for my dearest bangchan, happy birthday to you

i hope you find the kind of moments that take your breath away. the kind of moments that change you. i hope you travel to places that cleanse you, i hope you go to concerts that ring through your bones and make you feel alive. i hope you live. truly. i hope you don't hold back. there is so much to feel in this world. i hope you feel it all. but most of all, i hope you find yourself out there. i hope you figure out your heart, i hope you figure out your mind. i hope you learn how to be kind to yourself, how to embrace the journey you are on. i hope you learn how to be proud of the person you are becoming, i hope you learn how to be proud of where you are — even if it isn't exactly where you want to be. i hope you learn to fall in love with the process, with the messiness of life and the confusion of it all. i hope you find what you’re looking for out there. i hope your life inspires you.

once again, happy birthday to the only person to ever make lightening shoot through my veins and thunderboom in my heart. i love you, chris. you have my heart.