SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT NO NO. NO NO. O NNO NO *SMACKS MYSELF IN THE FACE**PUNCHES MYSELF OFER AND OVER* *SLAMS MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL*

GOD DAMN IT I HATE MYSELF! THE WAY I FEEL, THINK, ACT I HATE IT ALL!! I NEEDNTO BE ONE THING BUT IM STUCK BEING THE OTHER I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!! GOD DAMN IT SKY, CHANGE!! CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!! WHY WONT YOU CHANGE?! WHY WON'T YOU GO SOMEWHERE ELSE?! WHY?!!

GOD DAMN IT!!

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IT'S NOT AND PLEASE DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME. I GET ALL MY THOUGHTS OFF ON MY LISTO AND THEY'RE NOT REALLY IMPORTANT YOU CAN IGNORE THEM.

BESIDES, I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I /NEED/ TO.

• .. I DO BUT WHAT'S HAPPENING IS STUPID AND EMBARRASSING, AND IT MIGHT DISAPPOINT/UPSET YOU. I TRUST YOU WITH EVERYTHING BUT IF IT'S SOMETHING I FEEL LIKE WILL HURT/UPSET/DISAPPOINT/ETC YOU, THEN I DO THIS.

I.. WON'T ANSWER THAT. IT'S SELFISH FOR ME TO DO THAT. IF I'M HURTING I DEAL WITH IT MYSELF.

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I ONLY AVOID YOU/CHAT BECAUSE OF MYSELF. IT'S NEVER YOU. THAT'S ALL I WANT TO SAY.

I KNOW I CAN'T! I'M FUCKING PATHETIC ALL ON MY OWN!!

I WAS.... NEVERMIND, THIS IS T... THIS...

I'M SORRY, I'M JUST SORRY. THIS... IS THE LAST TIME IM CHECKING CHAT FOR RIGHT NOW.