sometimes i don't feel i am allowed to be sad without an ultimatum attached. like my sadness is the final sadness.

i just have to streamline this double life. minimize. live out of a suitcase, vagabond drippings. prepare food in advance. stay strong wake up early.

perhaps morning feather bearers just have too much they have to see during the day and that is why they wake so early to capture a moment that =them.

also if he offends you "shake it off"

but i don't want to shake everything he says off..