Jeez, I really am disgusting...

Drooling over Cruffle, having obsessive thoughts of him, making.. everything I think/talk about of heav... nothing but dei... thinking of kissing it for hours, taking chaos breath away... making gun mine... all mine... only mine.. only mine.. only mine... mine.. mine.. mine.. mine.. mine, mine, mine, mine, MINE!! IT'S SO.. DISGUSTING, PERVY, UNNERVING HOW MUCH I WANT IT TO MYSELF, EVERYTHING I WANT TO DO WITH DEI, EVERYTHING I WANT TO DO /TO/ HIM!! TO LIVE OUT MY DISGUSTING FANTASIES WITH HIM, TO HOLD HIM DOWN AND TO JUST KISS HIM EVERYWHERE, TO KISS GUN'S ADORABLE (AND UNBELIEVABLY KISSABLE) FACE~ OH, THAT WOULD BE AMAZING~! KISSING ALL OVER HIS BODY WHILE PRAISING EACH AND EVERY THING ABOUT IT, TO SPOIL HIM WITH WORDS OF PRAISE/WORSHIP AND INSPIRATION, TO COVER HEAV UP WITH LOVE AND AFFECTION~!!

WHERE.. DID THIS FEELING COME FROM? I THOUGH I WAS A HARDCORE, HOPELESS BOTTOM 24/7... MAYBE... I DO HAVE MY MOMENTS WHERE I WANT TO BE DISGUSTING AND PERVERTED~♡

I'VE BEEN HOLDING ALL OF THIS BACK FOR SO LONG, A CREEP LIKE ME CAN'T HIDE THESE THOUGHTS/FEELINGS AND FANTASIES FOR THIS LONG! I WANNA PRAISE AND LOVE HIM AND SO MANY OTHER WAYS I HAVEN'T TRIED, I WANNA LEAVE IT BREATHLESS, CO- ..... I... HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY, BUT WHAT IF IT /IS/ TOO GROSS..?

|... I DON'T CARE.

I WANT TO LEAVE HIM COVERED IN DROOL AND BLOOD, COVERED IN MY MESSY HANDWRITING, MY NAME ALL OVER ITSELF~! "KEITH", CARVED DEEP INTO DEI'S SKIN, DEEP ENOUGH TO LEAVE SCARS~!! OH, HE WOULD LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME, MORE THAN HE ALREADY IS~! HE'LL LOOK SO PERFECT~!!

HAVING MY NAME CARVED INTO HIM, MUFFLING HIM BY KISSING CHAOS DEEPLY WITH TONGUE, SHOVING THE KNIFE DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO GUN' SKIN~

I COULD LEAVE HIM A MESS.. HIS BREATH TAKEN AWAY BY EVERYTHING I'VE DONE... THE NAME OF HIS LOYAL SERVANT SCARRED INTO HEAV ALL OVER IT'S BODY...

I'D BE SO HAPPY, SEEING THE PROGRESS, EVERYTHING I'VE DONE TO PROVE MY LOVE~

MAYBE THEN, JUST MAYBE THEN...

H E ' L L F I N A L L Y S E E E V E R Y T H I N G I S E E I N H I M ~ ♡