- i put too much of myself into helping others
- helping others takes focus away from helping myself, where my "masculine" trait of fixing things keeping me running in circles are other people
- between all the people i've helped, the only feeling i can express without doubt is emotional breakdowns. by that point, it's pretty clear something is going on. which is, you know, too late
- the typical saying is you can't love others until you love yourself. but. you have to learn how to love. especially the self.
- i do everything by example. i like feeling emotionally enriched.
- i need to receive a lot of support, yet i only seek out damaged goods to befriend.
- i often don't feel like i'm getting any support. only validation when i successfully help others
- i feel that i need more problems in my life to compete with the limited resources of people supporting each other
- in fantasies, i see myself as the calm protector, so i seek out real-life models of this. it's never how it appears in the head.
- i could see being with a butch girl.
oct 15 2008 ∞
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