- I've been focusing on school again. This is good.
- I don't know if it's because I'm not distracted by J.
- I seriously thought that at AIDS Walk we had a connection. I was so happy to see him again. I was glowing and I was just so excited. I thought we would start over. I don't know why I thought he felt the same way. I waited for him to text me... and when he didn't, I did. And maybe it could've gone well. I told him to come to the getty with us. But then Brian said that might be too risky and too early to tell and so I backed off and said never mind. And then his texts got all short and really quite rude. And I know that if he really wanted to, he would talk to me.
- C sent me a box of Edible Arrangement fruits/chocolate as a surprise. It was a very nice gesture... however, I thought it was J the whole time. I seriously was anticipating that it would be J and my heart broke when I found out it was C.
- I haven't even given C any reason for him to think I'm interested
- He's a really nice guy, but I am not into him
- Why do I still like J anyway?
- I always think about how kind he used to be to me. He was so nice. I don't even know where to begin. He treated me not even as a princess but as a queen. He was my king. And then suddenly it stopped and he just became so rude. I know it's not right to miss him because that's not him anymore.
oct 24 2013 ∞
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