i should have known that i would have been numb until friday. i don't have the option, the desperate urge to move out has never been stronger. If only i could get my shit together to write a damn resume for the zine. fear or laziness. desperation keeps my eyes open. You also feel the pain especially on weekends. We were weekend lovers. I should tread especially cautiously on these days.

the other man laughs nervously at my flirtatious tendencies. I don't think he has ever been charmed before. I have to lay low. Give him some time to miss me and for me to miss me.