• I realize that most things I enjoy are things that I don't understand/don't want to understand. Some things are just perfect on their own, without being understood. Sometimes things may be here just to enjoy. So take a moment out of your day, to just be. Not to think or to analyze or to do or to overcomplicate. Just be. Whenever life gets too complicated or messy I try to decipher what seperates my normally frazzelled self from my...complete self.

My overstressed/overworked self is:

• painfully aware of the people around her, and also painfully aware of what those people are thinking about her.
• tired. Just dead tired.
• stressed, and motivated mostly but short term things by tests
• thinks about deadlines a lot
• also tries to plan out every class she will take till she graduates, at least from undergrad
• would be terrified to be unprepared
• is also terrified of any visible flaw
• is terrified of tripping
• or just overall clumsiness
• can't relax

My actual self

• loves spontaneity
• does not give a damn about actual spelling (grammar is another matter)
• doesnt give a fuck if she stays up really really late
• likes the city, even the dirt and grime
• says what she wants, and likes it
• is very crazy and outgoing, in a good way
• is adventuresome
• doesnt mind if she has to do things on her own, who cares?
• wears whatever she feels like
• does not really consider the consequences.
• is not really sure what she wants to do in lief. design ads? write books? who cares!