fiction, non fiction g. bachelard, the poetics of space m. cunningham, the hours j. didion, slouching towards bethlehem a. de botton, how proust can change your life a. michaels, fugitive pieces j. winterson, written on the body a. nin, fire: from 'a journal of love'

poetry a. michaels, the weight of oranges / miners pond / skin divers m. nelson, bluets r. siken, crush

• and everyday i'm learning about you, the things that no one else sees (angels by the xx)
• ill never tell you, but you're my little scar (its okay by land of talk)
• video games by lana del ray, entirely

• take a summer language course (japanese)
• enrol in either a mediterranean or thai based cooking class
• be a lot more active towards my fitness (gym)
  • city to surf beginners training
  • yoga classes, dance (contemporary)
• treat myself by finally redesigning my room
  • white walls and white furniture
  • take out desk, replace with ikea shelves
  • white chinese lanterns
  • white sheets with baby pink different sized pillows
• indulge in several new books and scented candles
  • cooking books then possibly new cooking materials

"If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads." Rosemarie Urquico

• i really can't wait until i move out somewhere small but cute with someone i'm so in love with. i want to surprise him with cute things like breakfast in bed etc, followed by slightly not so cute things af...

a lovely night out, a date preferably

• a skirt that stops right at my knees
• vintage strapped gold heels with white frilly socks
• hair tied in a low messy bun on the side with a pretty ribbon
• white tee, small photo design (tucked in)
• red lips with dark curled lashes

the song: unattainable by little joy. sigh

• red and white cherry cardigan
• collared cardigan
• white frilly socks
• mustard yellow scarf
• generation of beards t-shirt
• laptop case
• collection of stockings
• blue knee length skirt
• black suede blazer
• black lace long sleeve
• tartan pants
• creepers
• blue wallet

andy wardol is our god (velvet underground)

• new wave european films by godard, antonioni, cammell and roeg, pasolini, each treat modern urban life in the manner of artists
• documentary films such as D.A pennebakers 'don't look back' and 'montery pop' undermined tradtional barriers between performer and audience

'REVOLT INTO STYLE'

• kenneth ANGER 'puce moment' (1949) 16mm film
• jean-luc GODARD 'breathless' (1960) 35mm film
• william KLEIN 'broadway by light' (1958) 35mm film

can someone film me like a lady from a pop sixties sound film

• "we are torn between a nostalgia for the familiar and an urge for the foreign and the strange. as often as not, we are homesick most for the places we have never known" Carson McCullers
• "I would love to believe that when I die I will live again, that some thinking, feeling, remembering part of me will continue. But much as I want to believe that, and despite the ancient and worldwide cultural traditions that assert an afterlife, I know of nothing to suggest that it is more than wishful thinking. The world is so exquisite with so much love and moral depth, that there is no reason to deceive ourselves with pretty stories for which there’s little good evidence. Far better it seems to me, in our vulnerability, is to look death in the eye and to be grateful every day for the brief but magnificent opportunity that life provides. ” Carl Sagan, who passed away on the sam...

• i want to meet someone so incredibly life changing that i wouldn’t of known what hit me and I don’t know, you would just be so great
  • we would sit in bed all afternoon and watch films
  • i promise i’d give you back massages and we’d make out until dinner time
• "media consumption as the equivalent of a bad diet"
• compositions are overwhelming and I just wonder if I could ever create anything to the same extent of any creative form for another person
  • lately: howls moving castle theme, debussy, stan whitemire

"A TENDER REARRANGEMENT OF WHAT WAS MISSING" ?

• "The wonderful thing about books is that they allow us to enter imaginatively into someone else’s life. And when we do that, we learn to sympathize with other people. But the real surprise is that we also learn truths about ourselves, about our own lives, that somehow we hadn’t been able to see before." Katherine Paterson
• "She thought about her life and how lost she’d felt for most of it. She thought about the way that all truths she’d been taught to consider valuable invariably conflicted with the world as it was actually lived. How could a person be so utterly lost, yet remain living?" Douglas Coupland
• "I am looking for someone to share in an adventure that I am arranging, and it’s very difficult to find anyone." J.R.R. Tolkien, The Hobbit
• "I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all, I st... Agatha Christie

it's late, it has been awhile and i've noticed my accent is influenced by those around me. i've had a slight lisp lately. i'm patiently awaiting (and craving) the new year

• emma
• amelia or amelie
• william
• oscar
• elizabeth
• claire
• isobel
• allison 'ally' for short
• sofie
• harry
• eloise
• gabriella
• evan
• henri
• ruby

goodnight

• PRETTY IN PINK (absolute favorite)
• sixteen candles
• the breakfast club
• ferris buellers day off
• some kind of wonderful
• home alone one and two
• never been kissed
• virgin suicides
• dazed and confused

i'll add more to this when i start remembering titles but hopefully i purchase these all soon. the winters coming up.

molly ringwald, always

• waking up at 4 am
• welcome home by radical face
• extra milk frothing for all my coffees
• curling the sides of my hair with a pen
• warm late night showers
• looking for love in the most obscure places

i don't really know what to say about myself but that i always have bags under my eyes

• lovely conversations with strangers about my next year / their last year
• "your life begins outside of your comfort zone"
• deciding on studying visual art and design at uni
• I am very much and very happily in love

• black hair dye
• growing my hair to my elbows
• and cutting my fringe above my eye brows
• red lip stick
• black suede skirts
• purchasing all the scream dvds
• secondhand blazers

we know what we know ~ i feel that everything i write just feels so horribly contrived, so i've stuck to writing (typing) lists

lack of inspiration mostly