gilgamesh by yapoos

• ive liked this song before i even knew of dial y!, and i think before i listened to dadada ism too, which means way before i knew what it meant. the song itself is about a horrible relationship, where both parties are too dependent on each other to leave. (a translation for it here) it felt heart-wrenching even without knowing the lyrics! its a good song to lay on your bed and stare at the ceiling to

akai sensha by yapoos

• this is another song from dial y!, but unlike gilgamesh i only heard to it after i started the album! its the last song on the album, and as opposed to gilgamesh, its a very hopeful one about overcoming your own hardships, and your parents, and your grandparents and so on. about pain and misery, but being aware that you're still alive and that you can always heal. you were born so you could live!!

bloodeater by mom

• i found this song when i was 17 or 18 and going through a really difficult time and it really resonated with me in a way it still does. its similar to akai sensha, but it isn't nearly as hopeful. more like things are always going to be this way, you need to learn to deal with it

wife by mitski

• i have never been a parent, nor do i plan to be one! but what makes me feel it about this song is that i fear if that's the way my life decides to go, losing all purpose and identity outside of being a parent. im not a person anymore, im only a mother

class of 2013 by mitski, audiotree version

• oughhhhhhhh ough augh oughahhbsddfdgbgnh dsvfbfddsSjixsa ouHagh

my baby wants a baby by st. vincent

• the reason for this one is pretty much the same to wife.

tangerine by glass animals

• this one is a little silly, it reminds me of my old best friend. we stopped being friends in early 2021, due to a lot of manipulation, drug abuse, and horrible things. i didn't hear this song until i saw glass animals in march 2022 cause i hadnt finished dreamland yet, and it was the first time i got to be in the front. it made me want to cry while i was dancing and feeling everything, and it still does when i listen to it. "i wish i could make you somebody else" makes me feel the most

CW FOR DEATH in hell we live, lament by mili ft KIHOW

• i listened to this song a lot right after my mom died, and the "life is fairness, life is inequality" part was something i listened to over and over again. its been a little while but it still makes me feel something when i listen to it. this is my 8th most listened to song on last.fm with 81 scrobbles, fun fact!