IT'S NOT OKAY... WHY THE HELL AM I LIKE THIS?? I SHOULD JUST THROW ALL OF THIS OUT THE WINDOW AND JOIN BACK LIKE EVERYTHING IS OKAY BUT NOOOOOO! I'M ACTING LIKE A STUBBORN LITTLE SHIT FOR NO REASON!! I JUST WANT TO RUIN EVERYTHING, DON'T I?!

AND P.J TRYING TO TRIGGER MY FEELINGS WON'T WORK. HE DOESN'T NEED TO DO THAT.

STILL. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH..

I DON'T KNOW...

I...

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I WANT TO.. I WANT TO.

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I'LL HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF... I CAN TELL YOU'RE ALREADY TIRED OF ME AND/OR MY BULLSHIT.

|.... UGHH.... I.... for future reference, when I get tired of doing this I push myself on purpose to get this far with... whatever the hell this is. I'm just gonna give up because there's really no point in continuing. I already avoided chat for almost the entire day again, and I wasted most of your time and energy (Or at least I'm pretty sure it was me). So I give up.