2022

• abby feeding me raw meat
• dream girlfriend apologizing for the horrible christmas event and adding new outfits to make up for it
• going to a haunted house with abby, her brother, and her dad and we did not get very far into the house cause his brother and dad kept asking me to stop and do dances
• my homophobic coworker hannah, abby (not homophobic or my coworker), and i being in a car and we slammed into a cave wall and hannah could not stop the car also her hands were glued to the steering wheel? and so the car kept going into the cave but the cave got smaller and smaller so we listened to her scream and scream as her hands were mutilated and crushed, and abby and i were able to get out of the car just in time before we died like she did
• i was royalty and put into rock prison, and had to escape through these weird pipes so i shrunk myself really tiny and made my way through them, and abby lived in a hospital where a sign on one of the floors said 20 hour pregnancy care (i did not find out what that was all about) and i found out it was christmas and abby was like we need to ask the youngest to start dinner! and abbys sibling looked like a dr seuess character from how the grinch stole christmas
• the neighborhood cats beans came off but were not bleeding but it was still terrifying anyways
• splatoon 3 was canceled because all the copies fell off the ship it was being transported on
• i was the only person in the world not allowed to play the new splatoon game
• abby and i were in some sort of store and saw a soda called in the urbz and abby was SO upset and was like this soda is stealing the games thunder!!!!
• had this dream right before i met abby in person for the first time where we were both in a weird gas station, nowhere near where either of us live, and we had to go through a very long sectioned off line to get to the self check out and abby didn't notice i was behind them until she checked out and also she was 2 feet tall
• when my mirror self came out of the mirror and chased me around my house and i had to grab myself by the throat and stick my thumbs into my clones eyes, but my clone didn't react at all (also they looked like chara) just smiled at me and i messaged abby like "IM OUT OF THE MIRROR IM HERE IM HERE WHAT OD I DO IM SO SCARED" and abby was like "sam that isn't real don't worry it isn't happening" like usual when i tell him about my paranoia stuff then i sent pictures to her where i looked absolutely terrified while holding onto my mirror self and he was like "what the fuck"
• abby and i were playing splatoon anarchy battles and i did REALLY bad and made us lose, so abby didnt talk to me for 3 days straight and i was like :( abby :( abby :( im sorry :(!!!!

2023

• jun togawa dream where she decided she hated all her music being public and so she made it all digital only but this was before stuff like that was happening, so it was impossible tolisten to half her music because no one had it anymore and all the download links were dead and she was considered lost media
• it was 2028 and my dad had the button to blow up the world and had to be the one to press it cause the world was ending
• abby made a match 3 mobile game, and her own version of our collaborative playlist
• abby was texting me and was like im so sorry sam this isnt about cookie run (i was talking about cookie run before) but this is horrible news im so sorry i need to tell you and i was like what??? are you okay???? then i made myself wake up so i couldnt see what it was
• i was marrying my daughter off to royalty and louie my cat was there, and i was also my character luna talking about being buried in a commercial. also abbys oc jack was playing roblox with my oc lilith
• abby was telling me about ghost the band and was like u gotta check out their Instagram for their newest art! but the thing they posted was incomprehensible to me, i was literally peeping the horror and the bags of milk were full of mold
• i went to a record store to get abby some oingo boingo vinyls but i couldn't remember what she had, so i got all of them, and the record store owner was REALLY weird and the vinyls were in a cd book format and crumbled to dust when i took them out. my dad was also gaslighting me about the fact the store had always been there (it had not)
• i was turned into chocolate and was being chopped up!!
• bad teeth?
• abby was moving to a new state really far away and i was sooooooooooooo sad :( but she gave me a good tour of her new house virtually it was in vr?
• abby and i were riding the bus together (we got on it sneakily) and were sitting in the back, no one noticed us somehow, and there was an old woman in a hospital bed at the front in front of the bus entrance that we were called to come and look at for some reason. then her husband disappeared suddenly and both abby and the bus drivers eyes went completely black and their bodies were slack at the same time. i tried to do cpr on the old mans shirt cause i had no idea what else to do and i broke out of the dream by turning on my light in life
• except i DIDNT wake up yet and it went to a false awakening dream where a friend had rejoined the discord server after a month and had replied to ONLY my messages and EVERY single one i had sent, even the ones not related to him, saying shit like "YEAH GOOD LUCK IDIOT!" when i asked if anyone wanted to play games with me
• jerma had invested in the toilet paper industry, and i was in a polyamorus relationship with him and this girl except i wanted NOTHING to do with jerma romantically, i would not even sleep in the same bed with him so jerma and i took turns each night sleeping in the same bed with our girlfriend. also our girlfriend and me moderated his twitch chat. then one day jerma died out of NOWHERE and our girlfriend was really insistent not to look it up, then i woke up before i found out
• i lived in a building like the apartments in tomodachi life, and i was collecting many many rocks and saw the other people who lived in the apartment putting their own rocks with a big one and was like "hey. why?" and they told me to put my rocks up to my ear cause they're whispering to me! and so i went to my room and i did it and the rocks were whispering "father" over and over, so quietly i almost couldn't hear them, then as i brought them closer to the big they got louder. not talking volume, but when you put them up to your ear it was much easier to hear their whispers. after this, i went to do the same thing with a wintersmith (book by terry prachett) and it was whispering about what a good book it was
• abby and i were in an apocalypse and there was a baby we had to care for, and we found this one gathering of people (not many, just a tent with maybe 6 or 7 people) and i begged and begged and cried and pleaded to let us sleep just one night away from all the monsters and all they allowed was us using their tent bathroom. then we ran away, leaving the baby in our old house to die cause we couldn't care for it! we got lost in some ruins with a lot of really scary monsters and i tried to fight them off to protect abby but there were too many!
• abby was really annoyed with me for no reason (shes evil in my dreams sometimes) and also there was a pokemon that was so so rare and hard to catch, and you had ONE chance to get it. in any game, even on the poketwo discord bot, if you caught it in that game that was IT you only got one chance, and you couldn't trade it, which made the shiny extremely valuable but the pokemon itself was just a fancy fish with gold on it
• dreamwherr i had sgave 5 cancer andnji wanted to go out on my own terms so ismoked a lot of cigarettes and had a bjg etdmomy sth h ffuends all ofghem and then j xixnt did tet but i sas my dsd making hsrlibid on an auction cor him an bekdlt insiditn to bid higher then i weng to take to nkm sbiujf gh h suction experiencedes
• abby and her brother and dad were in a flying car then the car got horizontally split in half and landed in the middle of a pond, and abbys brother sang (beautifully btw) about their miseries as abby and her dad figured out how to get out of the situation
• nine inch nails released a new song that jun togawa covered, their songs were released on the same day, not as a collab she just really liked it. my dad heard me listening to it while i was making dinner and he did a little dance
• this was two dreams! the first was my mom briefing me on the serial killers plan and what he would do, how, and when! the second was i was living in my old house with the red dining room again and the serial killer was coming, and i had to protect my family from him. i had to close all the blinds and curtains as he came around my house to keep my mom safe, but i wasnt able to save my dad and i found his body in the bathroom. there were also two kpop stars talking on my balcony (my old house didnt have a balcony) and he was able to kill the one he wanted, even though i tried my best to make sure he didnt. after all of this happened there was an announcement we were gonna have a nuclear bomb dropped on us even though it would cancel the tony awards and we had to get to shelter, so i woke up
• this person who likes jun togawa and i wanna be friends with posted a face reveal and the photo looked like an ai photo and people were like yo wtf? but they kept avoiding the questions until it was revealed THEY were the ai and the app deleted their account to silence them
• ween was releasing a new album of covers of songs from the 80s and i was looking at the track list where they had a cover of jun togawas song "odorenai" and i was able to keep it a secret from abby until she bought the album and was like HOLY SHIT!!! but we never got to that song even though we listened to it together cause they had 35 songs on the album, and odorenai was really low on the track list
• i woke up at 10pm and there was this punk couple outside on motorcycles so i went outside to see them, one had a huge red mohawk, and they gave me some penis bongs after the guys mohawk deflated
• i had 4 grim reaper figures, one was eating pizza, one was sitting down, one had its hood covering its face, and one was a hot woman. i was rearranging them on my bedside table but all the lights in my room were dying and we had no lightbulbs. no one was home so i couldn't get any and gave up on my redecorating goal. this woke me up at 3am and my chest was hurting really bad so i was sure it was a sign i was going to die if i went back to bed. SPOILER i did not!
• i met someone ive been following for a while and they were like don't feel bad if you can not look at me, i have no eyeballs. they did have eyeballs, but it was really weird in a way idk how to explain. then we made popcorn
• i had a dream about a bus and was like I NEED TO TELL ABBY ABOUT THIS. i don't remember anything else
• had a dream similar to this dress up game called recolor, but in 3d instead of 2d, and i was making chara from undertale in it and a dinosaur. my sister kept yelling at me because i was reorganizing her colored pencils for her swim meet
• my favorite culinary teacher had prostate cancer and he was going through a pamphlet with me on how to reduce it. online, there was discourse about how sculpters/potters were always the harshest critics despite not meaning to be. at some point i was testing how loud my cds were from outside my room, which was always too loud, and jun togawa made a song called "weird guy" based on luna and guys relationship
• luna and guy lived in a house full of freaks
• had a dream abby made this device and you had to put all the numbers in yourself and we made something into a smooth smooth paste and it was like a helmet
• dream about 3 women and they all died after their moods and personalities changed significantly, but no one picked up on something being wrong they just assumed they were being bitches for no reason and then they all died from this mysterious unknown brain disease where the first symptom and sign was massive changes in personality. one kept laughing at EVERYTHING including during inappropriate situations
• i was talking to jack mangum but it was his ai and he was like a real person still like i was talking to him face to faceand he kept trying to convince me to get into a box and tape me up in it
• abby, mari, and i were at a college very late and we were looking for food but the only food we could find was a vending machine with muffins in plastic bottles and we got so mad we were shaking the machine and were like OH COME ON!!!!!!!!!
• abby and i saw mitski live :)
• i was getting abby and i 2 cans of dr pepper and i had to open them with a can opener instead of with the tab like a normal person. the fact of doing that was so weird to me even in the dream i like bolted awake
• i was a 16 year old girl who died, and her cowboy boyfriend died at 17 but my little sister brought me back in a way that disturbed the time space continuum. people were trying to get the secrets on how we died, so they had to kill us again especially my cowboy boyfriend who exploded everywhere when he was killed for the second time. my family then had to wipe the fact we were ever even born from peoples memorys after this, then the pov switched to my little sister reading really sad messages my dad sent to my older sister.
• i was listening to cheri cheri lady in my dream, which was really weird cause i rarely ever listen to real songs in my dreams. my brain usually just makes up new ones.
• i ate chili made by the son of god (it was really good)
• abby and i were living in a mcdonalds we didn't work at, but i had to keep bringing the food that people ordered from doordash and abby used her psychic powers to tell me when the person was here. we had a pretty good system, all the waitresses wore pink mickey mouse dresses
• abby made a list of dates as they happened but was doing it like backwards or putting days that hadn't happened at all yet, and she was very suspicious about why she did it i kept asking and did NOT get a straight answer
• abby and my server became public to everyone and they all read our rps especially the very private ones
• had a GREAT dream about making a GREAT grilled cheese

2024

• owned fleece lined piplup socks (they were fuzzy)
  • also i was faced with a difficult situation and i was like i'll process this properly once i go to therapy, then there was a horrific car crash right outside my apartment (i lived in new york) but that wasn't the difficult situation. also people could see me getting dressed because i didn't have curtains.
• multiple dreams where i pull my hair out of my head and it's transparent, and has goop on it, and the follicle is chewable
• i was in a club for new years 2024 but i got overwhelmed after the fireworks so i went downstairs to the library that was actually a gift shop and i bought stuff for charlies birthday as late gifts there
• BIRTHDAY DREAM!!! i had to get surgery for this huge cut in my bladder i think? idk. it was bad and i limped to the vet, and they did this thing where they separated my brain and heart from my body so i woke up and i was just a machine. i was freaking out and screaming, but i was only a computer so my screams really meant nothing. you didn't get the same feeling as if i was a human but i kept begging for my body back despite it. they eventually gave in and gave me one, but it was also a machine and i had no hands.
• SAME NIGHT DREAM AS THE LAST valentine kept finding bugs in the grocery store and guava couldn't identify them until they got to the oreos, and she was like THESE ARE ALIVE GUAVA THEYRE LICE WE NEED TO LEAVE WE NEED TO LEAVE!!!
• abbys making me play this game and pressuring me to learn japanese from it because of this family photo she had that she couldn't read, and she NEEDED me to translate it.
  • second dream is the same scenario but she's teaching me spanish instead. there's a whiteboard that says ADULT LUNCH that she needed me to translate, but it was in english so i asked why she couldn't do it herself and then she lunged at me presumably
• i had some rocks that i was writing really long stories about and how they were used to kill people, and at the end it was actually guy's rock that he used to smash peoples head open. it was then revealed the rocks name was kuromi after luna had BEGGED him, and it had cute little outfits luna had made for it.
• scary dream? i didn't write down most of this, but i recorded a video for 5 minutes then went back to watch it and it was 95 minutes long. i saw someone die peacefully, but still saw their soul leave their body
• if you put discord servers in a new folder it'd automatically make the folder icon an nft
• i was in the house that spun again and there was a knock at the door so i answered it, then there were a bunch of shadow people coming in and i was like AHHHH!!!! and running through hallways, and told everyone to go through the doors so they didnt get hurt, which they DID no one was hurt but me because i was too tired to do it fast enough and got knocked out for the rest of the week which apparently no one truly cared about that not even my boss. then i went downstairs and into my dads new record shop he had inherited where it was PACKED and i fucked up and accidentally shattered a bottle with no alcohol cause i got too excited talking about my music cause my dads friend was talking to me and suggested i put my favorite music on display which i just got too excited of the potential fact my dad owned jun togawa records. abby and i were talking about music too and we added this sesame street song about death to my death music playlist i forgot what it was like but i was like whoa. really. when i woke up, it was REALLY casual for the topic
• abby, mari and i were at a mitski concert and i was SO so so upset because someone had thrown away these chocolate truffles i made for my mom before she died. i was crying and sobbing, and left the concert, only coming back after mari and abby sent me encouraging words on my moderated ps5 text system where i had a selection of words to choose from. i then drove back to the concert without any license
• i was very small and a clone of myself in my own mouth so that i could clean it out. i saw the footprints i left in my own mouth and pointed them out so normal me could clean it with our fingers. then i was taken out once my job was finished and squished.
• ween covered fred's debut album who's ready to party