fav lyrics i hold dearly from niki's latest album; nicole

before

• and i don't know how or why you seem just fine
• cause i'm having to grasp that you're somehow not mine anymore
• it's so cruel how things are only almost like they were before

high school in jakarta

• ask you when you talk about it, do i ever come up?
• living under that was hard, but i love you harder

backburner

• maybe life's less romantic when i don't wanna die
• you look ugly when you cry, but i'm the one you think to call
• i thought i was a fast learner but guess i won't ever mind

keeping tabs

• so i wish you well and I wish you far away this was never real, i'll say it till i believe it
• you say the wrong thing every time you talk, the red flags wave, the alarms sound off
• i'm so glad our paths didn't cross i'm so glad, i'll say it till i believe it
• worst thing that i'm still keeping tabs on for some stupid reason, you're the same with everyone

the apartment we won't share

• the dog we won't have is now one I would not choose, the daughter we won't raise still waits for you
• the girl I won't be is the one that's yours, I hope you shortly find what you long for
• your demons i won't meet now someone else's word to keep

facebook friends

• maybe it's just to keep our distance and stay friends on Facebook, or maybe i'll get to know you again and tell a sentence from a single look
• but in the rare case that i do cross your mind I hope you know, you always cross mine
• and i can honestly tell you, i've been doing fine, but i've done better
• some days are easier than others and most nights, i don't feel like a half
• so maybe once more we'll cross paths or maybe we won't

anaheim

• in a perfect world, i'd kill to love you the loudest but all i do is live to hurt you soundless
• you wanna be my new home but baby, let up, i won't ever recognize these roads
• cause i am lost, but not in you
• i could spend my days studying your laugh's melody and I can't live with myself 'cause I know you'd die for me