• July
  • 1st: How incredible would it be to have a little cabin on the loch front where you can just lose yourself whenever you want?
  • 2nd: It feels awesome being inside a mountain, I should go in caves more often
  • 3rd: "If you've missed the scene you've seen the mist"
  • 4th: I really need to start drinking more water, like, a lot more
  • 5th: Seeing the Green party get four seats at this election gives me the tiniest bit of hope in humanity
  • 6th: It's so cool how this beach is rock on one side + sand on the other
  • 7th: It feels like my feet were made for clambering on rocks
  • 8th: Kind of crazy how I'm almost 26 now + still this alone, it really feels like this won't get better any time soon, so I guess I'll be lonely forever
  • 9th: I want to be a do-er, I just want to go out + do things + not let anything get in my way
  • 10th: How do I get a cute relationship like the characters in this story???
  • 11th: Dunes are cool
  • 15th: Right now I can't tell whether I'm overwhelmed or not, so I guess I've got to just keep going

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• June
  • 1st: I'm still not over the ants, there are ~20,000,000,000,000,000 - that's a lot!
  • 2nd: I guess maybe I dislike the way I look because it still reminds me of who I used to be
  • 3rd: I'm so intrigued by H5 - I NEED to know!
  • 4th: I am awestruck (by Halsey) ♡
  • 5th: Much of the truth was destroyed because it wasn't true
  • 6th: I got a letter from Halsey and I love that
  • 7th: Today I discovered allquakes.com and can now track global earthquakes
  • 8th: There's too much depression in this house
  • 9th: Sometimes, out of all the options, there really is only one that makes sense
  • 10th: Maybe I should take up kickboxing
  • 11th: Why did I always seem to exist outside of everyone else's world?
  • 12th: I just don't understand how you're supposed to organise time that's already happened - I don't think it works like that
  • 13th: I wish I could just make my mind feel organised somehow
  • 14th: Institutionalised socialisation gives you jagged edges, and permission to use them to cut people
  • 15th: I wish I had a partner LOL
  • 16th: Maybe I should stay away from social media more
  • 17th: I guess this is what happens when you need control but desperately yearn to be harmless
  • 18th: It's really getting to me how people feel the need to justify their opinions by pathologising everyone else's human-ness
  • 19th: I've been reading this stuff I wrote when I was 21 and there's something about that person that I want to get back to
  • 22nd: My hair like this kinda looks like Eloise from Bridgerton + I appreciate that
  • 23rd: If I could turn back time today, I'd really like to train as a volcanologist
  • 24th: Today's events are bringing up a lot of feelings which I do not feel in any way equipped to deal with. Ugh.
  • 25th: Where do the questions end?
  • 26th: Guess what kid? People don't actually hate you when you just be yourself
  • 27th: I still struggle a bit to accept the fact that people really can still like you even when they don't love every single thing about you
  • 28th: Weirdly I'm kinda bad at breaking rules sometimes. That seems to go against my nature but it's true.
  • 29th: The highlands would be a beautiful place to get lost.
  • 30th: I guess that not taking your safety for granted can be a good thing, sometimes

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• May
  • 1st: I really do need to improve my personal power

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• April
  • 8th: I'm pretty good at maths
  • 9th: What would it be like if I really embodied my energy?
  • 10th: I hate my avoidant-ness - everyone sucks but I'm so effing lonely
  • 11th: One off day does not ruin everything forever
  • 12th: On a journey towards authentic identity
  • 13th: Eggs are so weird - like, how come the failed offspring of chickens have the right chemical composition to create delicious cakes?
  • 14th: I really need to work harder at standing up for what I believe in
  • 15th: Just keep trying
  • 16th: Master of my destiny
  • 17th: Does open-mindedness really = fluid boundaries delineating belief?
  • 18th: I really want these next few months to be a turning point
  • 19th: Why do humans have to be the unhappiest creatures on the planet?
  • 20th: It's really nice to realise that I don't worry about dying every day anymore
  • 21st: I should always try new social settings more than once if possible, or I'm never going to get anywhere
  • 22nd: I'm more anxious being around younger people I guess
  • 23rd: Lights are brighter when it's darker
  • 24th: Why can I never tell whether I'm being over-dramatic or I'm actually gas-lighting myself?
  • 25th: You aren't really on a journey, you are a journey
  • 26th: Could be a great time to buy a new car
  • 27th: I love reading so much lately, I wish I just had infinite time to read
  • 28th: The hall at the soundbath looked so beautiful this evening
  • 29th: Don't ever turn right by that bridge towards Walton, always just go left
  • 30th: Rewatching Gossip Girl after 8 years kind of seems like a fun idea