okay, let me try to be half as literate as you were in your gift for me.

first of, let me apologize because this is such a mess- i'm honestly just so out of it recently (for 2 months now actually), like i can't think or process stuff? but i don't totally lose it because you've been keeping me grounded. and for that, i'm honestly really thankful.

but how amazing is it that we're still together after five months??? holy. i'm honestly still so surprised how in each and every day, we just continue to love each other more instead of falling apart. i've seen a lot of couples falling out at this point, and i used to not give it much thought since i never imagined i'd ever be in a relationship like this, but wow. it's a first.. most of my firsts are with you though, and i could never be happier. #noregratz. hing. im getting shy- and derPY AGAIN. gdi jinri get it together-- looks off. anyways. off to the main point i want to get across today.

i don't know if i'm going to make sense here, but yeah. i'm sure you're aware about the concept of yin and yang, right? the good and bad, the light and the dark, all that jazz. yin is described as the moon, darkness, negative, among other things. and yang, on the other hand, is the exact opposite- yang is the sun, light, everything positive. and as i've said before, [ rapmon voice ] you are my sun, one and only in the world. in times when my perception has been blinded by darkness, your warm, comforting light breaks in gently and made me see the world in a better perspective. OHHhhhhH god im cringing I CANT LITERATE. HELP. AHAHAHAHAHAH. *makes that cringe cringe finger hand movement bcs grr r rr rr*

breathes. okay. anyways, we both know this. i don't need to elABORATE THIS oh god. i am one with the dark. i am from the dark side. and you are everything bright and positive, yes. although, of course, a person can't solely only be this and that. i mean, we are the most unique creations He ever made- even on the hierarchy of creation, we are above angels and demons. i forgot what my religion professor said, but i think it's because we all have free will, to choose what we want for ourselves. i'm getting off topic.... ffs.

what i'm trying to say is that there's always a bit of yin in yang, and a bit of yang in yin. because we're all not born perfect; we somehow manage to live with our flaws and imperfections, right. and HAHAHA okay man this is really embarrassing and i dont really think i'm going to make sense here, but i just remembered how we were talking about us being the #ultim8OTP because we are #1ofakind (yessirrr) and, well. i can say that no, we aren't the ulitmate OTP- in fact, no one is?? right. it's all about ~taste~, and the other stuff i told u about this.

WELL LET'S JUST GET TO THE MAIN POINT

just like the quote up there, we're not meant to be perfect- we're meant to be whole, completed. you, in all honesty, complete me. you're absolutely perfect for me, just the way you are. i always told you how you can tame my demons, right. how just talking to you can make me forget all the bad things, how your words makes my mood go from 0 to 100. you fill all the gaps in me ( ;^ ) ayeee), and this might be a bit of s stretch but we just fit so well with each other. we have 5 months of experience to prove that, right? or is it still too short of a time.

sighs.

all i want to say is that you complete me, and it might be too early to say that but i know that i'm never going to take it back. whether we break up sometime soon or not, the fact that at one point in my life you have made me feel this way is enough for me to say that you complete me. you are the yang to my yin. and for that, and a hundred thousand more reasons that my brain cant process right now, i love you. with all my heart and soul.

actually, you know what? /i'm in love with you./ like, really bad. i say that i'm in love with you because i read somewhere that saying "i love you" means that my heart has made a connection to you, but saying that "i'm in love with you" means that i am invested in you, that i've put my whole self at risk just to be with you. that's the gist, at least. i forgot what it said exactly but ah. man. how long is this letter already. my eyes are stinging, my head feels a little woozy but it's okay. it's all worth it.

i hope that i made sense, because i honestly dont think i did- wheezes. i honestly just want to pay you back for all the wonderful things you gave me and for all the wonderful words you've said, but i'm just a potato. my brain is a mashed potato. looks off. i'll make it up to you, sooner or later. breathes. i'm sorry for this mess. i lOVE YOU. SO MUCH.

HAPPY FIFTH MONTHSARY TO US AGAIN! I HOPE YOU DON'T BREAK UP WITH ME BECAUSE OF THIS, OMG. i love you. i'm sooooo desperately in love with you. i love you a lot.