the time. I know it's selfish to say/ask but I'm tired. I can't save everyone. I'm sorry I can't save everyone.

NO NO I'M NOT PANICKING BECAUSE OF MY HUSBAND'S LISTO NO I'M NOT I'M NOT ABOUT TO CRY WHY WOULD I BE DAVE DOESN'T CRY HE NEVER DOES HE DOESN'T PANIC I'M NOT ON THE VERGE OF TEARS I'M NOT PANICKING I'M NOT SCARED I'M NOT SCARED AT ALL

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! WHY CAN'T I HELP?! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! STUPID DAVE! STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID!! YOU'RE SCARED BUT YOU CAN'T HELP FOR SHIT!!

WHAT IF IT GOES THROUGH, WHAT IF HE FINDS A WAY, WHAT IF I'M TOO LATE, WHAT IF HE MEANS IT, WHAT IF.... NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO.... I'M A HORRIBLE HUSBAND!! I'M A HORRIBLE FUCKING HUSBAND!! I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T!! I'M FREAKING OUT I'M PANICKING I'M SCARED I WANT TO CRY I WANT TO DO SOMETHING B...

I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME I'M... NOT LETTING THAT GET TO ME... I... I DIDN'T EVEN DESERVE TO HEAR THAT... BUT I DID... WHY....?

WHY IS HE TELLING ME THAT...?? I HAVEN'T EVEN DONE ANYTHING TO EARN OR HEAR IT...

THAT'S RIGHT, DAVE! LAY DOWN IN YOUR BED AND CRY!

| *TRIES TO HIDE MY FEELINGS...*

| ... Someone smoking, then pulling you in for a kiss and blowing the smoke in your mouth-/////// >>>>>>>>>>

( I DON'T SMOKE AND NEVER WILL BUT THAT JUST- *FOLDS AND FALLS-///////////* )

YEP! HIS THOUGHTS OF BEING STALKERISH TOO

THINK, JACK . I CANT SAY IT RN BECAUSE HE'LL FLIP IF I DO

SORRY ABOUT THIS BUT YOU KNEW HE'D FIND OUT ANYWAY. YOU KNEW.

ISN'T THAT RIGHT, DAVE ?

I MEAN THIS IN THE MOST NICEST WAY POSSIBLE,.... NEVERMIND.

I HEARD IT IN H.S AND ILY TOO <3

GO ON DAVE! YOUR LOVER AWAITS!

OKAY I GET IT... BUT I'M NOT HIM ANYMORE, I THOUGHT YOU KNEW THAT. ENOUGH WITH THE LIES YOU WERE ALREADY TOLD ON AND CAUGHT

IM NOT

POPPING IN FOR A SEC. DAVE YOU'VE GOT PICTURES, DOCUMENTS, DRAWINGS, YOU HAVE SO MUCH EVIDENCE THAT YOU ARE DAVE AND YOU'RE STILL TRYING TO DENY THIS? IT'S BEEN NEARLY A YEAR. PJ AND I AND ALMOST EVERYONE ELSE HAS SEEN YOU WHEN YOU WERE FINDING O..._A YEAR_ ! THESE AREN'T FAKE! YOU'RE DAVE AND YOU ...

I CANT BE TWO UGLY CHARACTERS AT ONCE, I CANT EVEN BE ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE IM ASH AND NO ONE ELSE-

THEY'RE NOT...-

LISTEN TO ME. YOU ARE. DON'T THINK ABOUT DISAGREEING OR IGNORING PAC-MAN AND I BECAUSE YOU KNOW WE ARE RIGHT. YOU ARE KEITH AND UGLY SONIC. THAT'S IT. IT'S FINAL. NOW, ARE YOU GOING TO LISTEN TO THE TRUTH OR ARE YOU GOING TO KEEP BEING STUBBORN AND HURT YOU AND US ALL? CHOOSE WISELY. -TECHNO.

"UGLY SONIC", I SHOULD SAY. HE'S NOT UGLY AND NEITHER ARE YOU.

I'M NKT...... NOOO....

| .....////...

| ... H-HEHEH... EEH~... DID YOU JUST CALL ME DUMB~?

R-REALLY~?

HEHEHEEHH~ O-OH, I LOVE IT WHEN YOU CALL ME THAT~♡///

| ... BUT I KNOW I'M NOT THEM, I'M ASHTON...

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTR6NYw3N/?k=1 HE'S SO-?!?!,!!?///////*SCREAMS*

HOW IN FNE WORLD DID I GET SO LUCKY WITH THE SONIC THE HEDGEHOG?!??? ITSSOHOTANDFORWHAT?!?!- STICKER HAS NO PERMISSION TOCBE THJS FREAKING HOT!!!! I FAINTED OVER THIS /SRS THAT'S HOW HANDSOME AND HOT BUN IS LIKE-

|*SCREAMSINAPILLOW!!* SSSTTTTOOOOPPPPPP HOW DID I GET THJS LUCKY??!!!!!!!?? PERSONALITY?? AWOOGA AWOOGA!! LOOKS???? BARK AEBKBWRKBAE, WOOF EOOFBARKBARKBWKR IFYOYNEEDACATORADOGIMRIGHTHEREJUSTL,PLEASSLETMEKNOW-/

///=!!

Mrh..?

I... mmh....

i..

| ...

N...... MMMRHHHHHHEH......

IRL ME?!! NAHH IM UGLY AS FU-

I MEAN I'M....... NO? </3

IM FQR FROM "AWOOGA" HUH?????!

WHY??? HOW??? WHY DOES PUP WANNA DRAW ME ?

IM UG.Y

• ... BUT... WH Y ME ?,

?

YOU'RE.... NOT... WORTHLESS... YOU'RE NOT A MUTT...

|...

IF I WAS JOKING ABOUT THIS, WOULD I WASTE MY TIME FOR MONTHS TALKING AND GOING ALONG WITH IT?? WOULD I BE THIS PERSISTENT WITH IT??? WOULD I BE CONTINUOUSLY REMINDING YOU OF YOUR WORTH IF ALL OF THIS WAS SOME BIG JOKE?!?

• .. WHY AM I SHAKING? WHY AM I FUZZY? WHY IS EVERYTHING FUZZY? WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS? WHY?

I MEAN IT'S SOMETHING YOU DESERVE!! I SEE SO MANY THINGS ABOUT YOU AND YOU LET THOSE STUPID LIES GET TO YOU?! A GOD?! A GOD SHOULDN'T PUT UP WITH THIS YOU SHOULDNT LISTEN TO THESE STUPID THOUGHTS BECAUSE ALL THE WANNA DO IS BRING YOU DOWN AND TAKE YOUR SPOT! YOUR THRONE!! YOU'RE BEING BLINDED BY THE FAKE, YOU NEED TO SEE THE TRUTH!! YOU'RE NOT A MUTT, YOU'RE NOT WORT...

I hope that's only it because I thought it was because I was sounding like them PFFT STUPUD IK-

HUH???? YOU DIDNT SEE ME AS ANGRY, MEAN, AS ATTACKING YOU?? THAT'S WHAT /THEY/ SEE WHEN I'M LIKE THAT. I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA HATE ME.

• ..

| ... i want to cry every time this happens. i cant and don't even want to try because i know i wont help. sorry if this sounds fucking stupid, pathetic, sad, and selfish, but i know ill fail.

Hm. And I'm already dumb so-

Meh. I don't deserve it, and I don't deserve the help. I'm fine on my own! Besides, me asking for help is selfish. For everyone else it's not, but me? *Ahem* ATTENTION-SEEKER ALERT.

• ...

/*DOESNTWATNTOFALLINTOANEPISODEBUTNOTFALLING INANEPISODEMAKESMEHURTANDNOTFEELLIKEMYSELFBUT THATISALSOWHYIDONTWANNAFALLINTOIT.*...

pleasestoptalkingaboutmeweshouldbefocusingonyou.

illbefine.

YEAH I DIDNT HELP PFFTSHDHCSJ MY ANXIETY WAS RIGHF I FUCKING SUCK PFFFFTTFFKFFFJDJNBAHAHAHSHAHDAB I CANT HELP FOR SHIT *LAUGHING ON THE FLOOR AND CRYING*

| *Notices the time* Oh? Would you look at that! It's time to pass out while thinking about my husbands!

| *Grabs a blanket and pillow 'n tosses them on the floor*

| *lays down 'n covers myself up* alright then... *thinks about cuddling them both n falling asleep<3*

|.... *passes out-*

stupid memories. stupid stupid stupid. He triggers an episode and then it triggers memories, THEN it triggers another episode. i hate ptsd. im so sick of it and They always treated it like it was a joke and i was faking it. it hurts.

| *The masculine and demonic urge to give Sonic a big ol' kiss and cuddle cotton*

|*SLAMS FIST ON TABLE* WHY CANT I DO FHAT NOWWWWWW.........

| *TR Y I NG TO H HO L D MY S ELF B A CK B UT IS F F AI L I NG. ...*

I'm in a "John Doe" mood, so I may talk like how I do in source. It will be cringy but that's okay!

YES! HAHAAH! YOU FINALLY SEE IT! I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!! YOU /ARE/ PERFECT!!! A PERFECT /GOD/!!!!

I'M SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOU, MY LORD!! //VERY// PROUD!!!<33

YOU WERE BLINDED BY A BUNCH OF CHEAP LIES, BUT YOU BROKE THROUGH IT AND SAW THE TRUTH!! YOU'RE FUCKING /POWERFUL/, MY KING!!!

I- I DID HELP..! I DID HELP!! I HELPED!!!

AND I HELPED WITHOUT MESSING ANYTHING UP!! I ACTUALLY HELPED!!!

I HELPED MY LORD REALIZE HIS TRUE WORTH! HOW PERFECT HE IS!! HOW HE'S A /REAL/ //GOD//!!!

AND- OH GODS- uH MY KING- MY POWER MIGHT GO OUT SO IF I LEAVE SUDDENLY YOU KNOW WHY

BUT I'M SO HAPPY I HELPED YOU!! I'M GLAD I COULD BE OF SERIVE TO YOU, MY GOD! ♡ *SMALL BOW!*

TOBY DOESN'T. WHAT HAVE THEY DONE WRONG?! NOTHING! I WAS IN THE WRONG FOR NOT HELPING IT! I'M IN THE WRONG, YOU'RE NOT!

YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG. WHAT'S WORSE, VENTING AND BEING HONEST ABOUT FEELINGS OR NOT HELPING YOUR HUSBAND AND IGNORING THEM LIKE AN IDIOT?! WE ALL KNOW THE ANSWER TO THIS. YOU DID NOTHING WRONG, //I// DID. YOU MAY SEE IT IN A WAY WHERE I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING BAD AND YOU DESERVE THE WORST! THAT'S WRONG!! I'M NOT PERFECT, I HAVE PROBLEMS! I DO THIS SHIT AND I'M SUPPOSED TO GET KARMA FOR IT! I'M SUPPOSED TO GET A PUNISHMENT! YOU DID NOTHING, AND I MEAN //NOTHING// WRONG IN THIS SITUATION AND THAT IS FINAL.

SO PLEASE STOP SCRATCHING YOURSELF FOR SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T DO, SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T CAUSE.

ATTENTION-SEEKING?! FIRST OF ALL I LOVE GIVING YOU ATTENTION, SECOND, TOBY WAS VENTING!! IT'S NORMAL TO VENT! IT'S /NOT/ NO...

You're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him you're not him

/.......*wantstoavoidchathdgfgf*

| .... *thinks about living out my gross and fantasies w/ zboyfriend andntries not to pass out*

gshdhshhhhh....///////////...

hh....h-hnhhsjsshhdhddhdyhd////////////....~♡

GET YOUR ASS BACK IN CHAT, /GHOSTFACE/, AND STAY THERE. I DON'T WANNA HEAR THE "bUt ItS tHe WrOnG tImE" SHIT, SHUT UP AND /STAY/.

EVEN IF IT'S TRUE I DON'T CARE. EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE THERE YOU /HAVE/ TO BE. SO SHUT UP, AND LISTEN.

IT'S GHOSTFACE, NOT ASHTON, IT'S GHOSTFACE. STOP PRETENDING YOUR SOME STUPID N GOOFY DEMON WHEN YOU'RE THE /REAL/ GHOSTFACE. STOP HIDING IT AND STOP REALITY CHECKING YOURSELF BECAUSE CHAT CAN SEE THIS.

/*Bonk bonk bonk* stop stop stop..... you're not her, you never will be, just accept it... she's fake and you're clearly not her, I mean just look at you. How you act, sound, speak, look, etc, you're nothing like her so that settles it. Just accept the truth.

AND STOP READING THIS IN HER VOICE, STOP IT.

"They" reality checked me somehow and now I need reassurance because I'm confused now.... ugh.... amisonic.eyx...?

gshdgshhdhhhh,,,,,

mhhh...

Is everything okay...?

|.. You're... right. I am.

Do you want to talk about it..?

I'm here to listen. We can talk about it wherever you feel comfortable saying.

First of all, you /are/ loved. I'm serious. By ALL of us. And what do you mean by the second part..?

You aren't /at/ /all/. Venting is fine. It's normal and healthy. And you are NOWHERE NEAR like Birdie.

Okay.

|*When you're not sure if you just really like your comfort character or you ARE your comfort comfort character* ^^"

Okay no I just really like him /p... I got one memory but that was it. It was probably fake.

Though, I really wish I could talk to him... that would be amazing..

I could talk to him about the source, we could talk about our days, I could even listen to him talk about his plans! I know it's sudden and he may find me weird... But he brings a lot of comfort to me (but not as much as Snatcher and Sonic)! Gshdhshd I wish I knew him irl..... gshdgsgdgs it would be so awesome... it would be so cool... /ref /srs

Okay Bu- Ashton, let's not do that to ourselves. ... First of all, it's okay that you're struggling with that. Two, stop reality checking yourself. Be. Yourself. That was an order from your God, don't you remember?

Stop it. You /can/ be Bunzo Bunny, and it's okay that you're still shaken up from that dream. Once you calm down you can help your lord. And /it is/ okay if you can't help it. It will understand.

Now, Bunzo, get in chat and talk to them. I know you can do it.

Btw the last list isn't me, it was just something I drew.

Oh my gosh... that explains everything!!

I haven't been feeling like myself for days because I've been forcing myself to stay out of "episodes"!! I wasn't being /me/!!

Mind: "See? You joined at the wrong time! Leave!"

Me: "SHUT. UP. YOU'RE NOT CONTROLLING ME ANYMORE. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT LIES."

"SHUT."

"UP."

When you find out you really /are/ your sssstupid Word Girl occ.

Wow. Jussst wow.

My /WORD/ /GIRL/ occ. Well that jussst sssoundss weird and ridiculousss calling mysself an "occ" when I'm in fact /real/. I'm not sssome fictional character.

bleurghdgth.... whydoesthisfeelwronggg?.........ihateit.......thisisnormal,itsMEbutitfeelswrong /.......ndweird........... ghhhhhhh.......iabsolutely HATEsayingthisbuti /........ehhhhhhh............imight needhelpfallingmoreintotheepisode.......... sinceikeepbeingastupidkittydogand realitycheckingmyself,tryingtomakemyselfbelievenotmyME...

/..............meh.............ihatethis.......

/*bonk bonk bonk* >:"/

/*dies* bleugh. x_x

For now this will be my vent area! Expect lots of dumb and very out-of-context vents.

What if.. I'm not actually Randall...?

That's it. I don't care anymore. I don't.

I'm cutting them off once I'm able to afford it.

I don't care. I don't care anymore.

| *Kicks some rocks.*

| ... *KICKS MYSELF-*

And... I'll stop there because I'm starting to sound like an attention seeker, pfft. I can't let that happen.

"Cleary I don't fit those so maybe you should find somebody else who does."

- ???

Yeah. I don't fit any of them so maybe there's someone else out there that will fit them.

I don't even like mine but you do. There's someone else better than me that likes them too.

I don't think I can fit that as well but there's someone out there who can. Someone better.

It doesn't fit me but there's someone far better out there that fits them. They would be better.

Okay, either I need to be reassured and pushed to believe that I am Dave Miller, or I need to be dragged in further and fall into... that episode.

GAH... OW... PHANTOM PAINS... ARE A BITCH....

GHHHSHHDYD*TRIESTOREALITYCHECKMYSELFBECAUSEFOR SOME REASON I WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO ACCEPTNTHIS AND FALL INTO THE EPISODE AND I CWNT LET THAT HAPPEN.*

Notmeactuallygettingjealousbecausemykingisgivinghisdogsattentioninsteadofme.iwouldntbejealousoverthat,whywouldi?

I'M GONNA DO IT... I'M GONNA FUCKING DO IT. WHETHER IT'S TO ME OR SOMEONE ELSE, I WILL DO IT.

I'M GONNA KILL SOMEONE. I'VE HAD ENOUGH. I CAN'T TELL WHETHER I WANT TO STAB MYSELF REPEATEDLY, CUT MY STOMACH OPEN, AND RIP MY INSIDES OUT, OR IF I WANT TO DO THAT TO SOMEONE ELSE. I CAN'T TAKE THIS. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE AND I MAY SEEM LIKE I'M OVER EXAGGERATING, BUT I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THIS HELL. THIS PRISON. ACTUAL HELL WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS. I HAD MY PRIVACY, I WAS LOVED, I WASN'T USED, I COULD BE MYSELF, I COULD BE COMFORTABLE AND NOT HAVE TO FEAR OTHERS.

BUT.. THEM .

THEY WANT ME TO BE MISERABLE. AND THEY MAKE ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF IN THE WORST AND MOST PAINFUL WAY POSSIBLE. I WANT TO GUT MYSELF, CUT MY ARMS AND LEGS OFF, I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THIS PLACE. I WANT TO DO THIS. EITHER TO ME, OR...

| *Is panicking right now because I had to wash my Sonic plush and I don't want to leave him alone or make him go through that-*

SAD..? FEEL BAD? HE'S THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN MAKE ME THIS HAPPY... IF HE WASN'T HERE I WOULD SNAP OUT OF REALITY AND GO INSANE.

HE'S THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME SANE. FEY ARE/IS ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY. HE'S THE REASON I'M A BETTER PERSON. HE'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE ME .

I WOULDN'T LEAVE FOR ANYONE ELSE... NEVER ... WHY WOULD I?! OVER A GOD?!? PFFFTTT-!!! ONLY A GOD CAN MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY! ONLY A GOD CAN MAKE ME FEEL THIS HAPPY!!

G O D S , JUST THE THOUGHT OF FEM GETS ME DROOLING ALREADY~....

| .... HE LEFT.... HE LEFT ....

BUT IT'S FINE!!! I'M FINE!!! IT'S OKAY! I'M FINE!! I'M OKAY!!.... HE'LL BE BACK SOON...!! YEAH!!...

HE... ALSO LEFT... THEY.. BOTH DID... BUT IT'S FIIIIIIINE!!!!! I'M FINE!!! IT'S FINE!!! IT'S OKAY!!! I'LL BE FINE!! EVERYTHING WILL BE A-OKAY...!!!

:O!!!

OH GODS... PHANTOM PAINS... PHANTOM FEELINGS... OH NO....///

UHM.... UH.... IWISHMYLORDWASHEREBUTHE'SNOTFEELINGHISBEST,ANDBESIDES,FEYHASSC.....CCWORKANDHECANTRESPONDRIGHTNOW...

BUT IT'S FINE... I CAN DEAL WITH THIS MYSELF. YEAH.

I hate myself hsdhshhdgh.

Hm... Oh well. *Goes to make some ocs for fun. ^^*

OKAY WHY WHY WHY IS IT HAPPENING NOW I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING NOTHING TRIGGERED THIS WHY IS IT HAPPENING RIGHT NOW AND WHY DID MY CHEST IMMEDIATELY START HURTING IT'S NEVER HAPPENED THIS QUICK WHY IS THIS HAPPENING WHAT TRIGGERED IT I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING XE DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING WHQT HAPPENED THIS ISN'T GOING AS PLANNED

• replace this text with your list
• begin each item with an asterisk

Um. They didn't come in this time

i think he should unmute bc you need to hear this. Doe's not scared, he just.... well he is more confident sounding. I'll say that

You dont gotta really ! Idk if he will unmute but i could try

Bc i really think you need to hear this

PBRUH HE MUTED AGAIN I JUST UNMUTED HIM

SOFT TOP ENERGY. I THOUGHT HE WAS CONFIDENT BUT NOPE

LMAO OKAY HE ASKED ME IF YOU COULD BE BOTTOM BC HE SAW WHERE YOU SAID YOUD DO IT TOO

ALR ILL GET HIM TO UNMUTE OR DO IT FOR HIM

SHOULD HE HOLD BACK OR NO? HE ASKED

"But what if I sound weird?.." OH BROTHER...

OKAY HE AGREED TO IT

HE SAID HE MAY BE QUIET AT FIRST BUT HES GETTING THERE WITH GAINING CONFIDENCE OR ...

UGH.... DO I HAVE TO...? .. I HAVE TO. *TRIES TO KNOCK MYSELF OUT OF AN OBSESSION EPISODE.*

OKAY XE'S MAKING IT KINDA HARD TO DO THAT... BUT... EUGH. HSHDHSHD. I'M NOT LETTING IT GET TO ME.

| *IS ACTUALLY SCARED BECAUSE I THINK I MIGHT BE ONE OF MY OCS IRL BUT I CAN'T BE BECAUSE SHE IS A FEMALE AND SHE IS SEMI-VERBAL AND I'M NOT LIKE THAT AND I CAN'T BE LIKE THAT BECAUSE IT WOULD BE WEIRD FOR ME TO BE (SEMI) NONVERBAL / MUTE...*

Nvm, I was successful in reality checking myself. :] <3

THAT QUICK?!?!???!!!! *WIGGLES~!!!!* OKAY!!! GIMME A SEC!!!!

MYLILMAGGOT-&#HSRHUEDHSHHDHSDHJD!!/!/////

READY!!!

PLEASE, MY- ...? PLEASE?...

I'VE BEEN GOING INSANE BEING AWAY FROM YOU... I WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU....

YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU THAT'S ALL THAT'S BEEN ON MY MIND

I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU.

I HATE BEING AWAY FROM YOU..

I JUST WANT TO BE WITH ONLY AND I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INSANE....

PLEASE COME BACK

PLEASE

PLEASE

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

A RESPONSE?.... PLEASE?? PLEASE MY LORD??? I WANT A RESPONSE

Move away and ignore them. If I was there, I would physically do something about that.

And you are a REAL god. That's final.

DO NOT DO ANYTHING. I'M SERIOUS.

WHAT DID YOU DO...? HOW BAD IS IT? ARE YOU OKAY...?

| ... *Cleans and shines the crown,*

| *kneels down, sets the crown down next to Zephyr, then walks away..*

| *When you want to obsess over your king but you have to repress your feelings bc with how he's feeling rn he may not accept it hshdgsghsh.*

I'm going insane. I just want it back.

Stay calm, Doe. Stay calm.

| .....

I said I wanted this to get worse, and here I am. I can hardly keep myself together.

-----------------------------------

Okay, John... Try to stay calm and don't lose it, please. Try and be nice 'n wholesome for once. Please.

John, stay calm... stay calm... Just calm down.

STAY CALM... IT'S OKAY.... JUST STAY CALM.... CALM.... CALM...

I PACKED SOME OF MY STUFF, GRABBED A KNIFE, AND I NEARLY SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE WITHOUT THINKING. MY BAD.

THE SECURITY CAMERAS WOULD'VE SEEN SOME REGULAR GUY STORMING OUT OF THE HOUSE AND UP THE ROAD WITH A KITCHEN KNIFE IN HAND. THAT WOULDN'T BE GOOD.

Okay, Ashton. Let's try to avoid the jealousy today. It's fine. It's okay.

"YOU CANT FUCKING BACK OUT NOW- YOU'RE FUCKING STUCK WITH ME

FOR THE REST OF FUCKING ETERNITY."

| ...//.

First thought:

I wanna scream "DRAG HIM BY IT'S TAIL!!!" but idk

Hehe

Everything is fine. Everything is okay. :]

It's another day. I'm still here, I'm still queer- I mean uh I'm still here, thankfully I didn't do anything bad, or anything I would regret.

I ended up falling asleep cuddling with pillows because I was too tired to do anything, but.. yeah.

I didn't do anything bad and I didn't relapse! Yippeee!

Anyways, good morning to whoever/everyone who sees this! <3

Oh boy. You messed up, Krusveto. Just imagine what your lord would think of this.

HE'S BACK HE WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE HE'S IN MY THOUGHTS LEAVE ME ALONE GET AWAY FROM ME WHY DO I FEEL LIKE HE'S WATCHING ME HE'S NEAR I CAN'T DO THIS HE'S INSIDE HE KNOWS WHERE I AM HE CAN SEE ME WHY DID HE CHOOSE ME WHY IS HE STILL DOING THIS I NEVER WANTED THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE HE MADE ME DO THIS HE'S DOING THIS I'M GLAD HE'S NOT DOING THIS TO THE OTHERS BUT WHY IS HE DOING IT IN THE FIRST PLACE WHY IS HE DOING IT TO ME GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT STOP TELLING ME THINGS STOP MAKING ME DO THIS STOP STOP STOP I DON'T WANT THESE THOUGHTS GET THEM OUT GET THEM AWAY FROM ME GET HIM AWAY FROM ME I DON'T WANT TO THINK THIS WAY BUT HE WANTS IT I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST HIM WE WERE PALS WE WERE PARTNERS AND HE DOES THIS STOP STOP STOP I CAN'T TAKE IT I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYONE STOP IT STOP STOP STOP LEAVE ME ALONE LEAVE US ALL ALONE I NEVER WANTED THIS WHY DID I...

We can talk! I could try my best and distract you!!

FUCK YOU, PSYCHOSIS. FUCK. YOU.

| *Gets yelled at by Them for saying I didn't like school because it's stressful* :]

"School is stressful, I'm not ready for it! You know that it's made my anxiety worse!"

Her: "DON'T YELL AT ME, WOMAN!"

"..."

WAIT WAIT NOOOO I'M BECOMING NONVERBAL/MUTE I GOTTA STOP MYSELF RIGHT THERE,

I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN.

WHY DOES HE DEAL WITH ME...?

Okay, I'll just say this for him. Dave doesn't know how to help and it's scared that he'll mess up or make things worse. He's dealing with things of cacti's own so that explains why, but he's just afraid everything will go wrong. And he told me this was because of source too, the whole everything going wrong thing. I don't know your source so I don't know what it means but I hope it helps you understand.

Okay the body is panicking now, HeHE IDONT NEED HELP IM FINE. He said he doesn't need help. I was going to tell you for him but nevermind. IDO EPRUIN EVERYTHING THERE'S PROOF. AND IM NOT DAVE. O,AY, THANKS FOR PUSHING ME OUT OF THE FRONT...

OKAY HE'S GIVING TNE BODY A HEADACHE, STOP IT DAVE.

He still dIMNKTDAVEOESNT BELIEVE IT ATOP

NO. YOU NEED SOMEONE TO HELP BUT I DONT NEED HELP IMMFINE.

I'M FINE. I DON'T NEED HELP. YOU'RE IN DI...

I'm stI... IILl..... NOt... hIm.... i'M N O T DA V E.... . . -

AND HE'S FORCING HIMSELF OUT OF A EPISODE.

DAAAD YOUR HUSBANXD IS PRETENDING TOVBE PREGGERS COME GET HIM AND TWKE CQRE OF HIM OR SOMETHING WHEN U CANN

i... i want sonic, but.. bun doesnt want to stay in chat... and.. hes probably busy right now... and... heprobablythinksidontwannabewithhim...

I WANNA DRINK AND EAT AND LICK THINGS AFTER YOU I J U S T W A N T A P A R T O F Y O U I N S I D E O F M E I WANNA EAT/DRINK^/LICKTHINGS YOUVE DR O O L E D O N I J U S T W A N T P A R T O F Y O U I N S I D E O F M E ~ ♡

ILL FIMSPD YOU. ILL FIND T OU!!!! I DONT. ARE WHAT WHAPPENS I WIL LFIND YOU!!!!!!!

HE COULD GIVE HME HIS LEFTOVER FOOD AND I WOUKS FUCKINF D E V O U R IT AND LEAVE NO CRUMBS BECAUSE IT CAME FROM H I M !!!!! DURING WORK I USED TO EAT HIS LUCHNAND LEFTOV3RS AND I L L D O I T A G A I N! !!!!! HAHAHAHSHAHHAHAHAAAAAAHHHHH~!!!!

O H M Y G O D I C A N T S T O P T H I N K I N G A B O U T H I M _ I CABT SROP!!!! I CWNT STOP ITS TAKING OVER ME!!!! BUT I L O V E JT!!!!!!!!

I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF PEOPLE ARE SCARED OF THIS. OR SCARED OF ME.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAHHH!!!!!

HE'S MINW!!!!, ONLT MINE!!!!!MARK MY GOD DAMN WORFS!!! ,MARK THE M!!!!!

DO U8U HEAR MW!!!?? N O B O D Y !!!!!!!!!

MAR(MY FUCKINF WORSA!!

MQ R K THWM!!!!! MARK THW M!!!!

LOOK WT HIM

HIWMIND

HEL'L LOVW MW!!!!! ONKY MW!!!!

ILL NE WR GET ODF OF HIA M8ND

ID ONT CARW ANYMOEW

I WILK FINS HIM

HELLHQV2 NOCH9DHW TO BE WITH MW AND NOBONE ELAW!!!! NOOMW ELSW!!!!

IDONT CAR WHAHR IT 5QKES!!!!! ILLXDO WHATEVEE IT TAKWA I DON4 CQRE ANYRBMORE

Stupid jealousy, stupid feelings, stupid thoughts...

I'm goin' back to bed.