• I've just been drinking white rice wine while clearing up my head after midterms.
• cookies and wine
• This is great.

• Sometimes I hate my college because of the athletes, who feel so entitled to everything and think the run this entire school and walk around like they are the shit.
• Note to self: no matter how much you good you do or how much you are loved, there are people who will always hate you and they can tear you down. That does not mean you are unloved. In reality, you have a great support system.
• Studying politics has been great for examining my personal life and those who do not like me.
• See: Ned Stark for fictional reference.
• See also: Prince Dom Pedro II of the Empire of Brazil - his overthrow came suddenly and even without support; he had made Brazil an industrial nation and introduced free speech, protected human rights, and a developed economy. He was popular amon...

• I just saw Antoinette as I was past the law school. She got into UCLA law? It's such a good school too. I knew she was smart but I didn't know she was THAT smart. I was really inspired.
• and as I'm waiting at the bus stop, I see so many 0Ls with their books and one girl is tiny like me and Asian too and suddenly I am inspired all over again. I was having my doubts about law school in general but now I am motivated all over again. I just hate that my grades have dropped so low. I want to get into law school. I will.

• it is 5:12 am. That is the latest I have ever stayed up in college to study. How am I even awake!?
• 11:58 AM - I woke up at around 7:30, maybe 8, with slight ease. I am currently YRL studying. There is a couple in front of me - the boy just walked in and now they just keep kissing. I can't tell if I am jealous or annoyed. Mostly annoyed, really.
• Also, I feel skinny. My diet has been of addy, caffeine, and water. And it's mostly the first two. I like feeling skinny.
• I also have failed my 125 midterm. I studied so hard for that. I don't know what to think about myself. I don't think I am cut out for this school. Ugh. He gives out mostly A's and B's, which is quite reassuring but I am just not smart enough. On the other hand, I am enjoying my classes and actually learning.

• HELLO, cute guy on the bus today. We were matching, gray. I like your cardigan. I like your glasses. I like your style. Also, I saw that you had a broken hand. Wish I could get to know you. And you're not one of those super muscular guys. Maybe we shall bump into each other again.
• "You will remain the most beautiful doormat he has ever walked on." -Susana
  • hashtag, note to self.
• I don't want to study anymore.
• How am I alive? Coffee and adderall really do work.

I studied so hard for all of my midterms and I seriously was expecting an A on all of them and I haven't aced one at all. I am so upset with everything. I seriously feel so incompetent at this school.

Today in Tahoe, Isabel carried a real carrot around ALL day, because she wanted to save it to make a snowman (she was inspired by Frozen's character Olaf). Her childhood innocence set upon me a melancholic spirit. She is so happy and curious about the world, which I used to be.

It's like I can't talk to anyone anymore because I know it's not going to last. I miss being someone who used to trust and open up to others easily. It's taken me so much to get this far. Now I just want to close myself off to the world. I can't trust anyone anymore. I can trust my boyfriend, but that's only for now; we're going to end sooner than we expect, and that scares me. I haven't been able to turn to anyone in awhile besides him.

I literally don't remember the last time we were one pledge class after crossing. I had so much heart for epsilon class, for all five of you individually and as a class, and something changed. I tried to hold onto it but everyone seemed to be okay with the fact that something was missing-we were busy? Maybe. I'm disappointed with what the sorority has brought me. Maybe we struggle so hard as a chapter because we're only good for pledging and nothing else after that.

Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together. -Marilyn Monroe

My generation is not thin-skinned. People always say this about milennials, as we are exposed to "politically correct" (PC) terms. For example, professors and liberal media urge us to use "undocumented" rather than "illegal immigrant," because the word illegal carries such a strong, negative bearing with it. Opponents of non-politically correct terms argue that it is not meant to bear a heavy stigma but instead that it is realistic and the truth. For example, the undocumented student truly is illegal since he/she did come in illegally, that is, without papers and without going through the proper process.

I'm not going to argue what you should/should not use, because I see both sides.

But, I would argue that my generation is not thin-skinned. By asking us not to use certain terms, we are forced to expand our vocabulary. Furthermore, we are forced to ponder how we got to debating these t...