• i have a lot of thoughts
• i don't know if this list should be private but i'm going to leave it in main for now. or maybe ongoing. i think ongoing.
• i think i can stay young for a long time if i stay inspired.
• to stay inspired i need to have added something personal to the place i spend a lot of time in. i love posters, writing on my desk and records on my walls
• i find it weird that i relax a lot when i'm drinking and i don't worry as much but i have twice the amount of thoughts
• i think i drink too much and i feel like a bad person because of it
• i think i'm quite a nasty person sometimes and i appreciate that my friends don't point this out but still accept me
• sometimes i wish i was better at asking people if they're okay
• sometimes i avoid asking people if they're okay because i don't know what to do if they're not. even if i can tell they're not.
• i always try to make people see the other side of something they are talking about. but sometimes i take it too far and i'm just contradicting everything they say. i lose focus
• i kinda like that i tell the truth when i'm drunk. i say i don't like people knowing things but really i wish i told people more.
• my mum always says that she gets on wtih lots of people because she isn't complicated, she tells it like it is. this worries me because i'm the most complicated person i know
• i laugh about the fact i lie a lot but really i think it makes me feel a bit lost.. this suddenly got so emo.
• i just realised there aren't any good things so i'm changing the direction of this
• i beleive i could be good at art if i tried more.
• the one thing i love about myself is my ability to play the piano (and my eyelashes)
• i think the only way i relax is by losing myself in things like art or music or inspiration. i'm not really sure how to relax, just forget things.
• i think i would miss a lot of things, i would be a better person in a lot of ways, if i wasn't so in denial. i am so good at lying to myself.
• i kinda get a kick out of talking about things that make me feel uncomfortable. infact, it's not even a kinda. i DO.
• this is not the end.

should this be private?