i hate this world. i hate the way im forced to think and act. they tell me i have free speech but thats all just an illusion. i don't want to do things the way im supposed to. every day i feel more and more inclined to get up and leave this shitty town and everyone i know (except for shane). we could run away together and do anything we want. wouldn't life be so much better if we could just do what we want purely because it makes us happy? now im not saying we should be allowed to murder because it makes us happy, but i hate that we spend so long sitting in a classroom with homework, stress and deadlines only to graduate and spend the rest of our lives in an office with even more work, stress and deadlines when we could be actually living. doing things that make us happy. feeling raindrops on our skin and cuddling in a thunderstorm, snowball fights and adventure. i want to live. but im not allowed to.