• Thats a good one...

• Gusi calls at 5:30 or so... sounds like the bakery needs a manager... or my mum needs one. Margo is still not talking to anyone in my family and Neil continues to be a pest...
• I find it interesting that when I get the idea to go for a walk and do some visualizing and self centering, my sister calls with this info... that does that mean?
• So... what do I want? I want a space to garden... or several. How about several beautification projects? Sounds good. I want an art studio... it is done! I want a new Macbook Pro computer... it is done! I want a gold Toyota Tacoma 4x4 with low miles and i perfect shape... it is done! I want to get to 10% body fat... it is done! I want to get into a good yoga routine... with lots of breathing exercises... it is done! I want a piece of property that is conveniantly located, yet still nice ...

• I find that in the reading of my own words, there is solace.
• The retrospective glances over thoughts and self-motivating phrases is soothing to my terminally restless soul.
• It makes sense that it should be this way. I am a joyous person, it is evident, though i tend to think to much for my own good.
• Its only the middle of the 4th tuesday of my time here. I must stop beating the drum of restlessess. Its good! Life is ever giving and ever bountiful! There is always more! Always abundance! There is always joy and prosperity to be had. Wealth is an internal gauge and happiness is self taught and self maintained. Let the negativity roll off, and roll away.
• You Are Perfect!

• ITS SNOWING!!!
• How long has it taken Wyoming to get into the winter swing of things? Till December 1st!
• The white is brilliant! A full on snowstorm which is l o n g overdue.
• How exquisite is the brilliance of a day opening; crisp, bright, and covered in the million atomic diamonds that turn the world new and blank... my favorite of days thus far is today.

• Getting up the nerve to put myself out there in the world and take a big bite.
• Or have a big bite taken out of me...
• Im headed to California I think. I looked at tickets online, $208 for a round trip from Denver, $189 for a 1 way from JAC.
• I want to tell Tara that Im coming, but also just want to show up on her front doorstep... suitcase in hand, with a bouquet of fresh flowers...
• Im terrified. terrified to do this thing; of quitting my cush job to go somewhere like LA where everyone is looking for one.
• I need the space, the perspective.
• Though Margo did say "find peace within."
• I think Ill see how i can cut it in LA, maybe see Kelsey in Ashland, and then go take my chances up in Livingstone. That is if I don't find something in LA or Ashla...

Earl Grey Tea Madeleines with Honey These little scallop-shaped cakes are a classic teatime treat in France. Makes 12

Photograph by Brian Leatart

Recipe by Dorie Greenspan February 2005 Ingredients

• 5 tablespoons unsalted butter plus additional for molds, room temperature
• 2 tablespoons loose tea or tea from 2 tea bags (preferably Earl Grey)
• 3/4 cup all purpose flour
• 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
• Pinch of salt
• 2 large eggs
• 1/3 cup sugar
• 2 tablespoons honey
• 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
• 1/2 teaspoon (packed) finely grated lemon...

• I get up at 6 am to milk the lovely goat Athena.
• I get to sit in the glorious sun for an hour or so before heading off to work.
• I am blessed with a creative and industrious mind
• Each Day is Perfect
• Autumn is my absolute Favorite season, and here were in the throws of it...
• I have every intention of living each perfect day in utter happiness,
  • tea outside my perfectly renovated Airstream trailer,
  • crochet inside next to my pot-bellied stove on blizzard-ing days,
  • Walks in the crisp Wyoming mornings,
  • Fresh goat milk hot chocolate
  • Creating journals from recycled Reader's Digest Condensed Novels and leaf portraits

• Parading around in the dark on any given evening in my red dress
• Feeling Feisty
• Adopting the Habit of Wearing Red Lip Stick (which Ive never been a fan of on myself)
• 40's Pin Curls
• My Wine Colored Cape
• Red seems to be all the rage amongst the teeteringly insane these days.
• An Extrovertial way of expelling my energy. (like my new word?)
• That includes Wine colored Capes, Red Dresses, Red Lipstick marks on boy collars and 40's Pin curls bobbing above glasses of too rich red wine...

• Angus and Julia Stone
• Ditty Bops
• Listography
• Anahata Katkin
• Etzy
• Sigur Ros Videos
• Tara's Letters
• Looking Out the window at work

• Anda called me today absolutely elated after talking to the landlords out at the little white house.
• She had a nice chat, got hi, and proceeded to unfold a series of spectacular events!
• We pay month to month, $700 between the two of us, there is no 1st/last months rent and no deposit.
• We have 2 wood stoves, one inside and one in the garage which we will convert into our studio.
• We have a huge load of firewood for the winter already.
• There are washer and drier hookups in case we find a set.
• We can paint, switch things around, do whatever with it, and they will take it out of what we owe on rent accordingly.
• I get to have my things back in my life!
• My kitten gets to stay there!

• The lavender and rose fields of France, where the flowers are grown and oil is pressed for perfumes
• The top of the Eiffel tower
• The top of the empire state building
• The summit of the Grand Teton
• the summit of Gannet Peak
• Alaska
• America in the 1800s
• Madagascar
• Bolivia
• Chile
• Andalicia, Spain
• The Black Forest
• The Nile
• Morocco

You are all perfect and expanding; you are all adored and worthy; you are all here having your exposure to experiences and doing the best that you can from where you are. You have not been sent here in a test or trial; you're here as creators as part of an expanding Universe. You can't have it both ways. You can't have, at the root of that which you are, Well-Being, and then have that same root of Well-Being have the capacity to pronounce you evil. It is vibrationally impossible. That judging, vengeful God is manufactured from humans' place of deepest despair.

--- Abraham

• I had some vivid dreams last night, the sort that go on and on with a plot and all.
• The 1st part I remember is working at the store, like yesterday. I was in the camp room with Margo, by the office when it got very stormy outside. All at once it was like a vacuum...meaning a space vacuum where all the noise and air is sucked out out of a space, a void. We watched out the window and the sky was black, the wind was blowing. She hurried me over to the door frame (like in an earthquake situation.) It was strange because I could hear everything we said perfectly clear...intensely clear, and yet it felt as though Id lost my hearing. The wind moved inside and all around us, blowing things over. We looked up out the window to see a house rolling up 1st street, bounce into the air and take out the WRG sign in front of t...

• After coming home last night at 11 to realize I had forgotten to put my sheets in the drier, I commenced with creative indulgences; stamping, writing a letter to Anda, listening to music and painting.
• Brandon called me at about 12.30, "hey, are you home? I have something for you."
• When he arrived he held in his lean hand a be-handled box containing the most exquisite typewriter.
• Red, maroon actually. Enamel. Ribbon still in place, black ink atop and red running the bottom.
• It has the most lovely concaved keys, with cursive "tab" and "floating shift" nobs on either side of the letter board.
• It is so smooth! Not the clackity clacking of my Royal, but a muffled movement. I didn't think I was hitting keys hard enough...there was no sharp "tap!" when i struck them, just a gentle, heavy beat....mmm.

I am living in and perfecting my lifestyle in a classic Airstream trailer from the golden age of motor travel and road trips across the North American Continent. Grand Canyon, Rout 66, San Fransisco to New York...this is my list of steps to reach that ultimate way of living, Le Vie Bohieme...

• The awning on my dear streamer is striped brown and red with little ruffles along the edges, tassels on the corners where the string hangs to roll it back
• The steps have a carpet that rolls out from inside down to the ground
• There are hardwood floors throughout my dear streamer, hardwood interior cabinetry and siding on the walls and ceiling
• One counter is a hardwood chopping block, there is a classic white metal stove/oven, a 2 bin sink and an electric refrigerator. A blender and a toaster both sit ato...

• be what you wish to seem

• leaves
• the Eiffel tower
• Balconies (wrought iron)
• Fog
• Cobbled Streets
• Hot Tea at a Street-side Cafe on a Rainy Day
• That contented feeling that goes with hot tea sitting at a street side cafe on a foggy rainy day with a good book, a good letter to read or write, your sketch pad, & or your journal.
• Tara's face
• A pen and ink set with thick ivory paper, wax seals. and neverlandia stamps.
• My Typwriter
• Pouring, torrential, inescapable rain.
• Black and White Photographs of loved and lovers
• An old man carrying a violin and bow down a cobbled alley

• Climb Gannet
• Climb the Grand Teton

• Jumping from the ledge at the Gyser
• Climbing the Hill behind Moose Willow Ranch
• Running down the shoulder above the Harrison House
• Skinny Dipping in the Costa Rican Jungle
• Skinny dipping in the lake in the canyon outside San Miguel de Allende, then shinnying up the cliff ladder to sneak into the Botanical Gardens with Eli and Andrew
• Getting my horse thrown out from under me and watching it fall down the ravine into the river

• Those mornings that happen to you. You wake up, its bright and the day opens grandly for you. Then that phone call that brings you to your knees so fast you put dents in the floor and blood streams like the tears. I don't know how I feel.
• Thats a lie. I feel humbled.
• Then there is a boy there, a tall strong boy who holds you while you cry and says hes sorry, kisses your forehead and lets you soak his shirt with never an awkward movement.
• And another boy who answers you across the vast expanse of cyberspace to make your butterflies start up again. Who offers exclamation marks with his comments on the beauty of the day. Refreshing and artistic.
• They take the mind away from the current cause of tears. Back to strong strapping men. Not men in hospital beds with head t...

Today is my lucky day... Friday the 13th.....

• A cover of Paul Simon... lovely.
• Im thinking of Anda, missing her.
• Brainstorming all the things I want to try, the journal, the bees wax globe lanterns, the ear-flap headbands.
• I got a lovely shipment of origami paper yesterday and folded about 30 of them, they decorate the well worn table Im sitting at... all gold and intricate. Rich feeling in their delicacy.
• It snowed (finally) yesterday, a light dusting that will melt today if the sun stays out. We are supposed to love move over to the river house today but Maggie hasn't called us back. Don't push it... even though Im impatient for it for some reason.
• I think what I am really impatient for isn't this, it is just the nearest venue fo...

I feel it is important to give the characters in my life the proper limelight, their own personal portrait from my eyes... its quite the collection...

• Its one of the most magical things.
• The power is surging off and on, a combination of wind and drifts.
• I woke at 6.30 this morning to work, it felt great to just get up in the dark like that and have the nice sewing room all warm. * Mum made me a cup of coffee (perfect) and was putsying about getting things ready for her trip.
• I am starting on re-organizing the house this evening. the sewing room, the kitchen, the back room. (see list in ongoing folder)
• The snow is magnificent...an absolute white out. The best kind, in my humble opinion~ all oat once is the best, an absolute blizzard. Sheets and sheets of the fluffy stuff.
• Not to mention it seriously inspires my work...
• Milking and grazing the goats should be i...

• Silk
• Mohair
• Wool/ Soysilk Blend... (one of my faves)
• Urbikite Yarn (A local and therefore a fave)
• Hemp
• Bamboo (makes the most amazing tatting effects!)
• Jadite (the mineral Jade spun into yarn...its incredable!)

• Slippers
• Fingles
• Leg Warmers
• Lace-cuffed Knee Socks
• Mongolian Hat
• Lace-bordered high neck dress, empire waist, tea length
• Calla Lillies
• River Rock
• Mobiles
• Reader's Digest condensed novels made into Journals, a window cut out of the cover and a small leaf silhouette portrait placed inside for decor, accented with ribbon.
• Ear-flapped headbands with brims. Lined with micro-fleece. Mmm