- March 8th: Dinner at Nadia's, hennaing her shoulder while she watches Chef, Elana perching on the tall arm of the couch-chair. <3
- March 9th: Hearing about Lewis's typical morning/day in high school. So fun to think about his past and all the life he had before we knew each other.
- March 10th: Facilitating community meeting, fuckin' love writing on whiteboards okay.
- March 11th: Labyrinth during meditation today.
- March 12th: Giggling with Lewis on the front lawn in a beautiful afternoon.
- March 13th: Beautiful grad reviews (Ruby's, Addie's), free food and Bekins porch chilling until almost 7pm.
- March 14th: Bleachers with Sam and Iris, that moment when we were stuck in traffic talking to a horribly awkward and slightly racist lady in the car next to us.
- March 15th: Getting good things done in the library, walking back from the Plaza with Hannah Pope, Cassidy, Conner and Zack. I don't know why.
- March 16th: Being able to separate friend opinions from roommate issues a little in meditation today.
- March 17th: Java breakfast and Harlin forehead kisses
- March 18th: Fran telling me I'm the poster child of meditation class // snuggles & storytelling at the Napa Ave household.
- March 19th: Standing at the beautiful senior auction, wrapped in my wool blanket with Lewis.
- March 20th: Dancing with Sari in Nighttime Java while she holds the end of my sleeves and meeting her Oregon friends who are going to work at camp this summer!!
- March 21st: Augie's with Leah getting me out of bed at a reasonable hour.
- March 22nd: Z telling me he wants me and Sari to sing at his grad review.
- March 23rd: Dancing and instrument playing at the beginning of meditation class.
- March 24th: Seeing Lester again, learning that he & Fran are friends, getting to catch up.
- March 25th: Sitting in the smoking circle with people talking about cigarettes and siblings.
- March 26th: Starting my day with Lewis on the couches (& OJ!) // Sari & Bet coming to hang out and visit me and then the lovely communal feel in Java during Karaoke night...especially Slime. Omg.
- March 27th: Grandparents // Staying at the Napa house for like two hours talking out back with Nadia and Elana about our problems.
- March 28th: Third floor chillin' around the nook after hours on the computer - stick and poke tattoos and throwing sports bras and prosepective students and free bowls of spinach. <3
- March 29th: Hours and hours of snuggle time with Lewis ~
- March 30th: That moment in Narratives of Addiction when Julie called Z out on being high.
- March 31st: Hammock stacking, chalk drawing, Head & Heart singing, tour stopping, dog playing, good Bekins lawn day.
- April 1st: When the table outside the commons that was playing Drop It Like Its Hot had technical issues and the music kept skipping, 'cause I had it when people play loud music there.
- April 2nd: Playing kill fuck marry, Jon seeing that we were playing and shouting "don't kill me!"
- April 3rd: All of Z's grad review. His dad crying, question answering, story telling, so much love, song singing.
- April 4th: Playing that balls on a string game with Lewis, Kamal, Malik, Jon.
- April 5th: All day in bed with Lewis. Fuck yes.
- April 6th: Hitting Harlin in the face with a banana peel.
- April 7th: Getting Blue Magnet & Firehose on Toontown...
- April 8th: Lorenzo helping me with scheduling Econ for next year :) :)
- April 9th: Harlins photos at the art show. Beautiful displays of friends and love.
- April 10th: Watching the sign be stolen from the basement and running to the Napa house with Lewis to scheme about what happened and how to get back at Chi Rho Psi.
- April 11th: Olive Market with Leah to homework and talk about important things, a little girl yelling at us that her friend is crazy. <3
- April 12th: Realizing how peaceful I felt today at the Buddhist Monastary, and afterwards. Thank you Nina!
- April 13th: Learning astrology things. I.e. pluto and Scorpio in the fourth house amirite?
- April 14th: Lewis & I being cute (well, to us) and kissing a lot on the side steps of Bekins. He is nice.
- April 15th: Happy baby at Augie's oh my GOD.
- April 16th: That moment under Kelsey's scarf with her Lewis and Leo, and Leo saying that everyone will recognize us because of our bodies, and that we are all here because of our unique and recognizable bodies, fate/God brought us here. And then Kelsey wrapping herself in the scarf and doing a hilarious voice.
- April 17th: Courtney and Blair dessert and baby photo adventures saving me tonight.
- April 18th: Own room own room own room!
- April 19th: Board games with Nadia harlin Mallory.
- April 20th: The dream Mallory made up during the dream game.
- April 21st: Tofu on beach/trail walks.
- April 22nd: Happy beach dogs in Santa Barbara and finding out that I talked to the founder of Netflix on the phone a few weeks ago?!
- April 23rd: Driving in with Baph listening to Coldplay as we wind down the highways.
- April 24th: Making good dinner food with Lew, grilled cheese and cauliflower with Ella Fitz and Louis Arm playing.
- April 25th: Seeing JPugs in his USC frat house || Saying I want chocolate and Lewis literally having Nutella on his finger already.
- April 26th: Sunset beach walks and snuggles with Lewis and my perfect wool blanket.
- April 27th: Community study class tonight and everyone just getting so stoked on helping freshman and community building and O-Week in general. I love being a buffalo.
- April 28th: Eight people on my bed playing Anomia. Magical laughter. Courtney accidentally saying "1,000$ Period" instead of "Pyramid", also. <3
- April 29th: Being in Baph's room with him and Benji and Maggie talking about politics and jazz and classes and road trips, making a pizzadilla.
- April 30th: Driving by myself to Mount San Jacinto College and being devastated but also inspired by The Hunting Ground.
- May 1st: Going to JCA Shalom and everyone being so welcoming <3
- May 2nd: Kennedy shouting excitedly "THEY'RE TEENAGERS!!!" at Blair and Anna playing in the pool. // Getting excited with Elijah to play 20 questions with each other.
- May 3rd: One year sobriety party for Courtney <3
- May 4th: Getting super inspired tonight at the BLACC talk about everything happening in Baltimore; safe spaces to listen and talk about things are nice.
- May 5th: Maggie being the best and helping me and Blair talk out our feelings after class today about people's ignorance on gendered bathrooms. Halllpppp.
- May 6th: Crepes of Wrath run with the best crew.
- May 7th: Augies stamp on their cups today was a picture of a pug and it said "Daugies" :)
- May 8th: Talking with Maddie about IUDs and sex and cervixes.
- May 9th: Getting to hang out with Amelia a lot today, being able to talk about things going on with Lewis and sex and stuff.
- May 10th: Mom reacting positively to everything and helping me be strong and know things will be ok, Amelia supporting me so much this morning.
- May 11th: Those moments of rough housing with Lewis in my bed as You Can't Always Get What You Want plays loudly, trying to kiss each other, love love.
- May 12th: Thank you Headspace for helping me meditate happily and when I need to.
- May 13th: Chicken and waffles with a lovely large group of buffalo, getting to know Kelly and Johnston history.
- May 14th: Getting to talk to Maggie for like an hour in her room today . Dlkfjsdlkfjff
- May 15th: Getting my ears cleaned :O Who knew things would all be this loud and clear?
- May 16th: That moment when Devin, Mallory, & I were running through the crowd with the Buffest sign that had fallen down.
- May 17th: C-Staff meeting! So excited for August and to be a leader in this community next year. Yes yes yes
- May 18th: Stamping hella envelopes tonight for all the incoming freshman's zines.
- May 19th: Kelly having us all discuss / reminisce / talk about this year during community meeting today instead of us all running away after a 20 minute meeting.
- May 20th: At Maya's playing Contact and talking in slow motion 'cause she says she hates it when things are done slowly in front of her.
- May 21st: BEING NOT PREGNANT.
- May 22nd: Belting Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry off the Haven porch with Courtney Maggie Blair Riley Amelia.
- May 23rd: Stretching sessions and collage and print making with Nadia. :) Good "interim" day.
- May 24th: Bananagrams with Andrew & Lauren.
- May 25th: Larry Sultan's photo exhibit at the LACMA :) :)
- May 26th: Lots of walking with Lewis, to Andante, the Grove/Barnes N Noble, feeling good to be mobile around here.
- May 27th: Astro astro astro <3
- May 28th: Getting to talk to mom on the phone while on a walk.
- May 29th: Backyard bowls with Lewbear
- May 30th: Spontaneous fish tacos at Ocean Beach. yummm
- May 31st: Spending all day in Riley's peaceful backyard with them & Amelia & Lewis.
- June 1st: Getting to eat and hang out with Lauren || New Social Experiment album listening & Palo Santo lighting & snuggling with Lewis.
- June 2nd: Walking, running, swimming down the beach by myself in Santa Monica. I'm gonna be okay.
- June 3rd: Good juice & astrology alone time at Andante.
- June 4th: Amazing sex with Lewis. Feeling light.
- June 5th: Spontaneously going to the Beverly Center, that moment Lewis told me he loved me because I'd go with him, Starbursts and paper cups in my bag, running around Uniqlo with Lewis, buying amazing underwear.
- June 6th: Glimpses of other ways to look at this city. I don't know if I ever will, but those breaths of fresh air and looking up at the sky helps.
- June 7th: That moment when Lewis and I ended up on a random path in Griffith Park that went underneath the Observatory and alongside this cafe, telling this woman "I don't know how we got here."
- June 8th: Binge watching Louie with Lewis, walking and ending up at American Apparel and trying on different outfits.
- June 9th: Going to Jon & Marcuss house, going to In N Out with their friends and talking about stealing the "quality you can taste" neon sign.
- June 10th: Amazing rainbow house relaxing and rooftop talking and Anomia playing in the perfect nook.
- June 11th: So many dogs today! Yoga with Zula and then petting that random French Bulldog in Fairfax and Molly at Leah's!!!!
- June 12th: Petting a pug named Wrinkles in the parking lot by Leah's coffee shop.
- June 13th: Camp camp camp!! & that moment I realized we were singing Taps in Hebrew.
- June 14th: Talking with Sari by the lake until late.
- June 15th: Playing the obstacle course game with day camp!
- June 16th: On the roads end beach in Lincoln city, watching people throw chips in the air and seagulls trying to fly against the wind all at once.
- June 17th: Sam Swire and Yotam running through the staff auction crowd with their shell pictures and shouting "I DONT KNOW WHAT THESE ARE!"
- June 18th: Lou saying he is happy to see me \\ bonding with Shelby during dinner at Roadhouse today.
- June 19th: Mama Cheryl talking to me on the bench on the hill at sunset and letting me cry on her shoulder. \\ Music Adam saying "Thank You Based Veronica".
- June 20th: Four square at the yurt!!!
- June 21st: Going late to the dance and everyone asking where I was and being excited I was there.
- June 22nd: Getting to talk to Mom on the phone for a while tonight before camp really starts.
- June 23rd: Unit head's puppet show at staff skit night...Jacks puppet dancing at the end...
- June 24th: Swinging on the swings and getting to know Aqua Ben.
- June 25th: Laughing my ass off at Roadhouse tonight with Ben Mac, Jacson, & Adam. Feeling good to have a fun time with good people.
- June 26th: Tubing with Blake!
- June 27th: Walking on the foggy beach with Lou and Cole, Cole looking at my pee, finding a log that said PLEASE HELP US.
- June 28th: Coffee shop chillin for hours listening to Dad's music and planning my yoga and tea skill builder!
- June 29th: Jake & Will teaching me how to play guitar.
- June 30th: Playing my music after dinner today!!!
- July 1st: Running around the coolest playground with Day Camp today and pretending that Ryder and Cycoya killed me and becoming a zombie.
- July 2nd: The tea day of my skill builder going so well :3
- July 3rd: Playing Wagon Wheel decently well on the guitar then going to the dock with Shelbey.
- July 4th: Driving Chucks car to Portland and then peeing in his bathroom || Watching fireworks on the river in Portland with Adi and Nimi.
- July 5th: Waking up to Radical Face and barbecue preparations in Adi's peaceful house.
- July 6th: Hanging out in the cabin with Taylor while everyone else was at lounge.
- July 7th: Cheese factory with day camp and me/Amelia's cheese puffs group just being so awesome and cute || Skanking and moshing and dance move making with Talia and Purple and Cole as Wills band Crushing Crayons plays at camp.
- July 8th: Slip N' Slide with day camp during aftercare! <3
- July 9th: Making the best snapchats with Cole featuring pick up lines and face slaps and Ben Howard on the dark windy road back to camp.
- July 10th: Realizing I maybe feel very at home here. Good talks in the cabin with my co counselors for once.
- July 11th: Making costumes & dressing up as the aliens from Toy Story with Adi and Dennes!
- July 12th: Mao with day camp staff and more at the Mirpeset!
- July 13th: LITs coming to help with day camp || Working out for the first time in forever, playing guitar, buying climbing shoes. Feeling good.
- July 14th: Realizing that my LITs really like me and I really like them. Camp is good and I got so lucky this session.
- July 15th: Sitting on the hill with Morgan and Nadia and Purple.
- July 16th: Making a route on the Teva shack with Purple :)
- July 17th: Crunching leaves with Daisy to keep her from crying.
- July 18th: White water rafting down the White Salmon river & jumping off 20 foot cliffs.
- July 19th: POWELLS BOOKS. The biggest in the world with the best cafe. Can I move to Portland yet?
- July 20th: Hugging everyone in the hug line even though I'm not leaving. I just wanna hug ok?
- July 21st: Wandering around the Devil's Punchbowl area with Mark & Ethan & Alex, hiking around beautiful beaches and cliffs before heading to Newport.
- July 22nd: Making the dopest solar system welcome sign for S5 with Simona and Hollie and Abigail.
- July 23rd: Getting lifted up & spun around in a trash can on stage in front of all of camp to David Bowie's Space Oddity. Go day camp!?
- July 24th: Tish with some S5 girls, feeling like a good counselor & getting into the songs.
- July 25th: Driving to Portland with Lou, talking about life and listening to good music.
- July 26th: Getting to hang out with Noel & Jeudi & Davida today and talk about family things. So interesting to hear new perspectives on my family's stories and anxiety and things.
- July 27th: Playing Title & Registration all the way through on guitar :3
- July 28th: Beautiful hike & view at High Meadow today. So refreshing.
- June 29th: That moment when all my day campers attacked me with water on the ball field || The other moment when Ellie & Cycoya talked about how there's no such thing as boy colors or girl colors or boy/girl clothes. || Jory telling me he loves me. || Being BB Man & BB Woman with Alex!
- July 30th: Cross the line & compliment circle with S5.
- July 31st: Olympics with day camp, helping kids find army men and seeing them all eat cupcakes with no hands.
- August 1st: Free food at Shelbey's cousins bar mitzvah..
- August 2nd: Climbing with Cole Clement & Purple, & good continuous hot seat/open forum car ride on the way back. || The moment I said I'm not with anyone and Cole immediately began choking on his Chex Mix.
- August 3rd: Reading a book about electricity & global warming to Dominick & Zachary, they're just the smartest cutest kids.
- August 4th: Being put in charge of the Day Camp cheese factory field trip AND being picked for a judge for Maccabia. Holy shit
- August 5th: Actually the longest 24 hours of my life. What sums it up could be - feeling the honor and trust that comes with being a judge at Maccabia. From Tarzan to 80s Workout Gurus to The Wiggles to Pirates to Rappers.
- August 6th: Day Camp sleepover! Having the Rascals at degel and dinner was SO COOL.
- August 7th: Day Camp slideshow, crying with Kristy, bursting into tears again when Dominick & Zach leave and Cole tries to tell me a joke, singing "Everywhere we go" with the day camp crew to finish off the last day, making PB&J's for Shabbat under a tarp in the rain outside because the power was out. Sorry not sorry for all the smiles.
- August 8th: Driving up and down the 101 with Christian looking for a stupid truck stop but not having a care in the world.
- August 9th: Drawing and writing in Christian's sketchbook on a weird structure on the beach || That moment when we were both playing one guitar and it was kinda working.
- August 10th: Passing around Spooey and talking in the last night in the cabin.
- August 11th: What is today. How to leave this place?
- "Oh, I see! In Hebrew, pot means vagina!" "Ohh! Pot, vagina! Vagina, pot!"
- Turning dirt in the garden & talking around a garden bed with Cole Nadia Fishman Natalie Jessica Adrian
- That moment while composting when Adrian just felt really good because of good music and good people
- At dinner, talking about pooping with Ethan but Mayer and Drew thought we were talking about having sex. ("I'm not that big either!" "I'll explode!")
- Peeing on the dining hall roof with Lou even though he didn't FUCKING pee.
- The adorable note card letters to and from staff.
- Purple day camp hats from Sari!!! Love this fuckin team
- Holy shit, telling Purple in the letter that I wanna hook up with him, and him following through and having sex with Purple what what what what what
- August 12th: Those last few moments at camp - Michelle saying she could make me a job, telling Adrian "right back at you" about his letter, screaming out the car window as we leave the camp gates.
- August 13th: Screaming as we suddenly see Crater Lake come into view, jumping off a 20 foot cliff into the perfect clear blue water, eating snacks in our mother fucking teepee.
- August 14th: Beach bouldering and ocean wading in Humboldt with Christian, Will, Nadia & Kristie.
- August 15th: That moment seeing all the internationals in San Francisco - getting to hug them again as we drop off Kristie, waving goodbye to them all as we drive away and realize our last remnant of camp is over.
- August 16th: Fuckin' jamming by myself in the far today and feeling like a real adult. \\ Seeing Sage and just catching up with her - thank god for friends everywhere!
- August 17th: All the C-Staff together for the first time. Leggooo!
- August 18th: Realizing I'm ok with not having all my things yet; better at being mobile and not always perfectly settled.
- August 19th: Jamming out in the staff van to "Cheerleader" <3
- August 20th: "All the sinks were broken so I got on too much ass"
- August 21st: Friends taking care of me when I'm sicker than I've ever been is the best feeling.
- August 22nd: Hanging out with Maddie Tschauner in my bed catching up on life!
- August 23rd: Moving in the first freshman!!!! Aaah
- August 24th: Talking to PSafe and them telling us that Johnston are the ones that smoke the weed and imitating a drunk Jasmine...
- August 25th: Staff meetings imitating Tidoe, taking selfies, talking about Pro Staff, etc...
- August 26th: That moment in Java with returners and freshman, making food, talking about old Johnston stories and singing Pink.
- August 27th: Rock climbing.
- August 28th: Performing a spoken word poem about vending machine deaths at the staff variety show. <3
- August 29th: Strumming on my guitar in Holt Lobby as C-Staff plays the game of Life.
- August 30th: Spending the morning/afternoon working on my bulletin board. I like being crafty and putting in the effort and seeing how good things come out in the end.
- August 31st: Silliness during blue tag training with Slobes - literally climbing around a chair as he tries to dump me out of it. & #BDTUBS.
- September 1st: Peaceful journaling at Augies on a beautiful day.
- September 2nd: That moment when I heard Elise's Mom say on the phone to her, "sweetie you hit the jackpot with your CA."
- September 3rd: That moment when we were all playing Sardines, hiding on the steps up to the roof singing "row row row your boat" together (in a round..) because the last two groups couldn't find us. Buffa-fucking-love
- September 4th: Danny driving Maddie around in his Chariot, which is really just a big tricycle with a basket on the back.
- September 5th: Venting about things and then doing yoga poses in my room with Courtney and Blair.
- September 6th: Amazing dinner outside the fishbowl with ~16 amazing friends. Talking about camp and summers and ahh <3
- September 7th: Smoothies with Elise // Closer to Fine with Sari both in my room and then at the open mic :3
- September 8th: Hanging out in the library for forever with Leah & Elana & Mallory - talking about their "Searching for Black Sun" pool party and Elana "itching" to go to complex.
- September 9th: Smalls snoring in Self in Society \\ playing guitar in the smoking circle as Courtney reads beautiful spoken word.
- September 10th: Sun showers // seeing Amelia happy tonight.
- September 11th: Julia telling the story about Laura coming up to her in the Commons and trying to ask her about Slobes ahhhhhHHH
- September 12th: Perfect pool day at the Napa house. Playing on the rafts, good hammock conversations, singing King Kunta on the side of the pool with everyone.
- September 13th: Bekins basement Z Lew and Kamal typing up a poem on Maddie's typewriter and arguing about which words to use "Oh table?! That is a SICK word!"
- September 14th: Talking to Dad for an hour on the phone eeearrly this morning.
- September 15th: Coffee dates with Maddie in the library and then watching the rain pour down outside as I get homework done.
- September 16th: Hanging with Leah in her house until very late, good necessary conversation and "feelin' weird" in the garage with her and Elana and Kelsey.
- September 17th: Showing Christian around this beautiful place // An amazing porch party filled with good music and down by the banks?!
- September 18th: Talking with Christian in bed late at night about how I see climbing and surfing as his girlfriends and just about life and what makes us happy and what we are doing and sldjfsdf.
- September 19th: That moment when me Christian Sera and Will were holding onto the back of some guy's truck on the dirt road up to Boulder Basin. // Sending that fucking v4 at the end of the day.
- September 20th: Being able to talk things out with Blair and then Christian. Thankful for good friends inspiring me to say what I need to say so I can be a better person.
- September 21st: Running to Duke fire escape with Christian at sunset then staying there for like an hour.
- September 22nd: Trying on hella clothes in my room and then Julia's room with Leah and Sari // that moment when Sari scooted into my photo with her pants around her ankles, and when Julia had a much higher threshold for "nice" than us.
- September 23rd: Wearing what I want, including lipstick, not giving a fuck and looking good doing it.
- September 24th: Olive Market with Leah, laughing like hell about my reactions to Parker, and her guessing my middle name. Been feeling super close with her this year and it's wonderful.
- September 25th: Peeing on Grossmont with Amby for the last ten minutes of her nineteenth birthday.
- September 26th: Sitting on top of some random concrete water tank in the desert with Leah, drinking cider and dancing as the sun goes down.
- September 27th: Eating Danny's cookie in the library as the films me & then feeding a bite to Matthew.
- September 28th: Climbing with Austin!
- September 29th: Hilarious duty rounds tonight, Bekins shenans the basement and 2nd floor, getting to know freshman better.
- September 30th: Skyping with Alice tonight. She took notes as I told her about my life <3
- October 1st: Beautiful day at Tram with Texas, that hilarious fall I took off of Gluttony as I bounced way off the pads, but feeling so good to make even little bit of progress.
- October 2nd: Sitting on my bed with Maggie Courtney and Blair, playing guitar, feeling lovely to have friends in my room. // Feeling like talking things out with Maddie helps in the most necessary ways.
- October 3rd: Jamming with Jewel & Lana on the rooftop balcony of our GYST house in Joshua Tree // Falling asleep next to beautiful people, seeing a shooting star with Maddie and having a fuckin' moment. // The vibes of 90 wonderful people in a house in nature, all working together to make something beautiful. <3
- October 4th: Being there for Zoe and getting to know her more, & then being dumb as shit with Amelia & Riley & Chris in my room. Much needed bonding with people.
- October 5th: A truly good conversation in Self and Society today, that made me think about what the self is in relation to technology and how that platform makes us either more or less ourselves.
- October 6th: Savannah showing me her dead pug collection and the cotton candy that her mom sent her that like contracted and got rock hard on the plane. // Also finding old videos of Slobes reciting poetry on Youtube with Blair.
- October 7th: Letting shit out in staff meeting. Heavy vibes but needed venting. I love these people even though it doesn't always seem like I do.
- October 8th: Jammin' with Sari and Harlin in my bed! Truly missed big bed jam sessions
- October 9th: Standing on the porch in the late afternoon with music playing, talking about mercury retrograde and fall break plans.
- October 10th: Driving to the Milks and insisting we move things in the car so Austin can see, blasting Viva Discordia on Buttermilk Road.
- October 11th: A decent go on High Plains Drifter \\ that beautiful moment reuniting with Alice on Buttermilk Road at like 11pm with our headlamps slowly running towards each other.
- October 12th: Sunset sessions at Go Granny Go with Alice, Dana, two hilarious slightly drunk guys who said whatever the fuck they wanted, and a weiner dog named Loki.
- October 13th: That moment in the Schatz bathroom with an old lady who couldn't figure out the automatic sink and looked at me in shock when I got it // Spontaneously stopping by the Napa house & Kelsey bitching about her brother and her coworkers.
- October 14th: John Walsh fist bumping me after class today.
- October 15th: Social vibes, from nook Christmas lights to Amelia in the smoking circle to Maddie (& Maddie! & Blair!) in my room until 3 in the morning, I felt more like a good CA today.
- October 16th: Going back to my room and playing a bunch of new songs on guitar.
- October 17th: Badminton with Chris after feeling the shit out of beautiful music on Bekins lawn today.
- October 18th: Really fucking feeling my Sociology readings today and reading all of them both and loving it // that moment with Blair in her room before making staff dinner when she was looking EVERYWHERE for her keys and I tried to get into her hammock which was so high up and it fell on the floor and everything was happening at once.
- October 19th: Stress drives up Route 330 into the fog. Will miss these roads. Will I miss it here?
- October 20th: All of second floor coming together late at night to spontaneously clean the chalk prank that was left all over the walls. Buffalove.
- October 21st: Feeling good about articulating all of my feelings, especially to Christian during our long productive phone conversation tonight.
- October 22nd: Jammin' on the porch after the porch party got moved inside.
- October 23rd: Insane but beautiful emotions and conversations and debates and energy and yelling and loving today in Bekins 8 with Maddie, Jon and Elana.
- October 24th: Dirty Jenga hilarity at the Napa house with beautiful people tonight. Elana freaking out about how every time she turns around someone else is naked. Me spitting in Riley's drink, and then Matthew spitting in Riley's drink.
- October 25th: Art Walk with Sari! Petting a pug while waiting for our crepes. :)
- October 26th: Hilarity in Econ when Jason wrote "bugs" but it looked like "bus", and then he went on to talk about the relationship between the utility of public transportation vs. barbecue.
- October 27th: Chad walking into Augie's, and then Courtney walking in immediately after, and then Yvette later. Running into people I know makes me feel so at home.
- October 28th: Movie night with myself in my bed. Snuggly AF and letting myself be doing nothing and just watching outdoorsy inspiring things.
- October 29th: Learning that Leah and I are taking the same classes, both wanna hike the Appalachian Trail, and go to Narpoa... || Jammin' the fuck out in my room on the guitar, with Sari, and a bunch of other people, in my hammock, to Wagon Wheel and other beautiful songs, lovely night.
- October 30th: So many people at the gym today! Climbing a bit of sport with Sari and Evan and Jake :)
- October 31st: Watching Halloweentown with Julia Blair and Maggie all snuggled up in my bed.
- November 1st: Wonderful, deep conversations with Chad in Augie's. I need more people like him in life.
- November 2nd: Finishing up Tidoe/Henry/Petosa's blunt after Slobes wrote them up for HOT BOXING THE JAM ROOM.
- November 3rd: The funniest community meeting - including Kai quaker shaking to Maya being a pain in the ass, and Leah saying that her and Mallory roll around on the floor of the meditation room.
- November 4th: Johnston Trivia night! And playing the floor is lava without our hands or feet with a blown up condom afterwards.
- November 5th: Sunset movement behind Holt with LCD Soundsystem playing || Climbing with Sari - so much climbing recently!!
- November 6th: Hella productive reading (Spark - exercise & the brain) in Augie's today || Performing Built to Roam at open mic :3
- November 7th: Coming up with different things that SRAP could stand for with Maggie & Julia.
- November 8th: Really taking my time with my check in at staff meeting and letting it all out.
- November 9th: Elise staying in my room for a long time tonight talking and jamming on my guitar.
- November 10th: Elana drawing Julie & Harlin on the board while facilitating today.
- November 11th: That moment in JPC when Henry was like "we had just gotten a bunch of...the stuff we were smoking...and we were really excited about it"
- November 12th: Painting and writing and US state competitions in Saris room until midnight.
- November 13th: The fact that everyone I whispered to today (because I lost my voice) whispered back. Strange sociological phenomenon.
- November 14th: Napa house card game where the cards just tell you to do random shit || Matthew kissing me.
- November 15th: Nike outlet with Sari & getting new running shoes, so now I have to start running.
- November 16th: Talking with Christian about expectations of people, being on our own trajectory, relying on people, etc. I think we learn a lot about ourselves when we talk sometimes and I like making him think.
- November 17th: Playing music and cleaning my car with Julia outside of an Ontario Airport terminal || Buffalo community photo on the steps, people kept showing up late and everyone would shout so loudly for them to hurry up.
- November 18th: Seeing how many fucking people (700!) were at the racism/cultural appropriation/etc. forum in Orton last night. Inspiring and sad and honest and so so powerful.
- November 19th: Finding out Jason (my econ teacher) has climbed for longer than me and used to set and climb in SLC oh my god.
- November 20th: That moment in OP when I was wearing my new "no whining" helmet, jamming Down in the Valley on the guitar with Kobi, getting so into it and people singing along and Hollis laughing at me.
- November 21st: That moment when I saw Andrew and knew he was Christian's friend, and he knew I was looking for Christian.
- November 22nd: Happies sesh by myself // Sending Slap Happy and almost Big Chicken, running into Sol, meeting good people.
- November 23rd: Doing what's best for me and my time and dipping, even if it's hard as shit. // Back porch guitar jamming like Z.
- November 24th: Driving at night under an almost full moon through the Santa Cruz mountains, with good music playing, screaming with my tongue out the window, smelling the trees, thank god for Mallory Maya and Emily.
- November 25th: Pizza and salad and pie making with friends in this beautiful mountain house!
- November 26th: Grateful for families of Maya's that take us in for Thanksgiving, drying dishes and talking about astrology with unexpected people.
- November 27th: Beautiful Friendsgiving at Kai's with lovely brunch and lovely people, dance party later - laying on the floor with people dancing around me.
- November 28th: Literally inhaling amazing Indian food in the Mission district tonight.
- November 29th: In the last bit of the longest car ride, playing that game with Leah where you have to try to say the same word, fuckin' killing it and freaking out every time.
- November 30th: Blasting angry Say Anything, ripping things off the walls that I don't want to see anymore, getting dressed in a dope outfit.
- December 1st: Finally crying during staff meeting.
- December 2nd: People needing me today. || Dinner of pecan pie & quesadillas with the best fuckin' cheese with Sari in Java.
- December 3rd: Jamming the fuck out in the jam room past midnight with Leah Sari ADRIAN Sean Evan Livvy Angie <3 <3
- December 4th: Busy buzzing day. Olive Market reading, smoothie bowls with Blair, Sari's grad review, Most Likely to Succeed and inspired laughter with buffaloooo. Lots of love
- December 5th: Me and Sari and Adrian giving each other spongebob tattoos on our butts || breaking multiple glasses on the floor at Johnnys tacos || making out with Mallory and then harlin joining in after waiting over us... || Abry saying "best of the night" AHHHH
- December 6th: Chad getting me || Livvy peeing.
- December 7th: Improv night hilarity, including Conner making up this guy Jeff behind Costco who licks people, and everyone fucking the neighbor.
- December 8th: Olive Market productivity - bringing back many books, a conversation with a random man about microwaves and again, being interviewed by William about rock climbing.
- December 9th: Climbing for a long time with Jared and hanging out behind the front desk.
- December 10th: Harlin telling me I'm one of their favorite people to make laugh.
- December 11: Tractor sunset psychology games with Leah. || Cards of Humanity with beautiful buffalo on Saris last night. || GROUP SIT
- December 12: Dance Co with Leah and Kelsey, laughing at the descriptions and dancing outside the theater afterwards.
- December 13: Cartwheels outside Augies with Leah.
- December 14: Taking Leah climbing and her being SO insipired by it, fitting right in. And Jared making fun of me for my falling comic strip sound effects.
- December 15: Olive Market catching up with Nadia, always taking 294738 years to just tell one story, love.
- December 16th: Running along a new road that I don't usually run on (the one by Hangar 24) and afterwards, dumping water all over my face.
- December 17th: Eating strange assortments of food in Java and jamming out to the car wash song.
- December 18th: Slipping and sliding around an icy road in Idyllwild with Nadia and Matthew! || Spending so fucking long working on that pulley with Slobes.
- December 19th: Matthew making a card with a stamp of a dog and then using the stamps to spell out, "This Is Not A Dog", and then realizing that that probably isn't a good card to give someone with Alzheimer's.
- December 20th: That moment outside a toy store downtown with Courtney, augies to go cups in one hand, our other hands reaching down to play with moon sand, talking intensely about mommy issues.
- December 21st: Talking to a no-longer stranger named Evan for pretty much the entire four hour flight from Las Vegas to Baltimore.
- December 22nd: Making the most bomb salad with Nana!
- December 23rd: Splitting amazing beet salad & salmon & steak with Robin, & forging Nanas signature well.
- December 24th: Christmas eve dinner with the Jimreivats. Food has been a focus apparently...
- December 25th: Playing DiXit with the family :)
- December 26th: Mark fucking up on purpose in Cheers to the Gov'na so that Danny would have to talk shit about himself. I love these people too much...
- December 27th: Wandering & Renwick Gallery with Alice and Shmorgs!
- December 28th: Getting to Grammie Christmas early, helping her get ready and talking about working with kids.
- December 29th: Jamming on guitar to old songs with Dad.
- December 30th: A+ routes session with Kerry. Missed feeling good on lead & climbing with her.
- December 31st: Getting so into the game where you bounce a quarter into a shot glass, bringing in 2016 with the best people on top of a water tower with a view of Baltimore.
- January 1st: Sitting in the house reading all day - High Infatuation!
- January 2nd: Journaling and watercoloring and coffeeing and talking about boys and life decisions with Kerry :)
- January 3rd: Sitting around the dinner table with Jimreivats/Whites/Grammie talking about the time Tom couldn't pee in a jar and how Jim said he could do it and that he could even shit his pants if he wanted to.
- January 4th: That girl that I didn't know in the bathroom of ET giving me eye drops.
- January 5th: Climbing with Sari and actually trying hard on that 12 with Mark B giving me a catch.
- January 6th: That moment when Sari asked two women how they got into the White House and what they do there.
- January 8th: People in the Phoenix airport making me breakfast food after the normal hours || Someone on the plane overhearing me explain my emphasis and saying "it means she gives a shit about people".
- January 9th: That moment Leslie said to pair up with someone you're comfortable talking about difficult things with, and Slobes and I made eye contact and I galloped over to him.
- January 10th: Climbing with Jared and talking about metaphors for life and how we picture time and eeeeekk.
- January 11th: Another class with Fred begins, so so excited to think like this again.
- January 12th: Getting to the Ending Oppression classroom early and sitting barefoot on the floor with Jon and Leah and Harlin and talking about Yik Yak.
- January 13th: Singing Closing Time into the loudspeaker at Threshold tonight...at closing time.
- January 14th: Feeling so out of sorts and then eating chips and guac in Blair's bed til midnight and putting her leave in conditioner in my hair and feeling so much better.
- January 15th: Grad review scheduled!! Happy dayyyy
- January 16th: Making moves on Strawberry Contraceptives || burritos with Jared after climbing.
- January 17th: Walking to the Commons holding hands with Leah and Blair.
- January 18th: That moment Blair and I walked into the room in Orton where all the lights were off except for s spotlight on the snack table.
- January 19th: When Slobes said "the Annual Slobes Superbowl party" at community meeting and I said "hey, what does that abbreviate to?" and everyone laughed.
- January 20th: Laminating my lead belay certification card!!!!
- January 21st: Performing Good Ass Intro to the tune of Wagon Wheel at open mic with Har, then after having sex with Jared literally a moment later Harlin texted me saying "you done did it you did it you did a good ass job"
- January 22nd: Stripping into our underwear and making kale and eggs with Blair in Maya and Harlins room.
- January 23rd: Rubidoux with Jared, that moment when we were playing the game where you try to say the same word for like 40 minutes and we both got so happy when we finally, hiking down the mountain under the prettiest moon, both said the word "museum".
- January 24th: Jamming out to Mambo No 5 during C-Staff dinners.
- January 25th: Sitting in the gym talking with Jenna about setting and grades and how they don't matter and helping her pick out footholds.
- January 26th: Being in the cafe when we're supposed to be in class and not givin' a fuck with Leah Nina Danny.
- January 27th: Jon dancing in a suit about not being sued.
- January 28th: A nice dose of porch party
- January 29th: Camping off the side of the highway near Red Rocks with Jared, playing the guess the jellybean flavor game.
- January 30th: Getting so close on Monkey Bar Traverse v7 and making good friends at the boulder || The vibe at Angel Dyno when we were laughing at a group of people spectating from the path, and people were being so nice offering PB&J sandwiches etc.
- January 31st: Eating breakfast at Carolyn's and all calling dibs on speaking at Slobes' funeral depending on which way he dies (I got dibs if he dies while pooping).
- February 1st: Waking up to Kenton calling me from a Taco Bell in Maryland, just like he said he would, saying that he made it the whole month of January without eating fast food.
- February 2nd: LCD Soundsystem helping me cry, hugging Will, finding my toothpaste in my climbing bag.
- February 3rd: Laying in Harlin's bed until 1:30 AM laughing and talking about Johnston past.
- February 4th: The most amazing porch party in the world. Crowd surfing & "stop!" & a song for babies & Dance Yrself Clean & lap dances & leap frog & buffalove & a stretching circle with Slobes & Blair with Jake walks in.
- February 5th: While bowling with the homies, that moment when Jon was using the little dinosaur slide and sitting down in front of it and kept his arms up in the air while watching the ball roll down the aisle.
- February 6th: Beautiful happy road music with Leah and Sari today! Purple REI leggings / treat yo self
- February 7th: Driving Sari back home to camp on a beautiful breezy day.
- February 8th: Talking to Slobes late at night from our own rooms about CA apps etc. <3
- February 9th: Good session with Sam | Spontaneous rock climbing - Sport with Sera?!
- February 10th: The teddy bear that we had people hold as they gave CA input & pass onto the next person.
- February 11th: Slime fucking guessing a six digit passcode on the first random guess when picking up a phone at a porch party.
- February 12th: Chad saying he misses me when he doesn't see me.
- February 13th: Playing hot seat on the way back from the most spontaneous trip ever to Lake Arrowhead.
- February 14th: Eight hours of tough fucking decision making in a hot room is strangely my smile. I love the intentionality and commitment and thoughtfulness this place has. Buffalove
- February 15th: Great session with Jon today <3
- February 16th: Group work outside with a baby chick running around our papers and laps.
- February 17th: Washing our feet in Maggie's bathtub with Julia before staff meeting.
- February 18th: Open mic that bursts into dance parties multiple times <3
- February 19th: It's hard to think of something good for today. Maybe something like, getting avocado slices in my sandwich.
- February 20th: Ross and Rachel finally got together on Friends...?
- February 21st: Weird moments in Augies with Elise Charlotte Julianna Livvy when I realize I have forgotten how to be in public. || that moment with Kai watching the full moon rise over the mountains.
- February 22nd: In Harlins room, shouting random words at each other to replace "and" in their emphasis title.
- February 23rd: Jessica's playing her song that she wrote in Ending Oppression today :3
- February 24th: Running into Chad at Augie's while I was sitting in my car eating an apple, and going to Olive Market together.
- February 25th: Spontaneously buying a cake with a rainbow on it and bringing it to class on the quad.
- February 26th: Climbing with William at the Quarry and it made me feel so good, thank god for RC sessions helping anxiety about things || Groceries and delirious hunger and dinner with Leah!
- February 27th: Sending to chance the rapper || After a beautiful day climbing at tram, smoking the best joint and going to five guys with Lester and Joe.
- February 28th: Falling asleep at 8pm.
- February 29th: JJ singing Veronica by Elvis Costello and making everyone sing it with him.
- March 1st: Sitting on Duke fire escape counting how long it takes for flower petals to hit the ground.
- March 2nd: That moment when our simulation ended and Connor promptly got up, with his fake bloody head wrapped up, and tramped up the side of the gully we had been in for like 45 minutes, with his ripped clothes swaying behind him...omg. || Finding that steak Chipotle burrito for Slobes on the floor of OP.
- March 3rd: Saying the quiet game/monkey's uncle rhyme while studying for WFR at Panera and everyone actually being quiet.
- March 4th: Acting out the girl giving Alex horrible CPR, screaming that she was dying, and went deaf because her eardrums were blown out.
- March 5th: Group hug outside of OP after a week of WFR. Bittersweet. Oh, then getting high to Enya out back later that night.
- March 6th: Sitting in Blairs room with Jon Matthew and Harlin talking about our unexpected marriages and making a mask out of a thin mint box.
- March 7th: Good interactions with Jon today including snuggling on the couch, faceswapping with him, and him asking me if I feel a special connection between the two of us.
mar 10 2015 ∞
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