- I am sipping my cup of chai tea. The dishes are done, laundry is on the go, and an empty box is waiting for me to fill it. I am really struggling. This year is the struggle year. I have attended all the programs I ever wanted to, had the experiences I wanted, met the partner and companion I wanted, and still I feel lost. I rambled to my mom about the things I need to do as a musician with free time; how empty days, solitude and independence are a blessing. Then the skies turn grey and the rain drips on the window pane and its the only sound I can hear. And it is often blocked out by voices in my mind telling me I can't do it, I don't have the talent, the opportunities, the connections, the unique and creative energy needed. So I'm going to watch American Dad, pack boxes and pray.
jul 18 2013 ∞
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