when someone forgets my name... does that count as a micro aggression?

It sure felt like it

At first I thought maybe all my dislike for this dude has been felt energetically somehow. Or perhaps i have a huge ego? i dunno

Only two more weeks left of his class and he sucks and i won't take him again and i will move far far far away from this place.

how can his mentor adore me? they teach the same subject

sigh

i get so sad sometimes over people and concepts i loathe. it penetrates space in my mind and renders me disabled.

why is everything a split? i divorce myself from activities i enjoy for fear that it can't be proven in a study. I have to actively engage the idea that if it feels good and for that reason alone, it should be sound. But i don't trust myself these days. i think i use to. i am trying to follow my intuition.

People I have taken too much stock in and I don't want to anymore:

• my aunt
• my dad
• my bff
• my bf
• the world
• people in positions of power; my advisor or whomever

I need to seek advice from those who are living the life i want and have the kindness, consideration, and interests, and life experience that i want for myself.