listography: Sun Sun Sun (Getting up the nerve...)

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Not all who wander are looking for something either...though most are...in my experience anyway. I'm looking for a lot of things, so I observe and list and review to double check and make sure I'm not skipping over anything I would really like to give more attention to...to see what strikes me enough to list... to observe myself from a perspective farther removed than the intimacy of my own brain....

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Sun Sun Sun (Getting up the nerve...)

Getting up the nerve to put myself out there in the world and take a big bite.
Or have a big bite taken out of me...
Im headed to California I think. I looked at tickets online, $208 for a round trip from Denver, $189 for a 1 way from JAC.
I want to tell Tara that Im coming, but also just want to show up on her front doorstep... suitcase in hand, with a bouquet of fresh flowers...
Im terrified. terrified to do this thing; of quitting my cush job to go somewhere like LA where everyone is looking for one.
I need the space, the perspective.
Though Margo did say "find peace within."
I think Ill see how i can cut it in LA, maybe see Kelsey in Ashland, and then go take my chances up in Livingstone. That is if I don't find something in LA or Ashland again. Id kind of like to be around Tara for a while, but I say that now. I might not be able to handle Venice or the whole scene for very long.

"Wherever you go there'll be love love love. Wherever you go there'll be love."

Thats nice to hear.

oct 25 2009 ∞
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