listography: mary

"I stopped when I saw the words Rape Victim in bold at the top of one sheet. A fish leapt out of the water. I paused. No, I do not consent to being a rape victim. If I signed on the line, would I become one? If I refused to sign, could I remain my regular self?"
"They could not undo what was done, but they could record it, photograph every millimeter of it, seal it into bags, force someone to look. Not once did they sigh or pity or poor thing me. They did not mistake my submission for weakness, so I did not feel a need to prove myself, to show them I was more than this. They knew. Shame could not breathe here, would be shooed away. So I made my body soft and gave it over to them, while my mind bobbed in the light stream of conversation. Which is why, thinking back on this memory with them, the discomfort and fear are secondary. The primary feeling was warmth."

aug 23 2021 ∞
dec 9 2021 +

to a life lived more intentionally.

jan 1 2021 ∞
jul 18 2022 +

A Tale of Two Cities

"It was one of those dark nights that hold their breath by the hour together, and then heave a long low sigh, and then hold their breath again."
"It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known."

Call Me By Your Name

"No, she would say, this one is too young still, youth has no shame, shame comes with age."
"And yet, he had shown me that what I wanted could be given and taken so naturally that one wonders why it needed such hand-wringing torment and shame."
"Oliver liked to keep the windows and shutters wide open in the afternoon, with just the swelling sheer curtains between us...

jun 25 2013 ∞
jul 18 2022 +

feb 8 2022 ∞
aug 3 2022 +

perennials

spring + summer

notables

nov 11 2021 ∞
aug 3 2022 +

eat

jan 23 2021 ∞
mar 15 2021 +

sep 24 2020 ∞
feb 13 2022 +

General

Antiracism

African American History: From Emancipation to the Present on Open Yale Courses
Anti-racism resources from Sarah Sophie Flicker and Alyssa Klein
Dive In Well Allyship e-workbook
Dive In Well Diversity e-workbook
Personal antiracism to-do list
Talking About Race on Smithsonian NMAAHC website

jun 14 2020 ∞
jun 15 2020 +

"I sing along and let myself feel transported and young. I smile. Whitney makes people smile, I've noticed... During “Golden Days,” everyone onstage looked extraordinarily, goofily happy, in that particular way that entering the world of a song—and feeling it let you in—can do."
- from here
This interview between Sir Elton John and Julien Ehrlich

sep 24 2019 ∞
jan 3 2021 +

Toiletries

Miscellaneous

aug 22 2018 ∞
oct 7 2020 +