i like keeping fragile things x sometimes i break and sometimes i survive x i looked better but i felt worse x

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080909 - not just a date but a very long period x

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"The future that I want, has people who love me, has the time for me to return home and visit my family. I want to drive to the beach at night to see the stars in the night sky，to count the stars and make a wish." - hzt

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“My grandmother couldn’t write well and she couldn’t see very well either but she managed to write these letters, I don’t know how. I still carry it around with me because it gives me a lot of strength, and I will love my grandmother forever.” - key

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"I want to happen to look up at night at just the time to see a star race across darkness."

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=__= x i used to hate birthdays x

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如果你的生活经历了一场暴风雨，你要做的就是期待雨后的那缕彩虹。

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"it doesn't matter who starts first. there are flowers who bloom in the spring and there are flowers who bloom in the autumn. flowers have gotta bloom eventually." - daesung

"dreams are not for having." - taeyang

"dreams -- they're amazing things."

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dying doesn't stop you from existing

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等待太漫长，长的让人忘记一开始等待的意义。

"he orders you another cup of coffee, because he knows you well enough to know that more coffee is always the right answer."

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"It’s not because I have many enemies, I just have no one on my side. Because I didn’t want to get hurt, I became alone." - zico

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to remember:

• family members reactions when i open the door after locking myself inside and not answering upon first knock
• "we are very proud of you for surviving." - sisters
• "make sure you live until your 20th!" - dina
• aunt apologizing when she asked me to pass her penknife
• "thank you for not dying on me." - d
• that feeling when you still remember lyrics to songs a long time ago (happiness/nostalgia/accomplishment)

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08/03 -- cold morning, winter night

"If I’m not dead, there’s still other things to do." - jay.

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29/05 -- decreased meds \o/ 30/05 -- dance \o/