NO NO I'M NOT PANICKING BECAUSE OF MY HUSBAND'S LISTO NO I'M NOT I'M NOT ABOUT TO CRY WHY WOULD I BE DAVE DOESN'T CRY HE NEVER DOES HE DOESN'T PANIC I'M NOT ON THE VERGE OF TEARS I'M NOT PANICKING I'M NOT SCARED I'M NOT SCARED AT ALL

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! WHY CAN'T I HELP?! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! STUPID DAVE! STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID!! YOU'RE SCARED BUT YOU CAN'T HELP FOR SHIT!!

WHAT IF IT GOES THROUGH, WHAT IF HE FINDS A WAY, WHAT IF I'M TOO LATE, WHAT IF HE MEANS IT, WHAT IF.... NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO.... I'M A HORRIBLE HUSBAND!! I'M A HORRIBLE FUCKING HUSBAND!! I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T DO THIS I CAN'T!! I'M FREAKING OUT I'M PANICKING I'M SCARED I WANT TO CRY I WANT TO DO SOMETHING BUT I CAN'T!! I'M USELESS!! USELESS!!! OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD OH NO OH NO OH NO

NO NO NO NO NO..... NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO....