I'M GONNA DO IT... I'M GONNA FUCKING DO IT. WHETHER IT'S TO ME OR SOMEONE ELSE, I WILL DO IT.

I'M GONNA KILL SOMEONE. I'VE HAD ENOUGH. I CAN'T TELL WHETHER I WANT TO STAB MYSELF REPEATEDLY, CUT MY STOMACH OPEN, AND RIP MY INSIDES OUT, OR IF I WANT TO DO THAT TO SOMEONE ELSE. I CAN'T TAKE THIS. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE AND I MAY SEEM LIKE I'M OVER EXAGGERATING, BUT I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THIS HELL. THIS PRISON. ACTUAL HELL WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS. I HAD MY PRIVACY, I WAS LOVED, I WASN'T USED, I COULD BE MYSELF, I COULD BE COMFORTABLE AND NOT HAVE TO FEAR OTHERS.

BUT.. THEM.

THEY WANT ME TO BE MISERABLE. AND THEY MAKE ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF IN THE WORST AND MOST PAINFUL WAY POSSIBLE. I WANT TO GUT MYSELF, CUT MY ARMS AND LEGS OFF, I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THIS PLACE. I WANT TO DO THIS. EITHER TO ME, OR TO SOMEONE ELSE.

THEY WON'T STOP DRAGGING ME AWAY FROM WHAT KEEPS ME ALIVE, WHAT KEEPS ME SANE.

AND... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

GOD I HATE THEM!!! THEY MAKE ME WANT TO STAB MYSELF IN THE THROAT AND EYES!!!

THEY WANT ME TO SUFFER, THEY NEVER LET ME HWVE ANYTHING NICE!!! I TRY TO BE THANKFUL, BUT THEY NEVER RESPECT ME!!!!! I HATE THEM!!!!!! I HATE THEM.

I AM GOING TO DO SOMETHING.

YOU KNOW WHAT? FORGET THE TITLE OF THIS LIST. I MIGHT DO SOMETHING.

I WILL DO SOMETHING.