• The Lace Reader
• A Year and a Day
• The Tiger’s Wife
• The Virgin Suicides
• The Bell Jar
• The White Album
• Ivyland

(TBC)

• rose lip tint from sephora
• lots and lots of sweaters at brandy melville
• jean shorts at lucky
• plenty of scarves... galleries lafayette if i could, but probably free people, brandy melville, etc.
• maybe some dresses at american apparel
• perfume from sephore, probably hermes, d&g, burberry, etc.
• MORE FRENCH MUSIC @ itunes, maybe second spin
• french books in those amazing little bookstores all over england
• french movies wherever i can get 'em
• more incense/holders/etc. at venice boardwalk
• room freshener at bed, bath & beyond for my mom's house

• losing weight... again, and again, and again, and again...
• getting better grades... not working. at all.
• being nicer... well, i try. sometimes i still think really mean things in my head. well, and i'm openly kinda bitchy to people who deserve it.
• being a better daughter... failed. miserably. utterly. no. it's funny how i still strive for it, though, how i still want their approval, even after everything.
• managing my time... hell no.
• eating healthier... believe me, if i could, i'd have only fruit and vegetables and tea (and alcohol) in my house.
• exercising more... no time. no time.
• being less dependent on other people for happiness... i'll get back to you on that.

• have a lot of sex, not gonna lie
• visit cambridge and oxford and stuff again
• make sure i got published
• hang out with my family and friends and those bitches
• drink

• remember my birthday
• tell me something i didn't know
• hug me (unless they're creepy o.o)
• do barely noticeable things, like waving in the hall
• confide in me
• send me mail
• can be open to other peoples' opinions

• innocence
• no homework
• not being embarrassed to go out in public with my family
• being crazy
• having all the time in the world
• how staying up until midnight was a big deal
• getting sleep
• being a perfect, skinny little twig
• having smooth, little-kid skin
• going to sea ranch

• facebook
• deviantart
• tumblr
• google
• sometimes listography
• formspring somtimes
• occasionally blogspot
• occasionally twitter
• fanfiction.net sometimes
• teacherweb when i have to

• manipulating my little brother
• being embarrassed of my parents during preschool
• nicktoons
• easter egg hunts
• going to the park all the time
• my mother doing my hair up fancy all the time
• having a ton of pets
• sniffing my mom's wine to see why she liked it so much
• therapy because my parents are freaks

• someone who owned a homeless shelter
• an artist
• a mother
• a singer
• a writer

• the day i met john
• 10 june, 2008
• the day my parents told me they knew about the october thing
• the first day of high school
• the second day of high school
• the day i got in trouble with the cops
• the day i almost got suspended from elementary school
• the day i began failing algebra two

• all weekends
• spring break/seattle trip with band
• summer
• concerts with friends
• seeing certain people
• getting sleep
• the next time i can get my hands on booze
• writing more
• losing weight/getting in shape
• wearing the clothes and jewelry i got for xmas
• finding a guy that doesn't get fed up with me

• throat coat
• licorice
• english breakfast
• earl grey
• london
• breathe easy
• mint
• moroccan mint
• white
• chai

• chanel
• dolce & gobbana
• dior
• pepe jeans
• brandy melville
• topshop
• urban outfitters
• heritage 1988
• free people
• crossroads
• wasteland
• aardvark's
• out of the closet
• gotta have it
• burberry

• grey goose
• skyy melon
• stella artois
• bluemoon
• tyku

• urban outfitter
• forever 21
• wasteland
• crossroads
• american apparel
• gotta have it
• aardvark
• chato
• top shop
• H & M
• pac sun
• hollister

• reinforced binder paper
• photograph paper
• black pens

• the greek. i love that fuckin place
• the hollywood bowl
• the palladium
• club nokia
• the nokia
• staples center
• the gibson amphitheater
• the music box
• the wiltern
• minaret village (in mammoth)
• disney concert hall
• the orpheum
• dodger stadium

• i wish people were'nt so goddamn retarded and would figure it the fuck out
• that the governments would stop this whole corrption and conspiracy deal, it's so pointless
• i wish i would miraculously forget certain things about the past, say, five years
• that my grades would stop nosediving. fucking grades. fuck you.
• that i would get un-fat. like, fuck, it's getting ridiculous

• the ones in russia
• the green ones
• the narcotics and alcohol ones

• slower metabolism
• getting into college
• work pressure and responsibility
• failing at life lol
• when i'm really old, alzheimer's.
• being weak

• olivia
• jenny
• nicole
• justin
• cherie FM
• european things
• weekends
• chanter
• poetry
• fun concert band music
• decorating
• daniel
• malcolm
• ma famille
• des livres
• rain
• ecriver
• chai lattes
• aller au cafe
• dream-catchers
• old photos

• i'm vegetarian
• i write a ton
• i think a lot
• i am intelligent (i kind of have a bimbo reputation, at least with some)
• i have terrible insecurities about my weight and appearance
• my parents don't piss me off as much as i make it out to be
• i love vodka
• i have five dogs
• i was depressed for a year

• writer
• singer
• journalist
• petit magasin owner
• teacher
• social worker

• birth-three: dressed by mother
• four-six: spastic randomness
• seven: girly shit
• eight-ten: tom boy, punk
• eleven: jeans and shirts and sweaters
• twelve-fourteen: short shorts, tank tops, tights, skinny jeans
• fifteen-?: dresses, because i'm a fatass

• he is bigger than me, and therefore can easily kill me
• he is nicer to me than i am to him. well, mostly
• he is really gifted at music
• he really ought to exercise more
• he takes french club
• he wants to be a composer and go to berkelee college on the east coast
• he has at least partial photographic memory
• he has perfect pitch
• he wants dreadlocks... wtf
• he is not as easily persuaded as he once was

• rain
• clean sheets
• writing
• perfume
• saturdays
• running
• books
• sleeping
• dancing
• hugs
• sweet words
• soft hands
• water
• tea
• pajamas
• friends

• sophia
• indiana
• evelyn
• olivia
• ellie
• mai/mae
• taylor
• chelsea
• alison
• giselle
• charlotte
• avery
• addison
• hadley
• halle
• kensi
• kiana
• nolwenn

• to weigh 100 lbs.
• to get straight A's
• to wear perfect outfits
• to party more
• to become a better writer
• to get with more guys
• to meet more people
• to explore the world more
• to exercise more often
• to eat much less
• to get more sleep
• to get my license
• to become fluent en francais

• olivia
• daniel
• malcolm
• christian
• jenny
• nicole
• katherine
• justin
• tyler
• jonathan
• vic
• casey
• christian r.
• joey

• ire: intense anger; wrath
• percolate: to filter through; permeate
• imbue: to saturate; to inspire or impregnate as with feelings, opinions
• caprice: sudden, unpredictable change, as in mood or weather
• amalgam: an alloy of silver or mercury, occurring as silver-white crystals or grains; also, a mixture or combination
• solder: to join closely and intimately
• hirsute: hairy; shaggy
• tatterdemalion: a person in tattered clothing
• jetty: a pier or similar structure jutting into the water
• fraught: filled or laden
• droves: a large crowd of people, often in motion
• relegate: to send to an inferior position, place, or condition
• sate: to satisfy fully

• http://www.listography.com/action/list?u...
• http://www.listography.com/action/list?u...

• my earliest memory from when i was fifteen mos of visiting my mother in the hospital after she'd broken her ankle... she had this bright purple cast
• my dad doing my pigtails when i was little
• sea ranch
• my brother calling me "tata"
• going swimming everyday all summer with yanira's kids
• trick-or-treating with olivia every year
• my dogs freaking out whenever we come home from school
• visiting london
• le cinq juin, 2009
• le vingt-six juin, 2009

• margot from paper towns
• HARRY MOTHER FUCKING POTTER. actually no, his life kinda sucks. but still.
• huckleberry finn
• pearl prynne, the scarlet letter
• lia, wintergirls
• faux-livia, fringe
• sal, the people who watched her pass by
• abby, NCIS
• deeks (heissoattractive,fuck), NCIS: LA
• esther greenwood from the bell jar
• lux lisbon from the virgin suicides

god, i don't even know. i can't remember half the books i've read.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

• that one day in like fourth grade with olivia
• that one day in fifth grade with the... yeah
• le dix juin, 2008
• le neuf novembre, 2008
• le quatorze septembre, 2009

• london (already have a really nice one, NEED MORE!)
• paris
• los angeles
• new orleans
• chicago
• florence
• venice
• baghdad
• cambridge
• moscow
• athens
• the whole of the greek islands
• mendicino
• everywhere. ever.
• melbourne
• granada
• madrid

• money
• itunes
• clothes
• jewelry
• concert tickets
• a car
• shoes
• books

• 1986 mercedes sedan
• bentley
• BWM
• pt cruiser
• maserati
• lamborghini

• arrogance
• excessive immaturity
• lack of intelligence
• rudeness
• creepiness

• able to relate to
• interesting
• nice
• well-read

• clingy-ness
• no hookups
• keeping it a secret from parents
• keeping it on the dl from peers
• finding time to see each other
• arguments
• not feeling comfortable around each other
• bad break ups
• complications after bad breakups, such as fighting over mutual friends and being bashed by ex

• noah
• caden
• bryce
• sean
• nolan
• gage
• teagan
• cale
• finlay
• owen
• cliff
• harlow
• reed
• roland
• rowan
• jack
• dane

• aquarius
• libra
• gemini
• aries
• virgo

• water
• apples
• blueberries
• mango
• watermelon
• blackberries
• broccoli
• pears
• strawberries
• yogurt
• farmer's market cheese
• tea
• salad
• english muffins
• almonds
• raisins
• egg whites
• whole grain wheat