|...youregonnamakemecry... (/pos.)

im just tired of it. He always told me to stop feeling and thinking like this, She told me to stop acting. "It's not that bad, you'll be fine.".

His stupid guilt-tripping and me having to give in just so i dont get yelled at. It triggers stupid flashbacks and then having SOURCE MEMORIES ON TOP OF THIS? i feel like shit..

and yeah, telling me to stop isn't gonna cure anything. but He still goes "Just stop thinking like that. I know you can stop.".

Pfft- hehe..

HE DOES, REALLY.

ALWAYS BE HAPPY, DON'T FEEL ANYTHING ELSE OTHER THAN THAT, FOLLOW HIS RULES, DON'T TELL ANYONE ANYTHING THAT'S HAPPENING, AND AGREE WITH EVERYTHING HE SAYS. THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS /ME/ TO DO. THIS DOESN'T GO WITH ANYONE ELSE IN THE HOUSE.

SEND HIM TO THE BACKROOMS!!!

/..... *throws my mems im dealing with rn out the window <3*

UH NO THANKS.....^^""

SORRY...

• ..S...STILL....NO THANKS, I'M GOOD... I'LL BE FINE...

IT'S... OF SOMEONE ELSE.... BUT... WHY...? THEY'RE NOT IMPORTANT AND I'LL BE FINE...

NO NO PLEEAS2 DONTNSO THAT PLEASE...

PLEAE DONT DO THA.T...

IT'S MEMORIES OF PICO, THE WHOLE SCHOOL SHOOTING, BEING BLAMED FOR IT ALL, HE REMINDED ME OF IT AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO NOT CRY OVER IT FOR THE PAST HOUR AND I LIED ABOUT BEING FINE.

| .... I WANTED TO, BUT I ALSO DIDN'T WANT TO LISTEN. AND HE TELLS ME ABOUT HOW I AM WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS FAMILY AND THAT I'M THE REASON EVERYONE LEFT AND.. AND THAT I LOST MY FRIENDS. HE MADE ME THE BAD GUY. THIS HAPPENED BEFORE HE LEFT BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO SAY ANYTHING AND RUIN EVERYONE'S MOOD/DAY.

• .. AND IT'S NOT PICO, IT'S JUST MEMORIES FROM HIM.

I SHOULD... I SHOULD BELIEVE YOU OVER HIM...

-*did not just go out into the rain and scream*

You are!! I'm.... hhhihateadmittingthisbutyourehelpingmeacceptthemmemoriesandunderstandthatitwasinthepastnitsokaynow...

Okay I'm being forced to say it- You're helping me calm down and no one's ever really done that before. I always had to calm myself down when I was in one of these episodes and you're the first to actually help me.

Thank you. It really means a lot.////

gHWH ITS- YR GONNA MAKW BE TEAR UPNOW SFOPDK.........

IM JUST BEING HONEST

AND....YOUREKINDAHELPINGMEACCEPTTHATIREALLYAMPICOBUTIMSTILLNOTGIVINGIN..

SHDNTB///////////,,,,

^ ^

>///_///>

| .... I....

• ...

| .....

|.... WANT.... WHO...? ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT PICO?

I'M NOT PICO.

YEAH I HAVE MEMS BUT THEY ARENT REAL???

| .... NO, NO. I'M NOT SAYING THAT.

AND I'M /YOUR/ DUMBASS.

YEAHBUT NOT THESE

I PANICKED OVER SOMETHING I WASNT APART OF, SOMETHING FAKE. THESE MEMS ARE FAKE THEY'RE NOT MJNE

NO THEY'RE NOT! THEY'RE REAL. YOU'RE REAL. YOUR MEMORIES ARE REAL!

|...

YOU /KNOW/ YOUR MEMORIES ARE REAL.

| ..

THEY'RE REAL. I'M REAL. MY MEMORIES ARE REAL, YOUR MEMORIES ARE REAL. THESE ARE REAL MEMORIES, EVEN IF I DOUBT IT OR NOT. I'M PICO. I /AM/ PICO.

| ....///.

HM. IDONTWANTTOTHINKITSTRUE,BUTWHATEVER.IKOWITSNOTBUT... MH.

|....... I HAVE TO, BECAUSE IT HURTS WHEN I DON'T..

WHAT IS IT DOING HERE.

IS THEM TYPING THAT OUT, OUT OF YOUR CONTROL?

PETAL IS GONE NOW. THEY'RE GONE. OUT OF YOUR LIFE. DON'T LET THEM CONTROL YOU LIKE THIS. THEY DID THIS TO YOU ON PURPOSE. TO MAKE YOU REMEBER AND FEEL BAD.

HEY, HEY. IN THROUGH THE NOSE, OUT OF THE MOUTH. IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY.

TWO THINGS. WE'LL START WITH ONE AND PROGRESS. PETAL IS AWAY FROM YOU. THEY CAN'T DO /ANYTHING/ TO YOU ANYMORE. THEY TRIED TO MANIPULATE AND DO BAD THINGS TO YOU, YOU SHOULDN'T FALL FOR THAT.

He can be, but I love that about them.

Name's Pico. Nice to meet you, Square. Let's try to talk and get to know each other. It's a good start.

-Oh, welcome back!

They can't do anything to you anymore. I'm here for you, and I'll make sure they don't do anything else to you.

Okay, I'll be here!

They're not worth your time, Bf. So don't waste your energy on someone who doesn't deserve it. I learned that the hard way.

( Trauma is trauma. Just because his isn't as bad or strong as others, doesn't make him less valid.)