- First things first, did you have a good year? It was the worst year of my life, although it got progressively better and I learned a lot from it.
- How old did you turn this year? 20.
- Do you feel your age? I definitely felt like a ‘real adult’ by the end of the year.
- Did your appearance change in any way? I got my first tattoo - a sun on my inner-left ankle.
- If you traveled, where did you go? Went to Switzerland in January for the snow polo. I had to stay home over summer, although did go to the beach for a few days.
- What was your favorite article of clothing this year? I have a few... my Chainsmokers and Taylor Swift tour t-shirts, harem pants, black and mint Nike running shoes, and the lovely new jodhpur boots I got for Christmas!
- What song sums up this year for you? I’d say my top three most played songs this year: Sick Boy (The Chainsmokers), Perfect (Anne-Marie), and I’m A Mess (Bebe Rexha). Also The Middle Of Starting Over (Sabrina Carpenter) sums up a lot of how I felt this past year, despite the song getting old fast.
- What album will always remind you of 2018? I’ve got to go for Taylor Swift’s Reputation album, because I went to the tour. Notable mentions, though, Speak Your Mind (Anne-Marie), Beerborngs and Bentleys (Post Malone), No Shame (Lily Allen), Expectations (Bebe Rexha). I could go on.
- What was your favorite movie of the year? Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again!!!
- Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year? Lily James and Josh Dylan!
- Favorite new TV show? New to me? Friends has been a life-saver this year. Shows that debuted this year? I was really impressed by The Haunting of Hill House and The Purge.
- Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears? Friends, as mentioned. Also, a lot of Love Island couples over the summer, haha.
- What food did you try for the first time? Spanikopita, and a Swiss dish I don’t remember the name of. And Christmas pudding ice-cream...
- Did you make any big permanent changes this year? Huge ones, yes. A lot happened this year.
- Did you vote? Nope. No elections this year.
- Did you move? In spring I moved out of the house I was renting with friends and back in with my parents. I moved back into uni accommodation (aka Victorian castle turret) in September.
- Did you get a job? I had a few jobs while I was out of uni - waitressing, painting and decorating, and a couple of office admin jobs.
- Did you get a pet? No.
- Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days? Not just days. Months.
- Did you fall in love? No.
- Did you fall out of love? No.
- Did you start a new relationship? Sadly not.
- Did you go through a break up? No no.
- What was the best moment of the year for you? I have a few. Watching the snow polo, seeing The Chainsmokers and Taylor Swift in concert, Brooke’s 18th and our polo tournament party in June.
- What was the worst? There were some days when I just wished I was dead.
- Where did 2018 start for you? A New Year party at my aunt and uncle’s house.
- Were you taken on Valentine’s Day? No, but I spent the evening with Drew Taggart and Alex Pall, so I’m not complaining!
- Did you get married or divorced? Not even close, haha.
- Did you find any new friends? It took time, and I was very cut off for most of the year, but eventually I made new friends.
- Did anybody disappoint you this year? Quite a few people, and for some of them I think ‘disappoint’ would be an understatement.
- Did you find a new hobby? Singing and karate.
- What was your most expensive purchase? God knows. It felt like most of my money went on rent.
- Did you change mentally? So much. It was a really difficult year, sometimes painful, but I’ve definitely matured a lot because of that.
- What was the best present you gave to somebody? Nothing that creative this year. I guess it would be the watch I bought my dad for Christmas.
- The best present somebody gave to you? Concert tickets!
- Things you could have done without? A certain doctor screwing things up while I was dealing with all the university and financial stuff.
- The most delicious meal? This Mexican pork dish that Brooke made a couple of times.
- The most impressive book? The Crying of Lot 49, for its sheer turmoil.
- What do you want to change in 2019? Better management of everything really. From finances to future plans.
- How would you rate this year? Like 3/10 overall, but it got progressively better.
- What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before? Many things, actually. Good and bad. Went to Switzerland, watched snow polo, went tobogganing, saw The Chainsmokers/Taylor Swift/Camila Cabello live, had cocktails in The Shard, drove in London, drove at 90, self-harmed, won a trophy, smoked cigarettes, came out as bisexual, painted a house, worked in accounting, worked as a waitress, studied degree level English, drank Starbucks’ maple lattes, sang in a choir, sang a solo, had karate lessons, got a tattoo. There’s probably a lot more.
- Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don’t remember making any. My life was in a big mess last January. I have made some for 2019, though.
- Did anyone close to you give birth? No.
- Did anyone close to you die? No.
- What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018? A plan for the future.
- What date from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory? February 14th. Nothing Valentines related. It was the date I went to see The Chainsmokers’ Memories... Do Not Open tour. The first proper concert I went to.
- What was your biggest achievement of the year? Surviving. And getting onto the second year English degree. If I hadn’t done I don’t know whether I would have achieved the first half of this answer, honestly.
- What was your biggest failure?
Not being able to cope with my life falling down around me.
- Did you suffer illness or injury? I was a bit depressed and traumatised. The only injuries I got were self-inflicted.
- What was the best thing you bought? My iPad.
- Whose behaviour merited celebration? Brooke got straight A’s in her A Levels.
- Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? This stupid doctor who fucked up my life.
- Where did most of your money go? Rent.
- What did you get really, really, really excited about? Concerts, polo tournaments, going back to uni...
- What do you wish you’d done more of? Spending time with friends.
- What do you wish you’d done less of? Feeling depressed and angry and wishing I wasn’t even alive.
- How did you spend Christmas? At home with my parents and sister. It was low-key, but really nice nonetheless.
- How many one night stands in this last year? 0.
- Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Maybe. I didn’t like him this time last year, but I’m not sure I actually hated him. He’s the only person I hate.
- What was your greatest musical discovery? Maybe bulow or Jeremy Zucker.
- What did you want and get? A chance.
- What did you want and not get? An apology. And to go to America.
- What did you do on your birthday? I went to the cinema to watch Mamma Mia, and then went out to a meal with my family. Had lamb tagine and prosecco.
- What kept you sane? Half the time I’m not sure I was...
- Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Anne-Marie Nicholson <3.
- What political issue stirred you the most? Meh. I’ve felt completely nonplussed by politics and political issues this year.
- Who did you miss? All my friends. Even the ones I lived with. I was completely cut off from everybody most of the time. I’ve never felt so lonely.
- Who was the best new person you met? This person who works at my uni. Without her I probably wouldn’t have been able to get back into uni, in which case, fuck knows where I would be right now.
- Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018. That life can be really, really horrible. You have to be able to take control and plan your life, otherwise other people will do that for you.
- Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. “I’m tired of trying to be normal, I’m always over-thinking, I’m driving myself crazy, so what if I’m fucking crazy?”. Thanks Bebe xoxo.
dec 30 2018 ∞
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