• We don't really talk much anymore, but he keeps messaging me every now and then. He said he wants to hang out and just be friends. I know I will be just friends with him eventually but I need time to heal. I'm upset and my heart hurts. I still adore him, surprisingly. I love this kid. He made me feel like a child again. But he said he just wants to focus on school and I get that and I respect that but that doesn't mean I'm any less upset. It's not like my grades didn't slip. We'd just have sex every morning and I would just go straight to class but I wouldn't study. My grades were terrible this past quarter. I know that's why he's doing this too but I don't know why he doesn't think we can't fix it up or agree that we need the time apart so we can come together again.
  • And August 17, I'm just going to have to pretend like nothing is phasing me at all.
jun 26 2013 ∞
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