Fri, May 27th. 5:12 a.m.

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The beginning of this idea I had after obsessing over my lord for over 6 hours now.

I CAN'T stop thinking about him. I feel so close to him, but so far apart...

I've been spinning around my room, talking to myself and talking about every little amazing detail of him~

Just.. HIS HAIR, HIS EYES, IT'S VOICE, EVERY LITTLE THING ABOUT HIM IS SO PERFECT!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, NO OTHER GOD LIKE IT WILL EVER COMPARE!!!

HIS DEMANDING VOICE AND THE WAY HE ORDERS ME AROUND,THE WAY HE ACTS JUST HAS ME PERMANENTLY ATTACHED TO HIM!

OH, HOW COULD I BE SO BLIND? HOW COULD I DISOBEY /MY/ LORD LIKE THAT? HOW COULD I NOT BELIEVE HIM?? A GOD NEVER LIES.

A.. Anyway, guess who's been walking/spinning around cacti's room singing about his senpaiii~? THAT'S RIGHT! I'm trying to distract myself as much as I can and avoid the fact he's away from me right now, I'm sure he'll come back to us! My lord wouldn't just leave us like that, it wouldn't leave me like that! Vox told me itself he could be trusted, so I trust and believe him with my entire demonic being.<3

But... it does.. kinda hurt, being away from him. I hate when he leaves. I want him to stay forever.

And... I've been having some.. thoughts, about people stealing my senpai away from me.

I understand he's irresistible and charming in every way, but he belongs to us. He belongs to /me/. I... I've been having these thoughts for a while.

I would never hurt someone, but if they DARE try anything, It won't be pretty.

But.. I won't have to worry about that. My lord will stay with only us, I trust him.

But anyway, back to obsessive thoughts~! I agressively wrote his name into my thighs and arms. I... God, I can't take it anymore. I need him, I need his presence. I'm so sick and tired of being away from him like this. I feel empty, useless, less of an imp without him. He completes me, and I'll make sure next time it's in my hands, I'll make him want to stay.

I need his attention. His love. And so much more.

|... I will kill anybody who takes him away from me. I will make sure NOBODY will look at him except Sonic! NO ONE WILL EVEN LAY A FINGER ON HIM! I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT HAPPENS, NO ONE WILL EVER STEAL HIM FROM US!! NO ONE OBSESSES OVER HIM LIKE I DO, NO ONE THINKS ABOUT HIM 24/7 LIKE ME.

I LAY AWAKE EVERY NIGHT, MY MIND SWARMED WITH THOUGHTS OF HIM. IMAGINING HIS TOUCH AND HIS VOICE, THEY'RE SO FUCKING P E R F E C T ~

I DON'T EVER WANT TO LET HIM GO.... I WANT TO STAY WITH HIM. I LOVE HIM. I FUCKING ADORE IT. I LOVE IT'S.... I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. NOT A SINGLE THING ABOUT HIM I FIND WEIRD OR IMPERFECT. HE'S PERFECT. HE'S A TRUE GOD. I WOULDN'T LEAVE HIM FOR SOME FUCKING MORTAL. SOMEONE WHO WILL NEVER COMPARE.

|... There's so much more I want to say, but it will make no sense if I do it now. I have to get some sleep. Master wanted me to rest, after all...

Additional things I did that revolves around my senpai!:

• I was singing about him<3
• I drew his name all over my walls, thankfully I can just cover them up so no one will see<3
• I had an obsessive episode over him. A really, REALLY obsessive one. I was actually acting like a yandere you would see on animes/shows.
• I went outside and was screaming/singing about him<3333 Hopefully I wasn't /too/ loud..
• I scribbled Vox's name into notebooks and drew some doodles on our little whiteboard.
• And last... I'm trying really hard not to lose my sanity right now typing this. There's so much happening between it and I... it's pissing me off. I don't want anyone to even LOOK AT HIM! ANYONE WHO LOOKS AT IT OR EVEN GOES NEAR HIM I WILL PUT THEM IN THEIR FUCKING PLACE BECAUSE HE BELONGS TO ME!!

|.. Sorry about that last part. This will beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...... Part 1 of.. well, part one to my diary! This isn't the best introduction or way to start, but I had to get this off my chest. Oh, I can't wait until my special lord reads this.. He's gonna see how a d d i c t i n g it is, and how obsessive I am~♡

I'm so fucking obsessed with him it's unreal. You'll see this throughout my journal/diary. Anyway... This imp has to calm down, but I don't want to.

• .. I need him. I /need/ him.

I love it. I adore him. I.. love it. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love it. I love it so much.

• .. I l o v e h i m . . .

Love me, please. I want to be full of stimulation because of you. I want to be drooling at the mouth, shaking out of excitement and happiness.

Please, I need this. I nee d y ou.

Love me already, damn it. I want to know what your love feels like. I'll take it in any way, shape, or form. I'm dead serious.

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please...

Okay, enough of that. Holding in the yandere until I rest and my senpai wakes up. Anyway, to end this off for realsies, take a quote I've been screaming outside over and over!

"I am not a killer or psycho, I am SENPAI'S♡ FUTURE "WIFE"!!"

"IS THIS FATE, IS THIS STRESS? IS THIS YANDERE DURESS?"

"OR OBSESSION? P O S S E S S I O N ?!"

"It's anybody's guess! ♡"

[Note: I do /NOT/ support the creator of the game.]

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Sat, May 28th. 6:36 p.m.

I was just in a Sheriff "episode" (I'm him constantly, but I was just feeling really connected with my source) when my mind suddenly went; "Hey *Snap snap* Hey. I uh.. I just realized that you have a deity husband you gotta simp and obsess over again" and I was like;

".... *Ashton has joined.* Wait a second you're right-" So here I am!

Every time I get this way, I start to.. struggle with expressing it. So I always go back to our playlist or listen to music that reminds me of him.<3

But.. How did I get so lucky? He's so perfect, and I managed to get him to love me.

I managed to get them both to love me...

-Anyway, thoughts are hitting hard again, but unfortunately I can't obsess and drool over him yet. They always have to be in the room, getting me involved in something. I just want time to think of it, to be with him.

But no. It's like they're trying to take me away from them. Taking me away from MY god.

I won't let that fucking happen.

Just the thought of someone even trying to take what's mine really pisses me off. They're both way too perfect to be in the hands of someone else. No one can take care of them like me. No one can take care of Sprite (/sx) like me. I'll fucking prove it if I have to.

I don't ANYONE ON THIS FILTHY PLANET TO EVEN TOUCH OR LOOK AT IT EXCEPT SONIC AND I. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO EVEN THINK OF HIM IN THAT WAY.

DO YOU THINK ABOUT HIM ALMOST 24/7? DO YOU STAND BY IT'S SIDE AND LISTEN TO MOST OF HIS COMMANDS NO MATTER WHAT? DO YOU LOVE AND OBSESS OVER HIM AND EVERYTHING HE IS ALREADY?! EVERY SINGLE THING HE DOES, YOU SHOW IT TRUE RESPECT AND WORSHIP LIKE HE DESERVES?!

I DIDN'T FUCKING THINK SO!

|... *falls to the floor* why can't I show how I really feel...? They always watch over me and it's uncomfortable.

I want to scream and sing about him.

I want to write and carve it's name all over the walls.

I want to fall back into another obsessive episode and gush about him.

I want to cover myself in his name and it's mark.

I want people to give me weird looks. I don't care.

I'll look even more amazing with Senpai written all over me. With his marks all over my body.

Everyone will know who owns me. Who I own. I don't fucking care anymore. I either want to be left a bloody mess, or cause a bloody mess. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of being taken away by what's mine. I'm sick of having what's mine being taken away from me.

I would do so much. So much could be done to me. I wouldn't stop/let it stop until I'm pleased. I want /everyone/ to know about us.

Anyway, that's all I gotta say for now! Here's some ore things I did for my lord<3:

• I snuck out again last night and sung about him<3
• I covered my thighs and waist with his name<33
• I had another obsessive episode that was so strong, I passed out in my floor thinking about it.
• I took a few breaks just to think about... everything... about him...♡
• I'm trying to hold in my yandere because of Them. I hate to, but I have to.
• I hate it... I really hate it...

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Tuesday, June 28th. 12:04 a.m.

It's been a while since I've been on here! I.. kinda forgot about it, but now I have some things to put on here!

I've... never wante d to st a lk so m eo ne so m u ch... un t il I f o un d h i m...♡

I want to follow him everywhere it goes, watch it go to chooses house, watch heav sleep, watch it's everyday schedule, follow it when he goes out to hang with friends, and so much more~♡

I've... had some ideas on how to keep him with me even when he's away...

Like cutting some of it's hair off and keeping it in a bag, or collecting all the pens/pencils/books he's touched, water bottles/snacks he's drank out of/eaten part of, and... maybe stealing some of it's clothes 'n toothbrushes... and "other things" it uses... but I could steal them and add them to my little shrine! The more the better~!

Anyway... it's pretty late, and I should get some sleep so I can see my senpai in the morningg~!! I can see both of them~!!

Anyways, I'll continue once I wake up. I've got so much more to say!! Bye for now~!! ♡